This got surprisingly lengthy

Well, it has happened. The enemy team has decided to, as the Americans say, play hardball. A powerful relic was 'misplaced' and ended up in the hands of a pokemon who couldn't handle the overwhelming power. It dragged us on a trip though time - a rather unpleasant one. We saw visions of the future and the past - ones that made little sense. Cait seemed to recognize the latter, but the former... We saw German soldiers wearing odd emblems destroying works of art. That had to be the future, as I've never seen such a thing before. It seems like an awfully petty thing to devote military resources towards... will we be waging a war against culture itself if we win? I am not sure I like this...

I've been unable to really approach Cait since we had a talk over the cooking of berries. I've not been avoiding her, but... I've been having trouble of thinking how to follow up, even though she seemed to react well. Maybe I should just keep it to myself... it likely wouldn't work out anyway, with all of us returning to our respective places once we leave this time. I'll hardly have a chance to get to know her better in the future and I do not wish to come on too strongly... then again there is something to be said for living within the moment, too.

I would probably be chided by my superiors if this were an actual operation... even concerning nurses there are rules about fraternization and such... well, whatever. Either way I decide, I need to stop acting like a lovesick schoolboy.  Hesitation and distraction are only going to get my comrades killed.

I've begun to realize something over the past few days. I'm no longer afraid. Not like I once was. Of course I'm still scared of dying, that much hasn't changed. But somewhere along the line I've found the courage to stand up and say the things I have and stride into battle anyway. I've begun to utilize offensive maneuvers, even. I have never been the best shot with a gun, but a dose of stun spore harvested from the gloom we rescued proved more effective than I had guessed. Even the thought of going against the Almighty's wishes does not cow me as much as before. We're fighting for our existence, after all. I do not think there is a single creature that cherishes life so little as to not.

I worry about the disconnection of our team from one another as of late, as well. We have been letting mistrust and conflicting ideals get in the way of cooperating with each other. This is most prominent with Johann, if that is even his real name. But I have realized something else, I think. There have been good reasons for confronting one another, such as Cait versus the Captain over the matter of the Leavannies. It was not the most opportune time, admittedly, but it was something that had to be settled. This situation with Johann however is... petty. I no longer care where he is from, it is only our actions that matter. As I wrote before - hesitation and distraction will get us killed. We need to strengthen our bonds, not further sever them. We need to rally together. Otherwise... we're back to fighting just as our countries have. Perhaps I should eventually seek something above my post, a seat of command. I said before none of us are suited to convince others of our cause of peace, but that is no excuse for not trying.

We have been given a rare gift, to step outside the normal frame of mind that we normally rest in and see how our actions are affecting things. It is up to us to make the most of this gift when we return home.

And we will return home.