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- ~the spirit in me is screaming, demanding
- i give it a voice.
- > I have no choice but
- to follow- the question is how well will i do my job,
- > and how long will it take me to get around
- myself, release my hand and let
- > the
- words flow from my soul? just release- thoughts fears
- expectations
- > Release! This mental
- agitation-
- >
- >
- Anguish, this same dish,
- > Time and again
- I find it on my plate
- > It arises when I
- ignore my fate.
- > Fear ties me down,
- blinds me in ignorance,
- > I cant just
- just keep praying for deliverance.
- > I
- have to rise.
- > I have to make my
- stand.
- > I have to have faith in the
- master plan.
- > The ultimate prize
- > Awaits those who overcome stagnation,
- > Shed the negative sensations:
- > Those thoughts
- > Of
- what you ought
- > Of always needing
- more.
- > Of failure
- >
- Of worth
- > Of judgement
- > Just release
- > Them to
- the wind
- > It will carry them far, and if
- you just keep pushing though the doubt
- >
- You will find yourself amidst
- > A field
- of beauty, a wondrous vision~
- >
- > "Enough, Daelim! Come outside, for we
- are going to go change the world."
- >
- > What? I don't
- recognize the voice, how can they know my name? Curiosity
- > outweighs fear and I go outside.
- Immediately, my world is transformed,
- >
- though it's not readily apparent what has changed. I
- feel, lighter? But
- > with a certain
- weight. The prickling of destiny, lingering at the
- > extremities of my awareness.
- >
- > "There's the
- man of the hour! Come, Daelim, the time for words on the
- page
- > is over! Art is meant to be left
- behind, to be abandoned for those to come.
- > The Word has come- no longer must we wait
- and leave signs, for We are the
- > ones we
- have waited for. And you, my friend, you have been called to
- Lead."
- >
- > The
- man before me was big and broad, with a bushy beard, thick
- eyebrows
- > and a huge smile. Perhaps
- absurdly, he had a broadsword hefted on his
- > shoulder. I still had my pen in hand, and
- its weight shifted. I looked down
- > at
- it, it was now a slightly curved sword. I looked back at the
- man.
- >
- > "There
- is danger where we are going, the path is fraught with
- peril. The
- > Journey, The Way has come.
- It is not an easy path, we will face our fears,
- > doubts, and demons literally manifest. But
- the good news, Daelim, the good
- > news is
- that they no longer plague you inside as they have before,
- if you
- > don't let them. Listen- can
- you hear it? The sweet voices of the wind,
- > whispering of truth and beauty?"
- >
- > I cast my eyes
- inward. As soon as I do, I hear a voice, pure and true.
- She
- > is talking to me of grandeur,
- telling me what the man had said, that the
- > time for making art for those to come was
- over. She also said to guard my
- >
- heart, to focus on her voice and the images she conjured,
- for she would
- > give me hope and light
- and if I followed her voice i would stay true and go
- > on to do great things. I didn't have
- the slightest doubt, for her voice
- > left
- me awash in the feelings that my best days had left me:
- > interconnected, United, fulfilled and
- creative.
- >
- > I asked
- her if she had a name and she said her name was Amavril. If
- I
- > could be amazed any further I would
- have been disturbed by the fact that a
- >
- reddish pink sylphlike creature emerged from my chest. At
- first, she looked likye an orb with
- ears, but then I looked closer and saw that there was a pyxie like being inside of it. She waved
- at me and then turned to my compatriot.
- >
- "Haymirk, Daelim is mute, but he wishes to make it
- known that he is quite
- > pleased to make
- your acquaintance, as he is sure that the two of you will
- > make for grand companions," she says
- with a curtsy.
- >
- Haymirk looks shocked, and a bright blue orb emerges from
- his chest. The
- > two fairies started
- chattering really fast and I could only gather snippets
- > of their conversation. They were talking
- of something called the Grand
- > Adventure
- and how they were so excited that it was finally here. The
- blue
- > fairy, called Liliana, expressed
- admiration for Amavril, saying that she
- >
- wouldn't have chosen a different charge even if she
- could have, but that
- > Amavril was lucky
- to have me as her charge.
- >
- > "I didn't even know they could do
- that," haymirk says with a wry grin,
- > "Your muse will give you the rundown
- soon enough, im sure. but If you're
- >
- anything like me, you are already feeling the seeds of
- doubt. 'Surely there
- > must be some
- mistake. I'm nobody. I've done nothing. They have
- the wrong
- > guy.' Amavril will tell
- you better than I can, but things are different
- > now.
- >
- > These faeries, they are raw inspiration.
- They have chosen us because we
- > are
- artist, dreamers, philosophers. We dream of a purer world-
- we dream of
- > Their world, Daelim. We
- yearn for its purity, for its unity, and we can see
- > it. previously, it was our job to record
- what feeble visions we could peer
- >
- through and share them with the world, who cannot see.
- Always, always the
- > goal was to get
- people to see it so we could bring it here.
- >
- > There is enough of us
- Daelim! Now, for as long as we choose to follow
- > them, they will remove the obstacles and
- iniquity that have plagued us for
- > so
- long. Me and you are to journey now, others will join us
- along the way.
- > Then at some point,
- where even the Fairies don't know yet, we will build.
- > We will build a city, and those who feel
- the Call will come. We will shine
- >
- brighter, and brighter, until the whole world can
- see."
- >
- > I
- needed time to absorb this- I was awash in contrasting
- feelings, each
- > clamoring for attention.
- My head was swirling. I waved my hand for haymirk
- > to follow and I headed inside. I had a pot
- of tea already brewing and I
- > motioned
- forwards it, I wasnt hungry but I brought out bread meat
- and
- > cheese. I was a bit so ed out and
- haymirk looked understanding. Even
- >
- Amavril remained silent, having finished her conversation
- with liliana she
- > had perched upon my
- shoulder.
- >
- "Take your time" she said softly, then louder
- Take your time" she said softly, then louder: "Daelim wishes for you to
- > make yourself at home. He is a bit overcome and needs to gather himself."
- >
- > I walk back outside. As I sit down to stretch out on the ground, Amavril
- > flutters up and then lands on my chest as I lay down. she give me a hug,
- > and says. so soft I couldn't have heard her if I didn't feel her words in
- > my chest "You are capable, Daelim. When you need me, call and I will come."
- >
- > then, she faded from view, and the peace she had brought with her was
- > gone, too. she understood I needed to deal with my ahit the hard way, raw
- > an unfiltered. the first thing to rise, was ugliness: waves of fear, and
- > doubt. This couldn't be happening, it was impossible, and even if it was
- > possible, it couldn't be happening to me, and even if it was, there was no
- > way id be able to do what these people expected of me. Plus, this was
- > scary! and I hadn't even taken a step yet. This way was change- yes, there
- > was a dim glimmer of hope at the end of the road- and, actually taking a
- > closer look, lining the whole road. BUT! what if I wasn't ready?
- >
- > could I really hold up to the weight of hopes and expectations? How could
- > I know if I didn't try? well if you don't try you cant fail. yes but if I
- > don't try I cant succeed- its okay to be afraid, its okay to worry. I thank
- > you, but I am not going to listen to you. hope began to blaze in my chest-
- > MY hope, created by me- I WAS ready. I was going to do this. By my side, my
- > pensword hummed quietly. the hope, that had guttered so long inside of my
- > chest was now ablaze. As if in response, Amavril winks back into existence,
- > and with her the peace and unity that her presence bought.
- >
- > "Oh, I'm so proud of you Daelim! we are going to do amazing things
- > together"
- >
- > I used my sword to as leverage to climb to my feet and as i did so the
- > door to my little cabin burst open and Haymirk stooped through the doorway,
- > laughing heartily. He slaps me on the back, giving my heart a jump, and he
- > presses a pack into my hands.
- >
- > "I knew it wouldn't take you long! Hope you don't mind but I took the
- > liberty of packing up the food you had in your cabin and your spare
- > clothes. Now, lets set off!"
- >
- > Liliana burst out of his chest bursting with song, and her and amavril
- > fluttered above our path as me and Haymirk set off, to where none of us
- > knew, and yet hope and beauty were in the air. I had written, in despair,
- > of having faith in the master plan, and now I actually had it. This road,
- > wasn't going to be easy, it was frought with hardship and peril but it
- > would be everything I had ever wished for. If I could speak I would have
- > lifted my voice up to the wind, so jouyeous was I. And, like that, we were
- > off- the end of a futile existence and the beginning of the Grand
- > Adventure. I still didn't know what it was, but I could feel it, singing in
- > the air and in my bones, whispering in the wind and radiating from the sun.
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