Comfey: i'm sorry.. but i think i'm going to drink once i log off..
KittyMayhem: -sighs-
KittyMayhem: I can't stop you but you know it's not something you should do
Comfey: i've been drinking every night for a few days and it's been fine...
KittyMayhem: For now
KittyMayhem: wait until your liver has a say in the matter
Comfey: i mean i managed to get her not to last night..
Comfey: but you know
Comfey: eh..
Comfey: you know who can deal with those problems?
Comfey: Future Alec
Comfey: I'm sure he'll have his shit together
Comfey: or something
KittyMayhem: Not if you drink your problems away
KittyMayhem: because future alec won't have his shit together with that bad coping mechanism
Comfey: how am i supposed to deal with things..
KittyMayhem: You are supposed to distract, not medicate... you're supposed to realize that yeah... things hurt... but it's a wave. Gotta ride it and it will get better
Comfey: i still spend evey Day sulking over my ex of two years that i haven't even go over enough to beable to promise my sanity or emotionally satibility to anyone
Comfey: and
Comfey: i still come to have feelings for people
Comfey: and
Comfey: it's all just more reasons to feel like shit ok
Comfey: and on top of that i have the constant reminder of
Comfey: my past
Comfey: as well as
KittyMayhem: My first boyfriend raped me every night and abused me physically when I fought back, turned me into just a machine where I would turn my emotions off to survive.
Comfey: what a horible disapointment i am
KittyMayhem: I know what pain is like. I know what emotional and phsyical pain is...
KittyMayhem: and what I also know? Is that if you wallow in alcohol, you won't get over your problems.
KittyMayhem: You won't get any better
KittyMayhem: because alcohol doesn't make you feel better... doesn't help you DEAL with your emotional problems... it puts things off so you don't have to think or deal with shit
KittyMayhem: It doesn't solve anything
Comfey: atleast i'll be able to put it all off for a bit..
KittyMayhem: And when it comes back?
KittyMayhem: Put it off more?
KittyMayhem: Indefinitely
KittyMayhem: ? There is no indefinite
KittyMayhem: You either deal with your problems and start feeling better, or you spiral and kill yourself
KittyMayhem: Alcohol and using that to "put shit off" is spiraling
Comfey: how am i supposed to deal with them
KittyMayhem: You get help
KittyMayhem: They give you tools
Comfey: huh?
KittyMayhem: Take class on emotional regulation
KittyMayhem: talk to a professional
KittyMayhem: because you continue this, you will be an alcoholic and spiral
Comfey: it's not like i've been getting drunk lately
Comfey: just a little tipsy..
KittyMayhem: .... it's still alcohol
Comfey: besides..
KittyMayhem: It doesn't matter if you get drunk or not
Comfey: why should i need a professional..
KittyMayhem: Using alcohol so you don't have to deal with your problems? MAIN CAUSE OF ALCOHOLISM
KittyMayhem: >.>;
Comfey: and
KittyMayhem: You are going to turn yourself into an alcoholic. That is why
Comfey: if i get help.