Slanesh: My last serious relationship was 2 years of...brow beating. When he finally dumped me and rubbed it in my face I sort of lost my marbles. I did a lot of digging. Used every weakness I knew they both had. I pitted them against one another without so much as breaking a sweat. I was obsessed with it. In the end, they broke up. But that wasn't enough.
Ectophile: By design - for the thrill of doing it because you could? Or did you overpower his ability and mind set?
Slanesh: The things I wanted to do to him would probably make you flinch.
Ectophile: I've been around, darling. I don't tend to flinch a great deal these days.
Slanesh: For me, with just about every dominant, I end up taking over. I have a strong personality. If someone is being an idiot with control, they will not longer have it. I refuse to be driven head long into a ditch just because he/she thinks he/she knows what they're doing.
Slanesh: one of the phrases I use most in every day life is "Don't worry about it. I'll do it."
Ectophile: Do you let them? Know what they're doing? Or is it you, that you're secretly, or not so, just wanting to drive and drive and drive. Just to drive it home that you're this undominable force of nature that shalt not be fucked with?
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Slanesh: Little of column A little of column B. There's only been one guy that's been able to command submission from me and gotten it freely since that wreck of a relationship. I gave up my collar due to his rl circumstances. Clingy rl who fought with him when we spent time. His rl is a jealous little faggot (I don't use that lightly). Alic has a son...I didn't want that for the boy
Slanesh: oop internet
Ectophile: You sound on fire.
Ectophile: Crackles and tongues, ready and eager to burn.
Ectophile: How to handle fire?
Ectophile: Extinguish or suffocate?
Ectophile: Would you have either?
Ectophile: I don't think so. Not your fire.
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Ectophile: Hello again, darling.
Slanesh: I figured out what I wanted a while ago. My ex...he was a liar. He couldn't tell one single truth. I knew it, I begged him to come clean for a very long time. But despite all that he didn't. Aside from the lies, and the whole "Master" mentality and his brooding antics. We got along swimmingly.
Slanesh: We would laugh for hours
Draiocht: Thank you, love. You're going to make me a mess of butterflies and squealing calling me that.
Slanesh: Wb Mira <3
Draiocht: Thanks, wifey <3
Slanesh: I would like basically the same aloof asshole who can fucking laugh and get on the same wave length
Slanesh: he and I were always on the same train of thought
Ectophile: But does fire really want to be held? Can it be held when it burns so? Who would dare approach a blaze like that, one so ferocious and consuming, even - especially - of the self within it.
Slanesh: could complete sentences and the whole nine, no one that ever saw us together thought he was going to do what he did
Ectophile: You'd have to be fucking insane. Or have string hands and be great at chess.
Slanesh: see I need a nice cool breeze to calm it down
Ectophile: strong.
Ectophile: Yes, you do. You see. Not controlled but directed. Not someone who;ll add to the fire but utilise it.
Slanesh: yep
Slanesh: I need a teammate
Ectophile: She's all a fire, your bestie wifey, darling. I like her.
Slanesh: XD
Slanesh: snap crackle pop
Slanesh: I am an Aries after all
Ectophile: Water and air and earth. How delightful.
Slanesh: And...I get bored if someone doesn't like...trigger that feeling
Slanesh: that connect
Slanesh: I just waddle off
Slanesh: disappear for months
Ectophile: Like that?
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Slanesh: XD
Slanesh: yeah
Ectophile: I had a sub. My best ever sub. Online, that is. She was mine for three and a half years. Utterly on fire with each other. All the time. Everything you could imagine. Perfect.
Ectophile: Then she vanished.
Ectophile: Just like that. No words. Nothing.
Ectophile: Can you imagine?
Ectophile: It ended a part of me and opened up another.
Slanesh: the sub I pretty much had to cut off yesterday: http://pastebin.com/4H70jWKC
Slanesh: well
Slanesh: the minute they say "I love you"
Ectophile: Oh, a guest name. I'm all impressed already.
Slanesh: they don't know the meaning of love...they don't know me...I'm not just what's seen. I'm not just sweet or all that stuff...I've got a lot more inside of me than just sweet sappy little notes.
Slanesh: Oh I know. I gave him a shot because I was bored.
Ectophile: Wow. Look at you go.
Ectophile: Who? Who fucked you over?
Ectophile: You are angry, aren't you. It's all over you.
Slanesh: It's bridled, but it's a lifetime of anger...the last one just sort of broke something that never quite snapped back. Hell it even affected my job, it affected my school, my family relationship...
Ectophile: That's all dead now, love. It's all ghosts. That thing out there that hurts you, that's you that is. I know how hard it is, trust me. I'm old. But you're sparkling over with it. You can see it in all the exchanges, coming off you like heat. It's scary and attractive. I'm attracted to it because I see potential and the desire to channel it. that's all in you, right there.
Ectophile: But smaller people. Little people. I think you enjoy watching them enter and burn up before your eyes like little offerings.
Ectophile: But none of them satisfy it, that anger. None of them even dent it.
Slanesh: hahahah yeah....I do
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Slanesh: WB dammit
Slanesh: stay
Ectophile: Hey, darling. Good to see you again again.
Draiocht: Tell that to my fucking satellite that goes "OH NO A RAINDROP MUST END TRANSMISSION!"
Slanesh  > Draiocht: I'll send you this conversation via email
Draiocht  whispers: Swooning....