[17:09:46] k y l e: hii
[17:09:56] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: Hey!
[17:10:26] k y l e: Sorry this is just a random hello but I feel like crying and I just really need to talk to a friend
[17:10:38] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: Ah, okay
[17:11:12] k y l e: I'm sorry I didn't mean to interrupt you if you were busy
[17:11:26] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: No I'm not, just changing for work, thats all really
[17:11:37] k y l e: I just need to get my mind off of wanting to kill myself
[17:11:48] k y l e: SO I hope you have a good day at work
[17:12:31] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: Um, killing yourself?
[17:12:36] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: Thats a little dramatic?
[17:15:25] k y l e: I know you don't know everything I've been through lately but please don't assume I'm just being dramatic

It's a situation where things just pile and pile and it gets so stressful to where you just don't want to deal with it anymore
[17:15:50 | Edited 17:15:58] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: and thats enough of an excuse to scare your friends into thinking you're going to kill yourself?
[17:15:51] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: yeah no
[17:16:34] k y l e: Lmao you have no fucking clue what happened in past few weeks to me do you
[17:16:37] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: Sorry I had to go through 5 years of my best friend in the world threatening suicide because her sister died, she lost her job, she was living in a shelter, her handbag was stolen, she was contemplating drugs
[17:16:52] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: Excuse me if I'm not going to deal with it with anyone else. (:
[17:17:26] k y l e: nevermind I picked the wrong person to talk to, I just wanted to cheer up

fucking christ
[17:17:39] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: I may not know whats going on with you, and I'm not going to assume, but two things kyle.
I am your friend, so don't curse at me.
and if you want me to stay your friend and be supportive, don't threaten to kill yourself for my attention.
[17:18:29] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: Sorry I'm not going to pat your ass, if you want to talk through your issues I'm right here for you, but if you want to subtweet me and talk about how nobody cares about you because I'm a little mad that you'd actually threaten suicide first and foremost, then thats fine
[17:19:08] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: Message me when you're done cursing at me and you'd like someones support, as opposed to someone you just want to taunt suicide with.
[17:19:20] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: I take that shit seriously.
[17:19:58] k y l e: I'm not fucking asking for your attention?? I wanted a friend to cheer me up because I've been WAY too depressed as of late, and thinking about suicide WAY too much, and you respond to me like I'm talking about suicide like it's a fucking joke? Are you kidding me?
[17:20:18] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: Okay so you say "I'm going to commit suicide" straight off the bat
[17:20:22] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: WHAT do Ii say to that?
[17:20:23] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: Like what?
[17:20:42] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: like you've said, I have no idea whats going on with your life, so how can I help you?
[17:21:09] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: Cut the cursing or I'm logging off kyle, I DON'T deal with that. I didn't deal with it with Andrew and I'm not dealing with it now.
[17:21:32] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: If you want us to talk through whats happening, don't disrespect me, tell me whats happening and we can talk like mature adults
[17:21:33] k y l e: Well first off, by NOT assuming all is fine and dandy, and maybe consider that I am ACTUALLY suicidal
[17:22:26] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: How would I know all is fine and dandy?
[17:22:31] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: you didn't tell me?
[17:22:39] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: you haven't been telling me whats happening in your life?
[17:23:03] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: how would  I know? Friends tell friends whats happening in their lives, not jumping straight to HEY IM SUICIDAL TALK TO ME
[17:23:06] k y l e: Exactly. I told you I've been shitty, suicidal, and you tell me I'm overreacting.
[17:23:09] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: Seriously, thats not funny.
[17:23:27] k y l e: Holy hell I'm not TRYING to be funny
[17:23:36] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: I've actually had to GO through that with someone, just springing it on me is bringing back a LOT of bad memories for me
[17:24:15] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: You came to a friend for an opinion, and the way you broached this to me comes off as dramatic - you came to me for an opinion, I'm sorry it wasn't the one you wanted.
[17:25:46] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: If you want to discuss this in all seriousness, you're going to need to shine some light on the situation
[17:26:57] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: and by the way "Holy hell did I pick the wrong person to talk to,"
What does that mean? Becuase I didn't take you threatening suicide lightly means I'm a bad friend? really?
[17:28:37] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: At least I care enough to question your behaviour, instead of patting your ass and telling you everything's going to be fine when  I don't even know whats happening.
[17:29:27] k y l e: I have felt depressed for months, doing my best to hide it. I've taken depression and anxiety medication for the past year, but now I'm slowly slipping back to the bottom. My parents straight up tell me I'm being kicked out at the end of the year. That they don't care if I'm homeless. The only fucking person that loves me in my family anymore is Kelly.

And "questioning my behavior" is not the same thing as "get over yourself you pussy. You don't know real suicidal thoughts"
[17:29:50] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: Did I say that? I don't recall.
[17:30:42] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: Then do something about it, I know it sucks that your parents are going to kick you out, but the best thing right now is to find a job, and if thats completely impossible, sell your ps4 and games, get yourself set up in a basic apartment and continue hunting for jobs.
[17:30:58] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: you could apply for IT jobs, something maintaining websites so you could do it from home
[17:31:09] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: I know WoW and LoL servers need maintenance workers
[17:31:23] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: Its not much but it'll keep you going while you get the experience for your  CV
[17:31:26] k y l e: So I'm sorry Tanu, but I really don't think you're the best person to talk to right now.

If I am truly suicidal, and apparently, you don't know, do you honestly think giving me this attitude would help any at fucking all?
[17:31:47] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: Okay sorry for attempting to give you a solution sweetie. Sorry for caring.
[17:32:26] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: If you want to sulk because IM ATTEMPTING TO OFFER YOU A SOLUTION then sorry I couldn't just pat your ass because I don't do that to friends who need solutions.
[17:32:30] k y l e: No. Caring is not "don't joke about this issue!!" When I'm being fucking serious.
[17:32:56] k y l e: I'm just walking away from this.
[17:32:58] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: I know what caring is kyle. I told you like three times to quit the cursing and you are incapable.
[17:33:04] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: Sorry for trying to help.
[17:33:22] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: Talk to me when you're ready to find a mature solution through mature means
[17:33:40] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: I help friends who don't curse me out.
[17:34:27] k y l e: Says the girl who is legitimately one of the most vulgar mouthed people I know. How the hell you care about vulgarity now, I'll never know.
[17:34:55] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: Hey thats it, insult me when I'm trying to help you! please, keep digging
[17:35:26] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: and just to let you know, I'd NEVER curse anyone out who would try to help me and vice versa. Its called common curtosy.
[17:35:58] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: PLEASE message me when you're ready to be mature about this. Please. I want to help my friends, but NOT when they decide to turn on me.
[17:36:37] k y l e: Holy Christ. I honestly don't even know if I'm talking to the same person
[17:36:48] k y l e: goodbye lisa
[17:37:35] [ TOXIKAIJU ♥. ]: and by the way, In my friends, and Andrew's darkest hours, I've NEVER been called names. Thanks for that sweetheart, I will never forget that. Ever.