Seikaisuru Mado

Images burst out in my brain.
If I were to compare it to anything, it was the dizziness you feel when smoking tobacco for the first time as a child, the numbness in your skull when you realize you're getting sick, the joy and regret of having your schoolmate crush say hi to you and being unable to greet her back, the fear of being just one of the myriad of writhing earthworms in white void where boundaries no longer exist, the strangeness of watching starlight flow back in time in deep space, the wistful loneliness of realizing that your bones alone will never reach the final resting place of your family in the hometown too far away, the disappointment when you learn the tale about the apple, tree and universal gravitation never happened, the illogical hope of wanting to see the cat alive despite the rules of the theory, the helpless rage of making a large e-shop purchase and seeing that there's a big sale starting next week, the agony of a little girl trying to understand the concept of red after living in an empty featureless room for all her life, the dazzled wonder of a demon watching the clear blue sky after a long journey spent searching for the right place to bury his first victim before destroying the world, the blind bafflement of a twin unable to understand that the face he's looking at is not his own and never has been, the borderline madness of Shindo Kojiro who had been touched by the anisotropic being and for whom that information was only too much, the uncomprehending stress of a pigeon shoved into an over-full nesting box with countless others standing empty, or the sweetness of caramel tasted on a space station.
What in the world did I lick. I tried to stand up and couldn't, staggering back. The light was too dark and the darkness behind my eyelids too bright. Pure white void, a writhing mass of black earthworms, and somewhere out there, one of them was me. The drug was just a McGuffin. My consciousness flickered out of existence and came back. I felt ill. A crushed stone made of fractals. Over the bed, something was floating. At first it was a black dot. Then it bled into a perfect square, fractal in nature. And from the fractal shape, it appeared. A being I knew well and didn't know at all. A being you would want to call a person and a man, yet couldn't because it was neither. But there was one thing I knew about it. The only thing I truly knew about it.
I knew that being's name.
Yaha-kui zaShunina.