experimental paragraphical essay

Right now as i lay here, i find myself questioning. a deep darkness as one i have never felt envelopes my embodiment of persona. what is this SHADOW, and where is my dawn of understanding? this black hole is eating at my soul. my self worth covers me as a shroud, my body is wrapped in bands, not of cloth but of stifled emotion. black and grey absorbing your warmth and leaving me outside, searching for even the slightest glimmer of a star to light my way.  is that a star? oh please god let that light be you! your eyes flicker and reflect back the light of my shame.