Littel

Prologue

Suicide Website.

Informed persons of course know about it. It is a site where suicide methods are recorded and where you can find company to suicide together.

I was among the users of this site.

It’s not because I wanted to kill myself.
However, I was tempted by death.

In this world I was in simple despair.

I received a simple bullying.
It was not straightforward . It was the malicious type of ignoring.
In class, at lunchtime, on my way home too, I was alone.
Because they already used violence directly during my primary school days , this was better?

I’m learning kendo and aikido now. I didn’t like being bullied so I started during primary school.
I became considerably strong , therefore recently the guys who used violence are gone.

These guys are miserable.
Even if weaklings compensate with violence, because they can’t win they can only ignore me.

Well, I too despised them so there is no way that we can get along.

Their attitude is similar to how my father acts at home.
He used to get violent with me when my mother died, but now he's frightened that i might retaliate and doesn't talk with me anymore.

After all, that's how the world works.
It doesn't matter how much you fix your attitude/reputation, in the end power means everything in the world.
If they are no match for your strenght, they won't face you directly.

Having said that, even if you have power you can’t take the top of the current world.

I believe that the world is rotten.

This is the reason why I was thinking of such a thing.
And I then got sucked in by the website that I found by accident.

If I think about it, I don’t have any attachment to this world.
I don’t have a family that I can rely on, a lover, or even friends.
apart from that I don't have any other regrets.

My grades aren't particularly good.
Because of the abuse that I received from my father, entering university is impossible.
And I’m poor.

By the way, the priest of a buddhist temple is teaching to the children aikido and kendo free of charge.
However, I knew it.
The priest wanted to touch all over the girls to his taste.
It's those kind of things that shows how the world is rotten.

If I have one regret, it would be "that".
Honesty, I wanted to graduate of my virginity.
It is sad to die without ever having had this experience.
It's this kind of things a highschool boy thinks about.

Also, after all dying is scary.
I dislike painful and scary things.

If a person is determined to die they can do anything.
I was considerably devoted in kendo and aikido.
I suppose that I have a considerable power.
I think I’d be lying if I said that I have the feeling that the situation would improve one way or another.

When I could not have the determination and firmness to kill myself, a link popped up in front of my eyes : 「Before you decide to commit

suicide」.

So. This, this is.
For the healthy young me, the still a second-year student of high school, a recommendation about not ending my life.
I wanted something like this.

Still I’m scared to die.
For the time being I clicked the advertisement.

…...What is this?

I who moved to that page, murmur instinctively.

To put it in a fast way, The recommendation is that if it's difficult to live in this world, then go to another world.
Seriously?

An appropriate world for you to live in, thus, you can select the one you'd like.

A world where science and technology develops, a world where pirates dominate, a world with sword and magic.......

So there is a world with magic?
When I choose it, a world where only human lives, a world where humans, elf and dwarf lives, a world where are humans, demihumans and human

beast, etc, those choices rolled down successively,

I understood.

This is an entrance to a net game.
An advertisement link probably.

I don’t understand the proposition of an advertisement for candidates to suicide, but I won’t think deeper about it, and continue.
It’s possible that a net games would help now.
Instead of thinking about a suicide, it is more saludable.
Unexpectedly, maybe because there are many that think that way, they made this advertisement.

I only played a few net games since high school.
But since I had no friends it was only solo play.

So that’s why. I didn’t fit, and some time later I stopped playing games.
Still, I enjoyed it.
I didn’t hate it.

When I continue moving forward, they make me choose from several cultures and countries.

Why is nothing interresting is happening?
When I was getting tired, there were other countries in my path.           // no idea what that meant //

The next choice was the frequency of war.
A world where countries fight each other aggressively, or a peaceful world.

In the case of a online game, when you joined a guild you could participate in guild wars.
It’s unrelated to a solo player like me.
The four worlds that inclines toward peace is chosen.

After that, dungeon type or field type.
It’s difficult to choose either.
I choose both.

It’s mysterious about why I have to choose and a man in uniform don’t came, the last, I think that a recommendation is going to appear. // again

no idea what he meant there , a reference to something ? man in black ? //

Really, there is a lot to choose.
They made me choose even the language used.

It seems there is no japanese.
What is brahim?
I put in default because I don't understand well.

When I became bored with so many entries, a bonus points page appears.

Oh.
Like a game.

I clicked several times again, the numerical value is changed.
I’m the absorbed type with things like these.
Until a nice number appears I’m going to continue.

I love aikido, It's possible that I was absorbed with that too.
The same action is repeated many times. In a way it was fun.

Only a low number of bonus points come out.
There are many 10s to 20s. One digits too.
What shall be the highest number?

Oops, 62.
Is it high? Maybe it can go higher, a difficult number.

I started repeatedly clicking again.
There was 40 at times and once in awhile 50.
I have to aim for a higher number than before.

71.
The numerical value has turned green.
does it mean that this is passable?

But in one column appear 1.
If the last was 5 it would be sufficient, and I want to aim for a number a bit higher, if it is possible over 79.

I chose to do it again.

However, 70 doesn’t appear, only appear 60.
I failed?
While thinking so, I clicked.
I have to give up in the 60s?

While I thinking that in the moment that I clicked by inertia, the number of 8 passed in front of me.
It was 80 now?
80 right?

The numerical value on the page, it stopped by the number 19.

Guaa. Damn it!
I'll leave it to my power and I do it again.

Haa. It can’t be helped.
I’m going to turn back and click again.
Though I saw 60 several times, when you see 80 once, you already can't stop at 60 anymore.

How much time has passed?
After that, 70 didn’t come out.
I keep clicking reluctantly.
Although I was tired of waiting for a high number, I continued.

To prevent what I did a little ago, after I clicked I confirmed the number. Only after confirming I’ll click again.。

Re-doing.  Confirmation.  Re-doing.  Confirmation.  Re-doing.

In first place, why I’m doing these kinds of things?
On the contrary, why are the one digit bonus points no good ?
Although I think that, I continue clicking.

If this is going to be like this, then it is obstinacy.
Click again, the numerical value is confirmed, then click again.

Forever, I continued to click.
Click.  Click.  Click.
Click.  Click.  Click.

99。

That number shines like it was gold.
Finally,  finally it came out.

For this number to come out, how much time did it take?
With great difficult this number came out.
Perhaps there aren’t 3 digits numbers, maybe this is the top.


99.
When I see that number, I’m flooded with satisfaction.

After fighting for a long time ,I finally reached the end.
Like my memories are being frantically squeezed out.
Every day of hardship, endurance, and despair, It can't recall them now.

After the whole struggle I put up.
I don’t care about the game.

While I was tasting the satisfaction, I continued to select the settings.

Following the setting of the bonus-point was the character setting.
There aren’t any explanation about charging.
It will be a game played in a browser?

After I got high bonus points. I feel awkward to stop now.
I have no choice but to continue.

In the setting of the character, there was physical strength, increase stamina, there was every kind of setting about parameters, settings for

bonus equipment, magic and skills, I reached the point when I have to utilize the bonus points.

When I tried to experiment about rising the physical strenght to 99, the bonus points became 0.
There is no change in the rest.

In this kind of game, when you raise your parameters you gain benefits, but there are many where your raise your lvl and your strenght don’t

change.
I should put points in another thing?


How about bonus equipment.
I’ll be able to obtain not less than the strongest equipment in the game?
But I think that only the start of the game will be easy.

It seems that I can use magic.
Warp maybe, gamma-ray burst  maybe.
However, what should I choose?

I was thinking that this was some sort of site of strategy, but if I think about it I don’t know the name of this game.
Despite that, I’m trying this game.
Because bonus-point 99 went out, I don't like doing it again another time.
If this was some game of tactic where you have to donate to obtain 99, I will have waited splendidly.

What should I do?
that's what I was thinking, until I found at the bottom of the page the button of character reset.

If you have bonus points you can redo again?
Because this was the character setting page, I think it’s normal that you can redo your character again.
If that is the case, I can stop worrying about it and think about an appropriate setting.

I clicked in the reset of the character, and the check is put.

Seems that I be able to use the bonus points.
A decrease of necessary experience.
Of course, it is necessary.
But, there is another skills next to it with increased experience too.
how are they different?

For now I'm going to choose both.
When I put the check in decrease of necessary experience, the bonus-point becomes 97, the decrease of necessary experience changed to a half.

(TL: If you don’t understand, for example if he needed to kill one monster for one lvl, now with that monster he can lvl up two levels)

Reinforced version of a decrease of necessary experience, perhaps I should say, the evolved form.

When I clicked the decrease of necessary experience the bonus points become 95, necessary experience change to 1/2 into 1/3.
When I clicked It changed to 1/3 and becomes 1/5 and the bonus points 91.
When I clicked It changed to 1/5 and becomes 1/10 and the bonus points 83.

The bonus-point has decreased in one breath.
Apparently, the necessary bonus points to evolve the skill doubles each time : 1, 2, 4, 8.

When I try to click again the necessary experience of 1/10, the bonus points become 67, and it changed to 1/20.

As supposed the double.
83-67=16。

When the check on the 1/20 of necessary experience is removed, it become 1/10 again and 83 bonus points.
I click again, bonus points 91, I return to necessary experience 1/5.
I suppose that now I going to obtain the 1/3.


Now I choose the increased experience.
When I put the check, the bonus point become 90, and the increased experience become the double.
The same pattern?

When I clicked the increased experience the bonus points become 88,  increased experience changed to double into triple.
When I clicked the increased experience the bonus points become 84,  increased experience changed to triple into quintuple.

I leave it here?
And the others.

Second job.

I can use this. Without a doubt.
Usually, the job system in the games, they permit using peculiar skills and magics. If you have a second job, you can use peculiar skills and

magics from it.
The bonus points are mysterious.
If you don’t have bonus points and you don’t set the skills what happen to the player?

When I put check in second job, the bonus points become 83, and it chaged to a third job.
Again the same pattern?

In the start there aren’t many jobs that you can use.
If the third job is necessary I would reset again.

There is settings for the skill of the job at the side.
They are different?
If I don’t set the job, they are going to put at their convenience?
I’m going to come again too if I have to reset.

Increase MP recovery and abbreviation of chanting too, they are skills that I can use? I don’t know if I’m going to be able to use magic in the

start, I’ll leave to the reset.

Discount negotiation.  Purchase negotiation.
I can reset it if I have to buy something later.

Appraisal.
This has to be useful in this kind of game of strategy.
What do I do?
I’ll leave it for later.

I’m going to ignore the bonus chanting for the time being.
There is Lv99 death, release all MP, it’s safe? and there are good spells.
But I’m not going to use the realease of all HP.
If I say that I’m not going to use, I’m not going.

I return to bonus equipment.
If thinking only about the start , the bonus equipment is absolutely necessary.

I put check in arms.
The bonus-point becomes 82, arms changed into arms 2.
The same pattern in the bonus equipment?
When I keep clicking to arms 6, the bonus-point becomes 20, after 6, it become a blurred character.
It’s okay so far.

Now, I click two times in accessory, bonus point become 17.
Then, I click the check in necessary experience (bonus points 9), next I clicked in increased experience to 1/5.

The remaining bonus point is 1.

Appraisal? chanting bonus? or the next is bonus equip?

Appraisal.
I clicked this at the end.

With that the bonus point becomes 0.
The decision is selected, the character setting has ended.

The screen has changed.

Warning!
You selected "throw away this world and live in another world".
It is not possible to come back to this world.
Do you continue?
Yes   No


What is it? This isn't the billing of the account.
If this is not the billing I don’t care then.

I clicked yes suitably.

Final warning.
It’s really not possible to go back.
Still, do you want to continue?
Yes   No

how persistent. I clicked Yes.
Eh?
I think really that was a dangerous message… maybe… is……..
Without stopping to think calmly, my consciousness disapeared as if it was sucked away.