To whom it may concern, if it concerns anyone at all:

	Over the past... few months, really, I have pondered one simple question: Exactly why do I use Smogon? What do I get out of it? To be honest, my best answer is: I don't fucking know.

	I don't know why I continue to return to a place that doesn't seem to offer anything positive. I have been on the receiving end of, and seen, negativity for any kind of opinion not held by the majority. To be frank, I would not be surprised if I have also participated in such negativity. I have also seen my words twisted, and the words of others twisted. Again, I would not be surprised if I have participated in this word-twisting, and could probably name a few scenarios where I did this.

	On the dissenting opinions, take, for example, my stance on circumcision. I've known for a while it's not a popular one, in America at least. In spite of this, however, I have received less hate for this position from Twitter, Facebook, and my own parents combined than I have from Smogon. This should really say something about your average Smogonite's ability to tolerate opinions that are not their own.

	I'm not perfect. I really don't have any room to be taking the moral high ground over any one of you given that I have been known to discuss details of my fetishes a little too openly. This is something I can't even come up with an excuse for. Oddly, I seem to be capable of speech filtering in real life, and all of a sudden that shit's just gone. Whatever. I can try as I might to avoid discussing it, but it wouldn't matter. You would not, under any circumstances, allow me to move on from it. You would exist solely to remind me of that.

	I can't honestly see Smogon as having had any kind of positive effect on me and I've felt my mental state progressively worsen. I've made it known since early on that I have Asperger syndrome. This isn't really something that has a major effect on me anymore. The things that do are the ones I haven't really discussed. I've dealt with anxiety, depression, and suicidal thoughts, all of which I've found aggravated simply by going on Smogon. I've found myself in an endless cycle of abusing something; if it's not alcohol, it's porn.

	I've reached possibly the lowest point in my life. I don't know if I will ever be able to live without feeling psychologically tormented on a daily basis, nor do I know if I will ever be able to live addiction-free. However, what I do know is that the only way I can prevent myself from reaching a lower point is to stop digging. I must stop, for whatever reason, going to a community that makes me feel worse. It's time to me to put this chapter of my life to an end.

-Adamant Zoroark
April 10, 2016