Maniac Mod Meltdown Madness

I pretty much stopped because being a mod brought me little satisfaction at all, being an incompetent mod, while also having to deal with all the nuisances that come with the job.

Being a mod used to be fun, back when it was still fresh, but then mods left, stopped beings mods or never did much to begin with and it was mostly just me and Scintilla having to mod an ever-worsening FH without Pseudolonewolf being there to even clarify on any rules.

After a while it seems like the only reports that kept coming in were ones where it was simply impossible to do a satisfying job, we'd have people who often are complained about, but then they never quite break the rules severely enough to be punished, so I'm stuck having to go around, talk to these bothersome people, weigh the matter and all that, and then what?

We either end up either doing something and have people bitch and moan it was unjustified and how we're being unreasonable to their friends or they discredit our research or question everything at all times and never are satisfied or it turns out the reporter him/herself was being just as bad and there's worse people getting away with more, or we do nothing as these people go around and poison the site with their behaviour and people question the competence of the mods and whether they even do anything, no matter what I'd be screwed and I can't say my efforts amounted to much since at the rate it takes for someone to be banned I'd need to endure that crap several times for just one person.

I can blame myself for it, and I partially do, but then that goes for the overall site too, which if it were better wouldn't need to be modded like that, or if there were more mods and not just me and Scintilla where I don't want to deal with having to deal with unpleasant people while she seems to be more lenient than I'd like the mods to be (while not doing much myself to change that), or Pseudo himself who's given us Stone-Age level of moderation tools to work with.

Then there's times when even being a mod is annoying, like when I enter and someone annoying is like "GASP A MOD" like that didn't stop being funny a while ago or when people say stuff like "You sure are X for a mod".

Either way, I put in effort and let people down I'm supposed to be helping and protecting and I'm letting myself down too worst of all. The worst part of it all might be that since I had such a responsibility that I took it serious, which makes all this more annoying since I actually don't want to let down others or myself, and I knew that even though I'm being on FH less and less, being a mod was only really holding me back and tying me to here in a way I don't want to be.

Near the end of 2013 there were two times when there were several of these cases going on at once and it just drained me, I decided that rather than wallow in doubts and seem pitiable I'd rather take action and exercise my right to be able to stop being a mod at any given moment, certainly not feeling like I owe being a mod to anyone or any site after nonsense like that. It took two weeks for it to happen, but then at least it finally did. (And just moments later FH seems to enter another whirlwind of drama and intrigue, showing me just how much of a relief it is to be able to say at any time that I don't need to be some liaison between FH and Pseudo and can just stay away from the mess.)