Personally, I wish I could be like, hey, yeah! We’re going to get back together, that positivity that I usually have, but as time and time goes and I talk to you, my emotions hurt more and more, because I come to grips of the reality that you’re probably going to choose Jo over me. Let me make it clear, I’m not trying to guilt you. I just want to express how I feel, because I think it’d be best for you if only you could understand. You make me feel really safe and that’s why I’m so scared to be without you, I really need you in my life, more than you need me, I see that you’re happy with this new guy and I’m really selfish for wanting you back, but I love you and I really do mean it when I say, I’m going to change, that I know how I’m going to do it, and I’m going to visit you. I mean that with my fullest heart. I just.. wish you could read my mind and understand my emotions, because personally I can’t.  If you really want to go off with Jo and live a happy life, I totally understand. The reason why I said the only thing that would happen is that I’d go away, never to return, is because of the fact that I have no place after you’ve decided to try to convince you, the conversation at that point is over, I’ll never have you back again, hence why I am choosing to exit your life. I list all the positives in staying with me, because frankly, I feel like I’m in a losing battle. I want to be like, hey just trust me. But what can I do, how can I compete against that? I feel ugly. I want to go back to the way we were, I want us to smile, I want to show you that I can change, but I don’t know anymore. I want you to be happy, and obviously you aren’t happy with me…. I’m sure he’s a better person that me. Look at this pity fest I’m writing, like, I’m probably going to look back and be like, what the hell… I just really love you and I feel more vulnerable than I’ve ever been. So, I guess, my fate is in your hands. So, don’t feel like you’re going to hurt me, if you want that. I understand. But, if you want me, I’ll understand too.