“However, she did. She imposed a penalty more cruel than
even death upon those who showed signs of harboring suspicion
or opposing the Taboo Index she established... However, I shall
leave the details for later. In that extremely rare respite from
sleep, I, the Cardinal System's sub-process, judged that
Administrator was a major error in and of herself and attempted
to purge that. To be specific, I tried to jump down from the top
floor thrice, tried to stab my heart with a knife twice, and tried to
incinerate my own self with sacred arts twice. After all, if I could
reduce my Life to zero in one action, even the highest minister
would not be exempted from erasure.”

The heroic words coming out from the mouth of the young,
sweet girl rendered me speechless. But Cardinal continued ahead
in a composed tone without the slightest twitch from her
eyebrows.

“The final attempt was a true pity. By releasing a sacred art
with an exceptional offensive ability from among the entire lot,
raining a continual tempest of lightning bolt strikes onto myself,
even Administrator's enormous Life was reduced to a mere
single digit. However, the main process then seized control over
the body... With things in that state, any sort of injury or fatal
wound was rendered null. She returned to as she always was in
the blink of an eye with a full recovery sacred art ritual.
Moreover, due to that incident, even with all she had,
Administrator genuinely regarded me... in other words, the subprocess
under her subconscious, as a danger. Upon noticing that
the only times I could wedge myself into the right of control was
when some conflict occurs within her fluct light... or simply put,
during times of emotional distress, she tried an unthinkable
method to hold me in.”

(Alicization Rising, 22)