Goodnight

So remember how i told you about that girl i met over twitter, because of her, and a variety of reasons, i went through a very depressed phase.It was like carrying an invisible weight, a monstrous hand choking me, i felt like i could not breathe, and i blamed everyone for it. I blamed her, i blamed my friends, i blamed women at large for being so heartless, i blamed everyone, but the one person who was responsible for it all. I couldn't see it then, but all my problem were due to this one person, this one toxic asshole who landed me in this shithole, and it was when i came across something George Bernard Shaw said that i realized who that person was. Here is the quote.

"This is the true joy in life, the being used for a purpose recognized by yourself as a mighty one; the being a force of nature instead of a feverish selfish clod of ailments and grievances complaining that the world will not devote itself to making you happy."

I made this my desktop wallpaper, i made this my cover photo, so that i was reminded every day, every moment, that that asshole, who was responsible for my problems,was...ME !
This taught me that world owes you nothing. Ultimately you are responsible for your happiness. No one, no one but you should hold the key for making you happy. Its all, in the end , down to you. The moment i realized this, the moment i understood that the world did not exist to make me happy, everything changed. I started doing things that made me happy. Working out, making films,writing code or heck even flirting with beautiful women and i changed, i became happier or in your words i became a 'child' again. A happy, silly , blue-eyed reverent, albiet a happy, silly blue-eyed reverent with biceps (Those are important :P)

That's it then for today Z . Now don't say i am never serious :P