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ich liebe killua.

ja. ich liebe killua. wieso liebe ich ihn? ich liebe ihn wegen allem.
ja. wegen allem. killua ist einfach nur super. prima. sooooper. bester.

alles an killua ist einfach nur klasse.

ich werde eine liste machen. einen text.
ok. zuerst.

die mainstream gründe. ja. super.

1. killua sieht super aus. ja. er ist fluffig. und hot. und so style. killua
2. omg badass. töte sie einfach. sei boss. sei sooper.
3. FUNZ?? er ist ein kleiner spasst man krass seine reaktionen omg. omg man.

but aside from that i can FUCKING RELATE TO THIS GUY ALRIGHT.
i can relate to him o god this is destroying me.

i always react in the exact same way??? rly. honestly. killua.
ive got those fucking expressions on my face?? best. this guy.

also. if anyone compliments him. i feel complimented too.
if anyone insults him (including ery) i feel insulted as heck wtf killua
and the worst is. when he is depressed i feel depressed too. extremely. fully.
and when he cries. i cry. i havent rly cried in animes. no i havent.
up until now. up until killua.      k i l l u a
i have cried every single time he cried. i have been destroyed.

ok then. his feelz. his fucking feels. i feel all of them.
really. the way i can relate to this. oh my god.


the big problem. he is fighting himself all the time. and no one realizes.
(expect when he fucking solved it by pulling out a needle of his head which
sadly won't work for me.)
he doesn't talk about it. not even with his friendt. best friendt. no. same killua.
i hate talking about it. i have never talked about it to anyone. but. i once
shouted at someone because i was at the fucking end of my nerves. guess what.
killua same. yes killua you are my soul my spirit my love i want you in my life
this is the conclusion i reach whenever i think about killua. killua please

no friends. only that one friend. and if that one friend suddenly gets another.
what the fuck. no. this is not acceptable at all. yes killua. i feel the same.
why would they SUDDENLY GET A FRIEND??? like theyre just like. alright hi.
this is my new friend. see? isnt this guy nice. and im like. WTF. when did u get
him. how come ur alrdy FRIENDS. like. friends are more. friends are the life.
if u have THE friend they cant just have another. because you wouldnt, either.
there is only you and him. it feels like betrayal. and betrayal amongst friends
is the worst. absolute no. what. betray??ß FRIENDS?? why???

once u get a friend u protect him whenever whatever. and you can only do that
after you have gained their full trust. their full. trust

this is what friends mean. ok.

but if u got friend. you can just trust eachother blindly. and it goes
without saying that you help said friend and protect them always. thats what
friends mean. right killua? u agree? ofc u do.

feeling powerless because friend is sad? and you just cant even approach
friend anymore? results in crying. rare times i actually cry.

but what if we not talk about problems anymore.

what if we like talk about the other things.
okay.

the way he thinks. his smartness. oh yes. i am sexually attracted by it.
i get orgasms everytime you follow the same things as me. i love you
you are so much smarter than the others. or so i think. because u r the same
smart as me. ha. even if the others were smart at some point i just feel ya??

talented in general?? knows everything kinda. because he has been through
it as a kid? same. lets ignore the fact that he knows about assasination
(and fucking dart??) and i kno about internet and all the memes, games w/e
there. lets just ignore that. we both got like this because of our families okay.
anyways, i know this feel so well. like he just goes wherever and he has done
this his whole life and is also so talented at it and he just kinda outclasses
everyone. COMBINED WITH THE SMART. and the way he just goes to battle
tower w/ gon and knows about it so well. feels like showing a game i already
played (like all the fucking games) to my diéger. feels exactly like this. killu

ignoring the fact that he prob hates his bro he respects him like fuck and i do too
i would never think of fighting him wtf he would win anyways

there is so much more to it.
but writing all that is hard,//
afterall i wanted to sleep but decided to finish this--

with killua, its not exactly that i LOVE him, like with my other babes.
its more like i want him to be with me. be my best friend or something. idk
i just want and need him. that is all. i need killua. i dont care how. just any killua