Since this shouldn't even be about me, despite all the shit you've done, I'm doing to tell you right now exactly what you already fucking know. Sam's views on life are so fucking basic. There's a reason so many people are against what you are doing. You can kid yourself and try convince yourself you guys aren't conveying to 'social norms' but there's a fucking reason they're there. Think you're so smart and mature, maybe you should reflect on exactly what it's brought you. Because end of the day, this isn't even 100% Sam's fault.

The reason your relationship affects all your friendships is because people are actually compassionate and care. YOU let it affect people when you accept the fact that somehow it's standard that you shouldn't have friends who might see through your persona to what's really going on. You devalue their care so much by just saying you don't want them to care for you or whatever bullshit you say about it. Bottom line is you're just so fucking obsessed over this guy you can't open your eyes to the shit he's doing to you. The fact that you talk to so many people about your problems is sign that you want help. You know what you're doing is wrong, maybe you guys should re-read some of the shit you've said to people during times of need.

Your problem therein lies in the fact that you are so submissive you will let him walk all over you, and you managed to find the perfect guy to mindfuck you all the time. You guys compliment each other so well. You're literally in a cycle of psychological and sexual abuse that you're trapped and you can't get out of because your mind is conditioned to think it's right. Forcing you to have sex with him or you'll break up? That's not a normal, rational decision just because you can do "what you want to do". Putting people in a position where both options presented to them are very difficult is the most anti-social thing I've ever seen.

You think it's what you need to do. Because you 'love' him. There's always two sides to a story but this is the one I and many other people have been presented.

You literally pulled and pushed me constantly, using me for help whenever you required it and pushing me away when it was convenient for you. Fucking calling me crying, telling me you'll cut yourself to get me to trust you, then pulling shit like this? Calling Kenste poison and saying he corrupted you then running right back to him? Right now, I can't fathom how you can see you did anything wrong. You don't understand rhetoric and basic human decency. Maybe in time when you break up again and again you can reflect on this and I hope you don't fucking do this to someone else again, cos I know I wasn't the first person you did this to and I won't be the last.

You are a child and I hope you fix your shit before you or someone else gets fucked. First loves are tough but if you let it ruin your life then I feel bad for you. Right now, I can see how through your conditioning you would feel absolutely no remorse for what you did and what you are doing. I just feel bad for you now, whether or not you like it. It's just so tragic.