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- A Relationship Gone Wrong,
- Everything has consequences, whether it be just saying no to someone's offer or not
- doing something. They all will lead to something, each decision made will always cause
- something in return. Cause and effect, because you did something, something else will happen,
- and then something else, until eventually you have a domino effect.
- Despite past events, despite everything that has happened, I went against the advice,
- the recommendations, the decision. Unsure of my own feelings, I went ahead with it, and I was
- told that I'd end up hurt in the end. Despite the warning, I continued onward, and I went along with
- my decision, I end up obtaining something that I've never had before. Something that I can latch
- onto at the end of the day, someone that I can confide, someone who will listen to my struggles,
- someone that enjoys just being around me. Whether it be a good or bad day, I always looked
- forward to our time spent together.
- Before I even realized it, days had gone by, and we shared so much time together. The
- wait always felt like a lifetime, but I endured it for hours. Almost a day would go by before we
- could speak, but I always cherished every moment we spent together.
- I was able to speak about things that I never tell anyone, things that most people never
- get to see. My dreams are never told to anyone unless they're extremely messed up or strange,
- but I shared with you the dreams that I had that day. Whether or not if they had any meaning or if
- they were interesting, I shared them and essentially I opened myself up. I essentially came out of
- the shell I stayed in, I poked my head from the dark space I kept myself in and essentially showed
- you everything I was.
- The good, the bad, the ugly. You accepted me for who I was, even though I didn't know
- of much, you still put up with me, through all of it, you never made let my faults change anything.
- Despite everything, you accepted me as I was. And I did the same for you, everything that
- happened, it never changed how I thought of you. I ended up drawing stuff again because of you.
- A week went by, and everything was fine, there were some bumps along the way. But we
- were able to get through them. Despite everything that has happened, we never gave up on what
- was originally opposed to. Life was great, everything seemed perfect, sure we had our share of
- troubles, but doesn't everyone have troubles? The friend suggested one day that there was
- infidelity afoot. And I was like, "Ha, no way Jose!"
- 2 days go by, and the thought lingers. I began to think that maybe there could be some reasoning behind his statement. I asked him, "How would you know that she is cheating on me?" He is intrigued, he states, "That's quite the interesting question indeed, how would I know?" "It's quite simple really, she tells everything to her friend, and it annoys me how she lies about your
- relationship" He continues with his explanation and the conversation is put onhold.
- When it continues, we finally get to where it all ends up falling apart, the point where it all
- went to shambles is when he said, "She talks to her all the time about other guys and how she
- wants to fuck them, and how I"m still just your 'nerd" I end up repressing my feelings of anger, and
- I call,"That's bull shit!" From there everything went downhill. I become confused about what I'm
- feeling. I find myself unsure of what I should be feeling. Unknown to me were my own feelings, my
- friend tells me that I could be feeling jealousy, anger, depression, sadness. I keep telling him that I
- have no clue what I'm feeling, and he asks me my feelings for you.
- I say truthfully,"I'm unsure of what my feelings, I've been alone for so long, and because I
- unconsciously repress my feelings, I don't really know what love feels like." He then goes on
- about he told me so, and that he was always against it from the start, and then he asks me what
- am I gonna do about it? I tell him I'm unsure, my mind ends up drawing blanks, I am unsure how to
- react to what happened, to what I should do, or what I want to do. He tells me that he'll handle it
- for me, and asks if I trust. I tell him,"Yes, I trust you." never actually giving confirmation that I'd let him handle the situation.
- Things only got worse from there, I end up becoming all alone in this world yet again. I
- end up becoming depressed. I end up becoming tearyeared, but not a tear was shed. I end up
- contemplating the idea of suicide, and I tell him that my life is a mess. He contradicts me and tells
- me that I am stable, and that I don't need you in my life. I tell him that I need stability in my life. I
- tell him how hectic my life has been for the past year. And he tells me that I need to move on, and
- how I the person who'll become my wife isn't just going to come.
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