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- >So there you sat, in your recliner.
- >You felt empty, powerless.
- >Like there was nothing any more that could help you feel, help you yourself be happy.
- >You sat back, and grabbed a small glass of hard cider from the stand next to your seat.
- >You took a deep swig, one of your many you have taken this evening.
- >You are Pinkie.
- >And you are not sure of what to do with yourself.
- >You feel helpless in every way.
- >The things you do, the parties you throw.
- >Everyone loves them.
- >They have a good time, they laugh.
- >And they see you and praise you.
- >But they never look past the parties.
- >Your bouncy pink mane and bright smiles.
- >Maybe it was for the best,
- >They like you for what you do for them, and how happy you make them.
- >You are never one to turn down making somepony else happy.
- >You're there when they need you, you're there to cheer them up.
- >Everypony needs that somepony to lean on in bad times.
- >But... when that pony that everyone leans on for help, needs someone to lean on.
- >There doesn't seem to be anypony, or anything for them to lean on.
- >But you always managed to shake that down feeling.
- >That empty feeling you had.
- >Somehow or someway, you managed to kick it off.
- >But as time grew on and on, the doubt, the darkness.
- >It came back harder than the last.
- >Like a hydra.
- >Cut one off, two take it's place.
- >Eventually, you thought about talking to your doctor.
- >Medicine worked, but only for a short time.
- >Even that didn't do much after a time.
- >More medicine, more doctor visits.
- >Nothing.
- >It came creeping back.
- >A fog of doubt enveloping your mind and thoughts.
- >But you went on with the show.
- >Ponies still laughed.
- >Ponies still had fun.
- >And your smiles warmed them up like before as they always did.
- >As you were being slowly ripped apart from the inside.
- >There it was again.
- >That knot in your chest.
- >You take a deep breath in to alleviate it a little.
- >And let out a soft sight, before turning back to your glass of cider and taking another gulp of it.
- >You take the glass away from your lips to see it empty.
- >You already finished it?
- >You weren't even buzzed.
- >Guess you grew a tolerance for it.
- >You put the glass back on the table.
- >You rub your eyes of the tears that were beginning to form.
- >You take in another breath to get this knot away from your whole chest.
- >You slump back in your chair and look out the window.
- >A cloudy night sky kissed with the few light ponyville had to offer.
- >No wind, cool, and calm.
- >How you yearned to be so at peace, much like the smooth clouds blanketing the sky.
- >You shift your attention to the pain beginning to burn up a bit in your back right hoof.
- >You had broken it while doing a wacky dance at one of your parties.
- >You haven't thrown a party in almost a week now because of it.
- >You were pretty much useless.
- >The only thing you had to take pride in.
- >The only thing you could do without fucking everything up.
- >You couldn't do.
- >You draw in a staggered breath at the though and clench your teeth.
- >You blink a couple of times as the tears find their way from your eyes and down your cheek.
- >Pinkie Pie the disaster.
- >The failure.
- >You can't even make other ponies happy let alone yourself now.
- >Maybe it was for the best, you wouldn't want to bother the other ponies with your stupid problems anyways.
- >You take your hoof and wipe it across your eyes, and grab the couple of crutches leaned up against your chair.
- >You needed to take your medicine before the pain in your foot began to hurt more than the pain in your heart.
- >You lazily hobble your way past the little bit of furniture around you to the bathroom.
- >You push the door open slowly and flick the light on.
- >You walk past the toilet to the sink and cupboard.
- >You take a look at yourself.
- >Look at you.
- >Crying, eyes red.
- >Mane straight and floppy.
- >Who would want to be around somepony like that.
- >Nopony, that's who.
- >You didn't want to look at yourself anymore, and fling the mirror to the side, and revealing what was inside.
- >A bit of deodorant, some toothpaste, and you medicine bottles.
- >You moved the few around until you found the one labelled 'Hydroco / Apap 10-325'
- >The pain medicine.
- >This should help your hoof.
- >You twist open the bottle and pour a pill in to your hoof, and swallow it.
- >You run the water in the sink and take a couple of sips from ti before bringing your heavy head back up.
- >Before you put the lid back on the bottle, you stare at it for a second.
- >Maybe, just maybe.
- >You could take a lot of this, and maybe it would get rid of your emotional pain too.
- >You knew it wasn't true...
- >But....
- >Maybe it was.
- >Without a second moments thought, you take ht bottle, and dump it all in your mouth and swallow them all.
- >It was harsh going down, but it wouldn't matter much longer.
- >You take in another staggered breath before turning around and turning the light out.
- >You lazily bring yourself in to your bedroom, unlit by light.
- >Darkness.
- >Like your mind.
- >Like your body.
- >Like your miserable excuse of an existence.
- >You throw your crutches to the ground.
- >You pull yourself in to your bed, and throw your head in to the pillow.
- >You bury your head in it's fluff.
- >You wanted to cry, you wanted to weep.
- >But you didn't.
- >Because you knew it would be over soon.
- >The pain, not just in your leg, but even the pain nopony could see, would be gone soon.
- >The heartache, the loneliness.
- >The hoplessness, darkness.
- >It will all dissipate soon, just like your existence.
- >All that was left to do, was to close your eyes...
- >And drift to sleep....
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