A Life In Ruins

A mental Mother,
A drunkard Father,
Going at each other,
Why do I bother,

To stay?
I could just run away,
Why do I brother to stay?
I do not wish to be here,

Another day.
I just want to go away,
I don't want to be here,
Another day.

I grew up,
Hating myself,
I threw down the shelf again,
Why can't I be open?

I wish to,
Tell you a tale,
Of a boy who's been broken,
I've been cracked right open,
All I'm doin',

Is moping about,
I just need to get out,
But I'm trapped in a corner,
It looks like I'm a loner again...

I grew up,
So very mad,
I'm quite insane,
I've said it again and again,

" Know you're place! "
" Get out of my face! "
" You're such a disgrace! "
It feels like I'm running in place...


Oh what a pity,
It suddenly hit me,
Nobody will miss me,
Turn up the intensity,
I don't need your blasphemy,
Today.

" We could have talked it out... "
" What was that all about? "
" There was no need to shout... "
" This is a place for happiness... "
Just stop doing this!

It is time,
For me to go,
Out into the snow,
Just let me be lonely,
Nobody can help me,
Now...

What if Death were to take me?
Why did God make me,
This way?

My life is,
Completely in ruins,
I've been brewin',
A plan for doin',
What's right.

This world,
Is not a place for me,
I just want to be,
Unbound and set free...

Why won't you let me,
End all my misery,
You never cared for me,
Why don't you just leave me be?

Should I kill myself?
Would that really help?
I already broke the shelf,
I already lost my voice,
Trying to call for help,

I could slip into the sea,
And drift among the kelp,
I took your hate to heart,
Now it's time for me,
To do my part.

Don't you dare start,
Trying to tear me apart,
Don't you have a heart?

I have lived a life,
Without any love,
Now push has come to shove,
Fly away little dove...

Time for me to end this,
It has been stupendous,
Time for me to go,
Out into the snow,
No one shall see me cry,
I think it's time to die,
Seems like this is goodbye...