NadiaFonyXWakeBreak

<EndPhone>	FonyX sleeps cuddled into Nadia. He dreams of them on some romantic venture or another, but the only thing the dreamscape can keep in focus is the two of them, and FonyX's unadulterated desire for her. Nadia no doubt felt it as well through the mindlink. FonyX is clearly not waking up any time soon without assistance
<SavanahHolland>	Nadia stirs slightly, her wing loosening a little from its firm tuck around the duo. She finds a small and perhaps even dulled smile comming on as she wakes up, moving her head a little closer into him, she says softly "good morning."
<EndPhone>	 Normally FonyX wouldn't have even stirred from that, but he senses it's Nadia, and so he wakes up immediately "Good morning, love" he lets slip out, though he by no means regrets it
<SavanahHolland>	The smile comes on brighter, but somehow becomming duller, like a once sharp blade that was used and abused till it couldn't be used to even break skin. She cuddles the side of her face into Fony's chest, the little voice in her head screaming at her, only to be overwhelmed by all the other emotions she felt proving it wrong.
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<EndPhone>	FonyX sees the dullness in the smile "Something wrong Nadia?" He doesn't quite remember what he did last night, his mind trying to protect itself from the horror of his actions as long as it can
<SavanahHolland>	"No." she slowly responds, moving her head up to face Fony in her position, she says in the same dull and tired tone, as if it wasn't real, but at the same time, it was there, not by her wishes, but it was there. "I love you." the voice in her head could only keep screaming, thrashing around in her mind at the words.
<EndPhone>	"I love you too. Always remember I'll do anything for you" FonyX leans in for a kiss. He knew deep down that he didn't deserve her, but he couldn't help himself. He didn't give a damn if he /deserved/ her, he /wanted/ her, and he /had/ her. Something felt off as he thought that, but he brushed it off. \must be tired\
<SavanahHolland>	Nadia matches the lean, completing it like it was a order embedded in her own mind. Lifting a single hand to caress his cheek, but everything from Nadia just felt distant, as close as she was, it was dulled and not her, but maybe in that moment, you couldn't be able to even tell.
<EndPhone>	FonyX didn't survive this long by not being perceptive. "Are you sure there's nothing wrong? You seem kinda... distant." Right now it seems like they're in a weird state where either one is susceptible to whatever the other says
<SavanahHolland>	Nadia softly pulls away from the kiss, the hand on her cheek using the thumb to stroke under his eye softly "No." she responds with a brighter, and perhaps even worse smile. Her mind screaming at her, one voice slowly becomming a chorus. And somehow, through the cracks of her mind, the smallest echo slips through, you can hear it, but it sounds like the smallest chirp in a passing breeze ~someone help me..~
<EndPhone>	~help you?~ FonyX tries to see what it is that's causing that part of her mind to beg for help
<EndPhone>	If only he knew what he was about to do...
<SavanahHolland>	You find it quite easy to trace back to her own raw emotion, distress, fear. Love isn't something she actually feels, or can really even feel at all. Emotions that aren't even hers piled on top and forced to make her feel the same way, memories of lastnight even backing up the emotions.
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<EndPhone>	FonyX's previous actions come back in full force "Nononononono!" he screams as he forces himself away from Nadia, not caring how much he hurts either of them, and backs to a walk
<EndPhone>	(damn enter key)
<EndPhone>	wall*, where he proceeds to crumple into a little ball. As his guilt and fear build rapidly, he finds his ears fill with static, and everything around him morphs to a grotesque, visceral hellscape. Nadia, however, remains untouched, the only thing keeping him from clawing out his eyes
<SavanahHolland>	Nadia watches, still with a smile, she gets up off the couch, her cheeks and eyes red from crying last night, her hair and clothes a absolute mess. Slowly walking to the boy that was crumpled next to a wall. She smiles more, it would be sadistic if it wasn't for the tears comming from her eyes, the little screams in her head pushing them through. "What is wrong?"
<EndPhone>	FonyX tries desperately to churn out a sentence, taking about 8 tries a word "How can you not see the blood? It's everywhere! Help me." he starts clawing at his throat, as if it'd somehow change these images.
<SavanahHolland>	Nadia smiles a little more, still horribly dull. Then leaning down to pin down both of his hands to the wall to keep him from clawing his own throat out like she had tried the day before, repeating the same words the boy had once told her "It is not real." and neither is her love for him.
<EndPhone>	"I-I-I know that it's not real. I'm so sorry I did that to you, I wasn't thinking. But th-th-the blood!" FonyX doesn't resist being pinned, the contact providing the faintest of reassurance and strength. He'd kiss her if he weren't so busy almost throwing up from the scarring images
<SavanahHolland>	Nadia pins his hands to the wall tighter, she isn't strong but with him not resisting its a simple task, she asks slowly, but not acusitory "What did you do to me?" the screaming and static flooding her own mind begging her to run away and let the boy lay there and die.
<EndPhone>	FonyX can't decide whether the horror or the regret was worse, but either one is enough to make him want to die. "Just let me die in this horrific bloody reality!" He then kicks her as hard as he can with both feet, aiming to knock her away, maybe make her scared to approach him again. He then goes And fumbles with his Swiss Army knife, trying to get it out of the pocket and then pull out the blade with the worst case of trembling
<SavanahHolland>	Nadia is kicked back, quickly letting go of his hands at the wall and falling backwords, cringing as the air is knocked out of her. Somehow manging to stumble back up just barely, opening her real hazel eyes to look at him, staring to the knife.
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<EndPhone>	FonyX takes a few seconds to get the actual blade out, before bringing it to his throat "I'm sorry!" he cries out at 112% his max volume. He takes just a second before actually going to do it, assuming Nadia doesn't stop him first
<SavanahHolland>	Nadia moves quickly, but stumbled, it wasn't his time yet. Moving her hand in front of the blade, between it and his throat, grabbing it as it cuts in to her own hand, ruby droplets glistening as they fall, she moves her other hand gingerly to his cheek "Do not do this."
<EndPhone>	"I can't bear all this gore, or the guilt. Leave me before I hurt you even worse" FonyX closes his eyes tightly and falls to his side, but he can still see all the gore. It wouldn't go away. It'd never go away... "Am I in hell? At least I'll be punished for my transgressions" he chokes out as he begins sobbing, tears flowing from him much faster than one might expect possible. FonyX slowly sunk into the solace of being brought her to
<EndPhone>	solace of being brought here to make up for his wrongdoings. A small smile comes to his face at the thought
<SavanahHolland>	Nadia slides the knife out of his grip, throwing it across the room to land with a small noise, some droplets hitting the floor as Nadia pulls her sleave over her hand to keep more blood from dripping. Pulling the boy in her arms to hug him firmly, yet still gentle. Wrapping her left wing around him to save his sight from the visions. She moves one hand behind him to stroke the back of his head "You are not in hell, you are
<SavanahHolland>	with me."
<EndPhone>	FonyX seems completely unreceptive to her gestures "No! Please, let me go to hell to make up for everything I've done. Please have mercy on me and bring me there. I beg you" FonyX sounds more broken than some might think possible
<SavanahHolland>	"No." she quickly says "I will be selfish and keep you here." she holds him a little tighter, she doesn't care what he wants, he's a human. He doesn't know what he wants "Be still." perhaps if he drifts off to some reverie she could save his broken mind. Perhaps.
<EndPhone>	FonyX is still shaking, but attempts to comply. "I need to go to hell, for everyone's sake. Please, please; for the good of humanity"
<SavanahHolland>	She smiles a little bit more, why the hell would /she/ of all people care about humanity, when she was sent to destroy it, not yet, but one day she will. She pulls him fully in her lap, holding him close to herself "I do not care about humanity, I care about you." she makes it so the boy can't see her face, letting white tear drops flow down her cheeks. The wings getting the smallest gray glow, still wrapped around him. Usin
<SavanahHolland>	g one arm to hold him close, she moves the other to wipe off her white tears to her hand. Moving them to his forehead,  getting the tears on him and trying to force her way into his mind to heal his broken heart and mind.
<EndPhone>	As soon as Nadia tries to enter his mind, he pulls her in with as much force as he can ~I've changed you. Now do whatever you can to me. Make me your slave! Maybe then I won't /need/ to go to hell~
<EndPhone>	His conviction would be startling no matter what it was for, but he uses all his mental power to force her into his mind, keeping her away from the horror and pain he's feeling
<SavanahHolland>	Nadia tries her best, only more white tears falling down her cold cheeks. She tries to rip through, getting to the pain he was feeling, the brokeness he carried in his mind ~let me do this~ she says, almost too firmly.
<EndPhone>	~Promise that you'll change me; make me /yours/. it's the only way I can make up for everything I've done without going to hell.~
<SavanahHolland>	~No, I /will/ fix you, and you /will/ let me~ She tears through the wall that divided her from the pain and suffering he was feeling, staring at it all, her body shaking softly. Using her mind to mend his, bringing in memories that he holds close and the emotions of happiness, wanting and having to fix him. Save him. Putting her everything into her own work, even little shards of her own soul.
<EndPhone>	FonyX feels the blood leave his surroundings, and he tries to hate her for putting him in any priority other than last, but the feelings of his love for her that she wove In were too strong. As FonyX is being fixed by Nadia, he goes in and attempts to remove her love of him. He doesn't get all of it, but he seeds some resentment to compensate ~Please, hate me for what I've forced on you. Make me yours. There's no other way I can go on
<SavanahHolland>	Nadia continues to weave, until all trace of the blood is gone from his vision other than a distant memory, till all the pain in his heart seems so much less heavy. Using the arm extended around him to stroke his back. She lets him remove the love she can't make herself feel, even letting the resentment in from being far too busy fixing his soul. ~I can never hate you~ is the only thing she can reply.
<EndPhone>	~No. If you can't hate me, you can at least subjugate me to your will. And you *WILL* do it!~ If nothing else tipped you off that FonyX was currently insane, the pure aggression of that statement as he forces you to stay in his mind certainly will
<SavanahHolland>	Nadia can tell of his insanity, still working quiet vigilantly to mend it to get him some sense of what he would really think, paired with a dose of reality ~I will not do it Fony, let me save you~
<EndPhone>	~that *is* how you can save me!~
<SavanahHolland>	Nadia manges to crack some sanity in to his craze, a sliver, but you can feel it, like the tiniest part of you has lifted ~No, I will not 'save' you like that, it will only hurt both of us.~
<EndPhone>	~but it's the only way!~ FonyX's conviction to the matter doesn't dwindle with the rest of the insanity. In fact, it might've even grown stronger, or it at least seems that way in comparison to the rest of him
<SavanahHolland>	~No.. Please trust me.. Please let me help you Fony..~ she starts offering more of her own soul to him, binding it to his sanity to make the little cracks shine through, her own mind starting to dwindle in pain from the exchange.
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<EndPhone>	~No! Stop harming yourself for me! You're only making it worse~ FonyX's eyes tear up again
<SavanahHolland>	Nadia takes a sharp breath, only offering more ~I will stop when I know you are happy.. When I know you are okay..~ she holds him a little tighter, by now his sanity would be back to a least a 0 or a 1.
<EndPhone>	~I can't be happy if you're hurting yourself for me. So stop it right now, if not for you, then for me~
<SavanahHolland>	Nadia's body shakes slightly, holding the boy as tight as she can, more white tears flowing from her eyes, she slowly stops adding shards of her own soul, already having taken so much damage just to bring him barely back to reality, she instead slowly feeds her power into him, it would take forever for her to get him very far with it though, in the end she could only restore him to 2 psyhe. ~I am sorry..~
<EndPhone>	~Don't be. You know, last night you said you couldn't love, but I think this ordeal has proven you /do/ love me, even if not in the way most people do~ FonyX cuddles into her with every fibre of his body, but the cravings for her demand more. However, he refuses to kiss her, his longing to do so clearly there
<SavanahHolland>	She continues to rub the boy's back gingerly ~Perhaps.. I do not know..~ she lets the white tears disappear like wisps to the air. Her left wing wrapped around him in full, holding on to him as tightly as she can.
<EndPhone>	FonyX would be happy to spend the rest of his life in that position, but he still wants /more/. He leans in to kiss her, but stops short a centimetre away ~only complete the kiss if *you* want to. I can't handle forcing anything else on you~
<SavanahHolland>	Nadia moves her hand slowly, putting her thumb on his lips ~Kisses, they are supposed to mean something.. I need time, to feel the same way, then I can return it.. okay?~ she holds him tight in her arm, maybe she could find a way to love, just for him.
<EndPhone>	~okay. Thank you for not doing it just because I wanted it~ FonyX cuddles into her. It makes him feel tired, yet keeps him awake. It makes him feel motivated, yet won't let him move away. As long as she's comfortable, they lay there ~You are the dominant in this relationship. I'll follow you wherever you want me to~ he thinks joyfully to her
<SavanahHolland>	She lets out a soft giggle ~Okay, but I will not force you to do anything you do not want to, do not follow my actions like a lamb, I know I can make mistakes too.~
<EndPhone>	~Of course not. But it is your job to push me out of my comfort zone from time to time, as it's my job to question you from time to time. Now, let's just cuddle here in peace if you have nothing else to say~ FonyX rubs their cheeks together, once again taking advantage of having both sides' sensory input
<SavanahHolland>	Nadia cuddles back, smiling much more geuinely at the boy in her arms, saying quietly "Okay.." letting the two rest, after everything that has happened, they deserved that little peace of mind.
<EndPhone>	~You know, when you're more comfortable with me, I could show you what the love feels like without stapling it to you. Definitely not now though~
<SavanahHolland>	~Okay.. I might like that..~
<EndPhone>	~I hope you do. I can't imagine you not~ FonyX goes into a dazed, half-asleep state. Likely somebody will come upon the two, but he couldn't care if he tried
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