TSW 18: Mary/Walker

[01:59]	Mary	softly half knocks and then enters walkers room.
[02:00]	IcePickLobotomy	[ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vCHREyE5GzQ ] Walker is laying on the bed, slowly reading through a book, the old record player in the corn softly playing music. Classical. "Mary, hey." She sits up "What's wrong?"
[02:03]	Mary	"Day , talk all kind of things.."
[02:03]	Mary	still has her red eyes and scruffeld clothes
[02:03]	IcePickLobotomy	She nods and motions for Mary to take a seat. "It's been a pretty rough couple of days."
[02:07]	Mary	She walks over and simply sits down on the bed , slumbering foreward like a marionet with cut strings."John, made a joke about  pregnancy as we where drinking and, it all came crashing down"
[02:08]	IcePickLobotomy	She pulls Mary into a hug. "ANd you had a flashback?"
[02:10]	Mary	"With drinks, the atmopshere, arina saying about I being a danger to john and so people not being safe it .. it .."
[02:11]	IcePickLobotomy	"Shhh," She rubs your back "It's ok."
[02:11]	Mary	wimpers
[02:12]	IcePickLobotomy	(Read Person on Mary 1 DoS. Looking to see why exactly she feels bad I.E. Was it being compared to what happened to her, or just what happened in general)
[02:15]	Mary	(It, mostly the later but a bit of the former also because of the john issue there )
[02:16]	IcePickLobotomy	"You're safe here Mary, Arina and I would never let anything like that happen to you, and I don't think John or Kasra would either."
[02:17]	Mary	"I . I know it here " She points to her head " but." She points to her chest"
[02:18]	IcePickLobotomy	She nods. "After the Enterprise sunk it. . . took me almost 2 years to be able to brave the ocean again. Only reason I was Section-8ed was my father pulled some strings."
[02:18]	IcePickLobotomy	"It's hard Mary, but it can get better."
[02:19]	Mary	"It... I am interacting with boys again , and .. have fun, but.. but.. sometimes I. that , that is why I am afraid of him."
[02:21]	IcePickLobotomy	"Afraid that it'll happen again?"
[02:23]	Mary	I No yes I. it .."
[02:23]	Mary	"no..."
[02:24]	Mary	(And that is why therapy makes sense )
[02:26]	IcePickLobotomy	"Mary? Have you considered talking to a professional about this?"
[02:28]	Mary	"didn't think about it back then, without the money and...everything"
[02:29]	IcePickLobotomy	"And what about now? That's available to you, if you want it. I'm not going to force you though."
[02:34]	Mary	"I am , not mad.. am I?"
[02:35]	IcePickLobotomy	"No you're not mad Mary. You're not damaged, or anything like that. You had a something really really horrible happen to you, and people don't get over those sorts of things over night."
[02:36]	Mary	"Wold.. what would that mean for Meagan?"
[02:37]	IcePickLobotomy	"I don't think it means much of anything Mary. Meagan has a wonderful loving mother. Sure she's got a few hang ups, but who wouldn't after what she went through?"
[02:41]	Mary	"No I.. I mean..Will they take her away.."
[02:41]	IcePickLobotomy	"What? No. I promise you no one is going to take Mary away. I've seen nothing here that would inhibit your ability to care for her."
[02:42]	Mary	relaxes and deflates
[02:45]	IcePickLobotomy	"If you want to do that I can help get you sorted out tomorrow afternoon." She leans in to whisper "I dare say we'll be a tad hung over in the morning."
[02:49]	Mary	"I.. Yes I think that is a good idea, And someone was already barfing tonight based on the smell of the bath.. And .. about him  I.. I know that john does not want to harm me but.. he is so much like /him/ I....
[02:50]	IcePickLobotomy	She nods. "It's hard to not get reminded."
[02:54]	Mary	"Its.. That is also why I am more at ease with Kasra because they are so different"
[02:55]	IcePickLobotomy	"Doesn't hurt that he's uhh. . . bit less of a meat head."
[02:59]	Mary	"And not uh... quite as footballer"
[03:00]	IcePickLobotomy	She nods. "True, true."
[03:00]	Mary	"Even if it has some nice looks its... the look is scaring me."
[03:01]	Mary	("Clearly the best idea to deal with her fear of boys is to set her up with Kasra")
[03:06]	=-=	Mary is now known as Scya
[14:29]	Scya	Shall we go on?=
[14:29]	IcePickLobtomy	nods
[14:30]	=-=	Scya is now known as Mary
[14:34]	Mary	(walkers turn to react to the confessions)
[14:35]	IcePickLobtomy	"I'm not going to say you shouldn't be wary of men in some situations, but neither should you let your fear rule you either." She smiles "And if I were 15 years younger I'd be trying to get my hooks into him."
[14:37]	Mary	"Which of them, the dreamyer intelectual, or the jock? What was teenage walker doing?"
[14:38]	IcePickLobtomy	"Teenage Walker was a /bit/ of a rebel, so she'd probably have gone for the one most likely to piss her father off. That'd be John seeing as he's Army."
[14:39]	Mary	(hmhm and I am still thinking abot the yuriness, and if there is a way to add it possibly in there, well as long as there is no Kerensky around for that =
[14:46]	Mary	"Well, instead of the Foreigner that is sort of a Airforce Pilot?"
[14:47]	IcePickLobtomy	She shrugs "It's hard to say, maybe."
[14:52]	Mary	(just how to raise it..)=
[14:52]	Mary	"Wait .. you where in London in the 60s ..."
[14:53]	IcePickLobtomy	"I was."
[14:54]	Mary	"So... Sex Pistols, Drugs, free loveß"
[14:54]	IcePickLobtomy	"Ah, uh. .er. . . " She mumbles for a few moments "More or less. . . ."
[14:56]	Mary	"Drunk distraction is a goo so taalk"
[14:57]	IcePickLobtomy	"Har har, yes. I'm not sharing the details though."
[14:57]	Mary	(..did she ever asks her for her first name?)
[14:57]	Mary	( i thought it would make sense buut it wasx not on screen)
[14:58]	IcePickLobtomy	(Walker's first name is Amanda, and you guys do know that)
[15:06]	Mary	"Amanda... That only showcases that you did stuff there. I am not mentioning any drugs to METI. "
[15:06]	IcePickLobtomy	She snorts "I already told you I was a bit of a rebel, in the 60's. Of /course/ I did "stuff". . and poeple."
[15:11]	Mary	"Well then there Is no harm in sharing, or call it confessioning to guide a young woman way from troubles "
[15:11]	IcePickLobtomy	"Or, you're just trying to pry some of my secrets from me." Her tone is good natured
[15:12]	Mary	"Well what harm is there in them?"
[15:16]	IcePickLobtomy	"Feh, fine."
[15:16]	Mary	"Storyhor "
[15:17]	Mary	(drunk moodswings are  drunk and a distraction)
[15:17]	IcePickLobtomy	Mary: Walker regals you of a few choice bits from her teenage years, of sneaking out of the boarding school to run around London. The adventures in illicit substances, illicit rendezvous, and the like.
[15:22]	Mary	(yui anectode in ther eor something sounding like it if I spend a luck point ?;P
[15:23]	IcePickLobtomy	"And that's how I ended up experimenting with girls." She shrugs "Not to my taste however." She snickers
[15:24]	Mary	That was the episode that made her look a bit more blushing " Well, uh. so ..."
[15:29]	IcePickLobtomy	She clears her throat "Don't mention that to anyone please."
[15:31]	Mary	nods
[15:31]	Mary	"Uh.. how..."
[15:31]	IcePickLobtomy	"How what?"
[15:31]	Mary	"That.. , uh.. "
[15:31]	IcePickLobtomy	"The. . mechanics?"
[15:32]	Mary	shakes her head
[15:34]	IcePickLobtomy	"Then, uh. . ."
[15:36]	Mary	"How did uh... what made you do it?"
[15:36]	IcePickLobtomy	"Curiosity, peer pressure, being a bit. . high at the time."
[15:37]	Mary	"oh.."
[15:37]	IcePickLobtomy	"Don't get me wrong, I wasn't forced into it or anything like that."
[15:37]	Mary	"What .. is the difference in , well compared to wanting boys?"
[15:40]	IcePickLobtomy	"I don't really know? I mean I guess it's not actually different for homosexuals."
[15:43]	Mary	"Well , you had to decide there after all so did you go with the one that you thought was the best looking one or was there just a spark there?"
[15:44]	IcePickLobtomy	"I don't really remember the logic for why her. Guess she was the best looking one? I mean that was my main metric at that time frame there. . ."
[15:45]	Mary	"Well I was wondering, is it like when you look at some boys and know, well it is someone that is artistically pretty but not one that you would want to cuddle with..."
[15:46]	IcePickLobtomy	"I think so."
[15:46]	IcePickLobtomy	"I mean that was /years/ ago."
[15:47]	Mary	"hmhm"
[15:51]	IcePickLobtomy	"Not planning in following in my footsteps are you?"
[15:57]	Mary	blinks and blushes deeply "I eh , I am not planing on taking pot and having orgies with boys while the sex pistols are on the radio"
[15:57]	IcePickLobtomy	"It was one time!"
[15:57]	IcePickLobtomy	"One!"
[15:58]	Mary	"And you liked it "
[15:58]	IcePickLobtomy	"N-n-no comment!"
[15:59]	Mary	"You are blushing"
[16:00]	IcePickLobtomy	"So are you!"
[16:00]	Mary	"Am not"
[16:00]	Mary	!
[16:00]	Mary	looks down
[16:00]	IcePickLobtomy	"Yes you are!"
[16:04]	Mary	"And if I am?"
[16:04]	IcePickLobtomy	". . ." Walker's upraised finger slowly falls back into her hand ". . . I actually don't know."
[16:04]	Mary	"See"
[16:05]	Mary	tries and fails to get a good distraction going on.
[16:06]	IcePickLobtomy	"Well it's probably a good thing you're not going to follow my footsteps there. Not surprised either, you're a /little/ more tame than I was."
[16:09]	Mary	" A burned child and all that "
[16:09]	IcePickLobtomy	SHr frowns and pats you on the back. "Yeah. . ."
[16:18]	Mary	"hmhm..."
[16:18]	Mary	seems to think as she leans against her.
[16:24]	IcePickLobtomy	Walker sighs and gives Mary a brief hug
[16:28]	Mary	"hmh?" she noises a bit questiongly at her
[16:28]	IcePickLobtomy	"You seemed like you needed another hug."
[16:34]	Mary	"Maybe .. I... "
[16:34]	Mary	(read person on mary?)
[16:34]	IcePickLobtomy	(Ahaha, nope!)
[16:35]	Mary	(trying very hard to evade insight there)
[16:35]	IcePickLobtomy	(Also drunk)
[16:37]	Mary	(hey she might know the situation from the all girls school was my idea there )
[16:42]	Mary	"Thanks it, It helps "
[16:45]	IcePickLobtomy	"What I'm here for."
[16:53]	Mary	"Having people around you hurt.. But I feel being alone can be worse.."
[16:53]	IcePickLobtomy	"Yeah."
[16:53]	Mary	(considering the drnkness , isn't it more likely that both are already laying in bed and philosophying?
[16:53]	IcePickLobtomy	(Yeap)
[16:54]	Mary	rolls around a bit resting against walker
[16:54]	IcePickLobtomy	Walker shifts a bit.
[16:59]	Mary	"I....Ma'am.."
[16:59]	IcePickLobtomy	"Yeah?"
[17:00]	IcePickLobtomy	"And no ma'am please. Doesn't quite feel right right about now."
[17:03]	Mary	"I, I hate my feelings"
[17:05]	IcePickLobtomy	She drops of chocolate on your chest.
[17:05]	Mary	blinks and then takes a bit of it
[17:08]	Mary	"Bribes?"
[17:08]	IcePickLobtomy	"No, chocolate makes you feel better."
[17:09]	Mary	"Bribing my hormons then... at least it is better then pregnancy crawings."
[17:10]	IcePickLobtomy	" /That/ is one aspect of parenthood I don't mind missing."
[17:14]	Mary	"On the other hand .."
[17:14]	Mary	looks down and rests her hand on her tumy, and then wanders down to one of her scars there
[17:19]	Mary	"And.. you can care for her more often if you want to..."
[17:20]	IcePickLobtomy	"Might be nice. . . I've always wanted to be the cool aunt."
[17:20]	IcePickLobtomy	She sighs "No siblings though, so. . . Yeah."
[17:24]	Mary	"Well you are a goo one, or a older sister.."
[17:24]	IcePickLobtomy	"A bit /too/ old for a older sister. Aunt is good with me though."
[17:35]	Mary	"Well older sister to me in that case and aunt for meagan."
[17:37]	IcePickLobtomy	"I'm happy with that. About as close as I'm going to get these days anyways."
[17:38]	Mary	"And if you found the right one, well you are not too old yet "
[17:38]	IcePickLobtomy	"Wouldn't matter unless I adopted. Radiation poisoning left me sterile."
[17:40]	Mary	blink and then hugs her in a crushing embrace
[17:41]	IcePickLobtomy	"Eh, uh. Thank you Mary but it's really not that big of a issue for me."
[17:47]	Mary	"Its, Sorry I.. I shoul not have talked about all that.."
[17:48]	IcePickLobtomy	"No, no, it's fine. As I said, it's not a issue for me."
[17:52]	Mary	"Still.. uh.."
[18:01]	Mary	"Well , other topics to deal with this?"
[18:01]	Mary	"Like... We fight with souls"
[18:02]	IcePickLobtomy	"I guess, you're the expert here."
[18:03]	Mary	"Well I, well you heard as much there as I heard I... I I never thought about what that means "
[18:04]	IcePickLobtomy	"I wasn't really paying much attention to Vernbeck in there actually."
[18:05]	Mary	"It is based on brain activity and only present in more aware being and ... the question is , what lese is it hten?"
[18:07]	IcePickLobtomy	"I don't know. Maybe ask Kasra about it? He's pretty buddy buddy with SciDiv."
[18:14]	Mary	"Yes , but I don't want to take up to much of his time.."
[18:14]	IcePickLobtomy	". . . I think, that Kasra would like having someone to talk to about this actually. He's pretty eager to make friends with you all."
[18:18]	Mary	"Well yes, and he is nice so I always wonder about him not having more as he is nice and smart."
[18:18]	IcePickLobtomy	"He was raised by SciDiv, no real chance to interact with anyone his own age."
[18:21]	Mary	"Poor guy.."
[18:21]	IcePickLobtomy	"Yeah."
[18:22]	Mary	"Hmhm... maybe we should set him up with someone..."
[18:22]	IcePickLobtomy	"Kinda makes me wanna. . . hug him extra hard." She makes a grasping motion with her arms. "Mmm, maybe. . ."
[18:22]	Mary	"Well, yes...."
[18:29]	Mary	"But with whoom."
[18:29]	IcePickLobtomy	"Mary? I'm saying this as a outside observer, but you're probably his closest match, at least among those of you I know."
[18:30]	IcePickLobtomy	"Not that you have to, or should."
[18:30]	Mary	"i.. ?"
[18:30]	Mary	sounds  more like she is surprised about the idea
[18:31]	IcePickLobtomy	"Well, I don't think Arina is going to see him in that light, not unless he manages some pretty big changes in how he views himself. He and Reagan don't interact much at all, and while he and Robin are pretty friendly I don't get the sense they're attracted to eachother like that."
[18:32]	IcePickLobtomy	"And honestly you're the only one here who's able to keep up with him in terms of intelligence."
[18:38]	Mary	"But I,, well I... me.."
[18:38]	Mary	(Am in Lesbians)
[18:38]	Mary	(Possed by a wild Shula)
[18:38]	Mary	(am I?)
[18:39]	IcePickLobtomy	"Hey now, I'm not saying you /have/ to date him or anything." She smiles "I'm more teasing you, and to be honest I don't think Kasra is interested in anyone that way."
[18:41]	Mary	"Well I , would also be sunsrue if I am.. well okay enough for him"
[18:41]	IcePickLobtomy	"Fah, I think you'd be fine Mary."
[18:43]	Mary	"..Why?"
[18:44]	IcePickLobtomy	"Well, I can't think of any reasons why you'd be /bad/ for one. I mean if it was serious you'd need to tell him about Meagan but otherwise? You're a smart driven girl. A little bitter but who wouldn't be in your situation? And you do care about everyone here I think."