After a few days and re-reading the responses here as well as private conversations, here's what I'm aware of.

I made a post that centered on me and my feelings. I faulted myself for numerous things that had gone wrong in the past. Maybe that means I'm playing the victim card. If I try to explain why I went that route, then I'm being defensive or trying to gain pity. Since I've already blown a hole in everything, I'll say that I kept it centered around me on purpose. I was not trying to point the finger of blame at anyone but myself.

Toward the end of that post, I said I wanted more help. I was under the impression that in the past, whether via this forum, steam, or TS, I had asked for help. There was an entire thread asking for input on ranks on USPC. Over a 2 week time period, next to no feedback was given. I had to assume that the description in that thread, and the one that was reposted above in this thread, was something agreed upon as I heard no different.

I was then under the impression, again more assuming on my part, that the officers would then take that description and roll with it. I was not aware that more definition was needed. I also felt like I had asked for input during TS officer meetings and rarely heard anything. Eventually I appointed a 3rd officer. I made the decision without consulting Cos or Felsa because I thought Zhouz had deserved it based on his actions within the league and because I thought he would bring more discussion/proactivity to the officer group. Instead, his appointment was seen by members and officers as personal gain for me and not because he was deserving of it whatsoever. Frankly, the insinuations as to why he's an officer are quite offensive.

In the end, I clearly made a grave error making that post on Sunday. All that has happened since then is that the 4 of us have been pitted against each other. At this point, I no longer know what to say or do. Obviously, I am a drama queen who has blown this entirely out of proportion. At this point? It may be the best decision for everyone involved if I step away completely from Odyssey.