Suicide Note

Today I decided it's time to die.

Every time I tried to find an inch of happiness I've been invariably fucked by friends, by companies, by lovers.

First they shatter your soul, them they say "hey, you gotta be optimistic, things will get better". It NEVER gets better.

My teenage years were a nightmare of bullying. My 20's were spent trying to build a career in companies that offer low wages and abuse you in every way they can. My friends are all married and left me without warning. Hell, I can't even remember the last time I had a beer with someone.

My love life is a disaster. I can't tell how many times I've had my heart broken. My "lovers" just wanted to suck all my life away and leave me as an empty shell.

I turned 30 two days ago. I had nobody by my side. No one even knew it was my birthday.

Everyone says it will get better, that the sun will shine for your. It won't. I have 30 years of proof you're all WRONG.

My mother once said I almost died when I was born. Maybe that's why my life's so miserable. I was supposed to die, not cheat death and try to live a normal life. Now the time has come to pay the debts.

I'm not sorry. I'm relieved. The pain will go away, and so will this petty existence.

Farewell.