I can't say I didn't expect the things I read about myself on /r9k/, considering where it is. It gives me a good perspective on myself and who I am, and how misconceptions about people grow. If information about me is conjured up or discovered, people assume it's new. My favorite right now is that I spend money on expensive face products. Right now, if you must know, I use Clean & Clear Three Step products that I bought at Walmart for $12 and I share with my little sister. I also bought a strawberry clay face mask at Walgreens in May that I use occasionally for $6. Otherwise, I don't have the money to spend on expensive face products. My mom really likes to buy that kind of stuff though, we have so many beauty products in my house, it's insane. Sometimes, I'm too depressed to get the motivation to wash my face at night or in the morning. Though, I used to like to go to Lush and buy face masks, but this isn't new information and isn't a sign of me becoming a different person. Maybe, people are upset because their image of me in changing because you're discovering new things or putting pieces together.
I haven't changed, I haven't bought new beauty products as an example, my image of me in changing because in Janurary, you had a small window into my life from what I'd portray. You still do, in a way. You can read everything online about me and still have no idea what is going on in my head or what I do everyday. My life is pretty comfortable outside of what I've put online.
I've always been bitter, ever since I was younger. My parents were amused by my constant "ranting". I can complain about something for an hour but if someone asks what I like to do,  I'm stumpted.
It can be upsetting to know that the person you have grown to despise isn't any different from what they were when you first "met" them. There are images circulating... *ahem*, illegal images, one of which was posted in March on /b/ by a guy I talked to and trusted. ((yes, he was white.)) I was 15 in that picture, and you guys didn't even know it that the girls you idolize online do "impure" things. At the time, I was making my videos and you had no idea. Teenagers do stupid things. The point is, this isn't something new. It's been going on the whole time and you didn't realize. I didn't change (maybe I've changed for the better, I'd like to think so), just how you see me has changed.
The "omegle nudes", long discussed, I feel like I should make an "official" statement on all these things, although I know some bitter folks *ahem* will just say that I lie about everything... I'll comment on them later. I was 14 in those, and pretty messed up, I'll admit. I was on an etizolam binge. I've told people before that it was my klonopin, but I wasn't even on a klonopin script. The other message, I did all these things before I even posted on 4chan. While you thought I was a pure internet girl, I was still doing stupid things.
The druggie/junkie thing confuses me because I had talked about my drug use when I first posted on /b/ in summer of 2015. I was an annoying stoner at the time, so I said "I'm high all the time!" to seem cool. I never hid my past drug use. Funny enough, I pretty much quit all drugs in November 2015 when I was expelled. These past things and labels that stick forever on 4chan are things that don't affect me or follow me in real life. I don't think of myself as a whore or a junkie because I'm not doing either of those behaviors. That's why it's not upsetting to me when I read these things. No matter how many people believe otherwise, I don't think those things are true. If I was a drug addict or if I was sexually active I'd believe it. I don't have thick skin but at this point I'm not going to be hurt by those things... or kill myself because of what people are saying on 4chan.
So, as a public statement to clear things up LEGALLY, there are no nude images out there of me of age 16 or older (obviously, 'cause I am 16...). Say "'murica" as much as you want like a dumb redditor, it's illegal to post or request sexual images of a 15 year old. Even morally, or in your country if 16 year olds are legal, posting those images is not and I wasn't 16 in those images. I don't know if anyone is getting in legal trouble but I'm not chasing after anyone for my mistakes.
Guy Maimon is very vindictive. I scammed him out of $800 because it was too easy. I regret stealing from him and hurting him. That's not the kind of person I want to be. A few weeks after, the money was returned to him and this should've been resolved. Seven months later, he is still posting about me. I'm not going to comment because we have both hurt each other, but one of us needs to be the bigger person. He has posted chat logs that I've sent to him and in groups with close friends so many times that he has violated my trust as much as his. He's the most batshit person I've met from the internet, and that's saying a lot. He has tried to hurt me so many times and he won't stop until he actually does.
I am not writing this in an attempt to deciceve anybody. I have never tried to decieve people or convince them that I'm pure or a different person than I am. I liked making videos for fun, and no one talks about the bad things they do or have done mostly, especially in a community like this. I do not want to hurt anybody. I don't want to trick anybody. Take that as you will.