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- (Ken Wilber, No Boundary [ http://www.amazon.com/No-Boundary-Ken-Wilber/dp/0394748816 ])
- Begin with the sense of hearing. Close your eyes and attend
- to the actual process of hearing. Notice all the odd sounds floating
- around—birds singing, cars rumbling, crickets chirping, kids laughing,
- TV blaring. But with all those sounds, notice that there is one thing
- which you cannot hear, no matter how carefully you attend to every
- sound. You cannot hear the hearer. That is, in addition to those sounds,
- you cannot hear a hearer of those sounds.
- You cannot hear a hearer because there isn’t one. What you have
- been taught to call a "hearer" is actually just the experience of hearing
- itself, and you don’t hear hearing. In reality, there is just a stream of
- sounds, and that stream is not split into a subject and an object. There is
- no boundary here.
- If you let the sensation of being a "hearer" inside the skull dissolve
- into hearing itself, you might find your "self" merging with the entire
- world of "outside sounds." As one Zen Master exclaimed upon his enlightenment,
- "When I heard the temple hell ring, suddenly there was no
- bell and no I, just the ringing." It was through such an experiment that
- Avalokiteshvara is said to have gained his enlightenment, for in
- giving awareness to the process of hearing, he realized that there was no
- separate self, no hearer, apart from the stream of hearing itself. When
- you try to hear the subjective hearer, all you find are objective sounds.
- And that means that you do not hear sounds, you are those sounds. The
- hearer is every sound which is heard. It is not a separate entity which
- stands back and hears hearing.
- The same is true of the process of seeing. As I look carefully at the
- visual field, it seems almost to hang in space, suspended in nothingness.
- Yet it consists of an infinitely rich pattern of interlaced lights, colors, and
- shades, forming themselves into a mountain here, a cloud there, a stream
- below. But of all the sights I can see, there is still that one thing which I
- cannot see, no matter how the eyes strain. I cannot see the seer of this
- visual field.
- The more I try to see the seer, the more its absence begins to puzzle
- me. For years it seemed perfectly natural to assume that I was the seer
- which saw sights. But the moment I go in search of the seer, I find no
- trace of it. In fact, if I persist in trying to see the seer, all I find are things
- which are seen. This simply means that I, the "seer," do not see sights—
- rather I, the "seer," am identical to all those sights now present. The socalled
- seer is nothing other than everything which is seen. If I look at a
- tree, there is not one experience called "tree" and another experience
- called "seeing the tree." There is just the single experience of seeing-thetree.
- I do not see this seeing any more than I smell smelling or taste
- tasting.
- It seems that whenever we look for a self apart from experience, it
- vanishes into experience. When we look for the experiences, we find
- only another experience—the subject and object always turn out to be
- one. Because this is a rather unnerving experience, you might now be
- feeling somewhat confused, as you sit thinking all of this over. But push
- onward just a bit. As you are now thinking about this, can you also find a
- thinker who is thinking about this?
- That is, is there a thinker who thinks the thought, "I am confused," or
- is there just the thought, "I am confused"? Surely there is just the present
- thought, because if there were also a thinker of the thought, would you
- then think about the thinker who is thinking the thought? It seems
- obvious that what we mistakenly believe to be a thinker is really nothing
- other than the stream of present thoughts.
- Thus, when the present thought was "I am confused," you were not
- at the same time aware of a thinker who was thinking, "I am confused."
- There was just the present thought alone—"I am confused." When
- you then looked for the thinker of that thought, all you found was
- another present thought, namely "I am thinking I am confused." Never
- did you find a thinker apart from the present thought, which is only to
- say that the two are identical.
- This is precisely why the sages advise us not to try to destroy the
- "self," but simply to look for it, because whenever we look for it all we
- find is its prior absence. But even if we have begun to understand that
- there is no separate hearer, no taster, no seer, and no thinker, we are still
- likely to find within ourselves a type of irreducible, core feeling of being
- a separate and isolated self. There is still that sensation of being separate
- from the world out there. There is still that gut feeling that I somehow
- know as my inner "self." Even if I can’t see, taste, or hear my self, I
- definitely feel my self.
- Well, can you find, in addition to the feeling you are now calling
- your "self," a feeler who is doing the feeling? If it seems that you can,
- can you then feel the feeler who is doing the feeling? Again, that core
- sensation of being a feeler who has feelings is itself just another feeling.
- The "feeler" is nothing but a present feeling, just as the thinker is just a
- present thought and the taster is just present tastes. In this case, too, there
- is no separate feeler different from present feelings—and there never
- was.
- Thus the inescapable conclusion starts to dawn on us: there is no
- separate self set apart from the world. You have always assumed you
- were a separate experiencer, but the moment you actually go in search of
- it, it vanishes into experience. As Alan Watts puts it, "There is simply
- experience. There is not something or someone experiencing experience!
- You do not feel feeling, think thoughts, or sense sensations any more
- than you hear hearing, see sight, or smell smelling. ‘I feel fine’ means
- that a fine feeling is present. It does not mean that there is one thing
- called an ‘I’ and another separate thing called a feeling, so that when you
- bring them together this ‘I’ feels the fine feelings. There are no feelings
- but present feelings, and whatever feeling is present is ‘I.’ No one ever
- found an ‘I’ apart from some present experience, or some experience
- apart from an ‘I’—which is only to say that the two are the same thing."
- Now when you understand that there is no gap between "you" and
- your experiences, doesn’t it start to become obvious that there is no gap
- between "you" and the world which is experienced? If you are your
- experiences, you are the world so experienced. You do not have a sensation
- of a bird, you are the sensation of a bird. You do not have an
- experience of a table, you are the experience of the table. You do not
- hear the sound of thunder, you are the sound of thunder. The inner
- sensation called "you" and the outer sensation called "the world" are one
- and the same sensation. The inner subject and the outer object are two
- names for one feeling, and this is not something you should feel, it is the
- only thing you can feel.
- That means that your state of consciousness right now is, whether
- you realize it or not, unity consciousness. Right now you already are the
- cosmos, you already are the totality of your present experience. Your
- present state is always unity consciousness because the separate self,
- which seems to be the major obstacle to unity consciousness, is always
- an illusion. You needn’t try to destroy the separate self because it isn’t
- there in the first place. All you really have to do is look for it, and you
- won’t find it. That very not-finding is itself an acknowledgement of unity
- consciousness. In other words, whenever you look for your "self" and
- don’t find it, you momentarily fall into your prior and real state of unity
- consciousness.
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