I feel like I owe some of you an apology, and all of you an explanation.

Firstly, sorry. I didn’t say much during my brief stint on IRC this morning, and left most of you up to your own conclusions. I hope this will make up for that.

I really don’t want to talk about the council, but since none of you knew me like I hoped you would, I suppose that I have to plainly say that I didn’t quit because of something silly like that. Before I went inactive in the forum, and before the voting actually started, I deleted my post announcing interest in being a council member (you can note the exclusion of my name in the list of nominees), so I’m actually rather flattered I got two votes regardless. The fact that I announced my departure on the same day council members were announced was a coincidence.

The past few days have been a bit of an eye-opener for me. My girlfriend left me, and I’ve only just now realized how little my life has been moving. For all my pointless activities in school and all the mundane work I’ve been chopping through, and all of the work I’ve put into something that hasn’t earned me recognition or appreciation anywhere—well, it just all feels like a distraction. I’ve been wasting my time away while the world moves on without me. And I hate it.

I suppose we all have to grow up sometime. I’ve been trying to deny it, but a rather rude reminder has changed my opinion. Don’t get me wrong—I love CAPASB, and always will. But there’s no point chasing after something that doesn’t pay you back.

This is a bit shorter than I normally would’ve written, but I’m tired and I want to sleep. Thanks for being such a large part of my life for so long. But it’s time for me to go.

I need to grow up.