Talking to Tarane again

[22:44]  * snuffshotMartyr [SM] began pestering frozenFire [FF]
[22:44] <snuffshotMartyr> So.  About me and Alex.
[22:45] <snuffshotMartyr> First of all, you will never speak of this to anyone.  Not Byron, not Nickolai, DEFINITELY not any of the Reggies
[22:45] <snuffshotMartyr> Please?
[22:45] <frozenFire> <no response for reasons>
[22:46] <snuffshotMartyr> Please, Tarane
[22:46] <snuffshotMartyr> I need help with this
[22:46] <frozenFire> Huh? sorry
[22:46] <frozenFire> Was in the shower
[22:47] <snuffshotMartyr> That's fine
[22:47] <snuffshotMartyr> I've been alt-tabbing between like five other chatlogs, trying to keep connected with everyone
[22:47] <snuffshotMartyr> Take your time
[22:48] <snuffshotMartyr> But when you're free
[22:48] <frozenFire> I won't talk about it with anyone, but out of curiosity...
[22:48] <frozenFire> Why?
[22:48] <snuffshotMartyr> Because like I said.  It's... delicate
[22:48] <snuffshotMartyr> I'm not the best at reading people, but I think he's serious
[22:49] <frozenFire> Pretty sure he is
[22:49] <snuffshotMartyr> Yeah
[22:49] <snuffshotMartyr> I don't wanna hurt him
[22:50] <snuffshotMartyr> I mean
[22:50] <snuffshotMartyr> Faerzen told you I'm officially psychotic, right?
[22:50] <frozenFire> "Legally insane"
[22:50] <snuffshotMartyr> Yeah
[22:51] <snuffshotMartyr> I can't empathize with people, see things from any perspective from my own
[22:51] <snuffshotMartyr> Can't make myself care
[22:51] <frozenFire> And yet you don't want to hurt him
[22:51] <snuffshotMartyr> That's different
[22:52] <frozenFire> Really?
[22:52] <snuffshotMartyr> I don't want to *be the one* that hurts him
[22:52] <frozenFire> Why not?
[22:53] <snuffshotMartyr> Because it means I'm a capital-B Bad person
[22:53] <snuffshotMartyr> Good people don't hurt their friends
[22:54] <frozenFire> I think you've already passed that point from what you two have told me
[22:54] <snuffshotMartyr> I know
[22:55] <snuffshotMartyr> Trying not to go further down that road
[22:56] <snuffshotMartyr> Or at the very least, make sure he doesn't turn against me in the near future
[22:57] <frozenFire> Why would he do that?
[22:57] <frozenFire> Because of your "plan"?
[22:57] <snuffshotMartyr> It's happened to everyone else I've met since the game started
[22:57] <snuffshotMartyr> At least three Reggies hate me, and probably the fourth too
[22:58] <snuffshotMartyr> Nickolai thinks I'm a thief, and Faerzen's probably convinced I belong in an asylum.
[22:58] <frozenFire> Noticed that that doesn't include me
[22:58] <snuffshotMartyr> I knew you before
[22:59] <snuffshotMartyr> And I don't think we've interacted enough for you to hate me yet
[22:59] <snuffshotMartyr> Entirely possible I'm misreading that too, though
[22:59] <frozenFire> So 1 year is apparently not enough time for me to hate you compared to 1 week in this game?
[22:59] <snuffshotMartyr> Things were different in the real world
[23:00] <frozenFire> Because the real world doesn't drive you insane?
[23:00] <snuffshotMartyr> Yeah
[23:00] <snuffshotMartyr> Easy to make friends when tensions aren't strung through the roof
[23:01] <frozenFire> I guess
[23:01] <snuffshotMartyr> ... I admit, I almost fell for it after entering
[23:01] <frozenFire> I mean, I've had it easy compared to you
[23:01] <frozenFire> I think
[23:01] <snuffshotMartyr> Doubt it
[23:02] <snuffshotMartyr> Everyone's got their own mess to deal with
[23:02] <frozenFire> Ly, the only bad thing that happened to me was me being shot by a shotgun. Twice.
[23:03] <frozenFire> And dealing with Byron but lets not go there
[23:03] <snuffshotMartyr> He's not THAT bad
[23:03] <snuffshotMartyr> Is he?
[23:03] <frozenFire> Does he have a crush on you?
[23:03] <snuffshotMartyr> Uh
[23:03] <snuffshotMartyr> I don't think so?
[23:03] <frozenFire> Didn't think so
[23:03] <snuffshotMartyr> Okay
[23:03] <snuffshotMartyr> So you're in the same mess I am
[23:03] <snuffshotMartyr> Lovely
[23:04] <frozenFire> Crushes are normal things on Earth
[23:04] <frozenFire> Nothing's changed there
[23:04] <snuffshotMartyr> Tensions are higher
[23:04] <snuffshotMartyr> Options are limited
[23:06] <snuffshotMartyr> It's like, everything that used to be normal is now the potential catalyst for a huge collapse
[23:06] <snuffshotMartyr> Where everything just finally falls apart
[23:06] <frozenFire> No wonder I'm fine. I was already abnormal.
[23:06] <snuffshotMartyr> In what way?
[23:06] <frozenFire> Alien
[23:07] <snuffshotMartyr> Right
[23:07] <snuffshotMartyr> For the record
[23:07] <snuffshotMartyr> Sorry
[23:07] <frozenFire> For what?
[23:08] <snuffshotMartyr> When we first started, and I found out about the whole troll thing, I was angry
[23:08] <snuffshotMartyr> I was mad that my friend had been lying to me
[23:08] <snuffshotMartyr> But you were justified, I think, weren't you?
[23:08] <frozenFire> If I had told you before, you would probably have stopped talking to me.
[23:09] <snuffshotMartyr> Would not
[23:09] <frozenFire> I think I tried once. You laughed it off.
[23:10] <snuffshotMartyr> If I knew you were serious, I wouldn't have stopped talking to you
[23:10] <frozenFire> Well I'm Sorry that I was a bit paranoid and was fearful of lack of interaction with other people.
[23:11] <snuffshotMartyr> Understandable
[23:11] <snuffshotMartyr> I get that now
[23:11] <snuffshotMartyr> Everybody's got stuff to deal with
[23:12] <snuffshotMartyr> You and Byron, for example
[23:12] <snuffshotMartyr> Plus apparently a degree of the typical mutilation
[23:13] <snuffshotMartyr> Can't have been fun
[23:13] <frozenFire> If it was fun I'd be scared
[23:14] <snuffshotMartyr> Of course
[23:16] <frozenFire> So that's that I guess
[23:16] <frozenFire> I have nothing to do now so I'm probably going to ste through the gate
[23:16] <frozenFire> step*
[23:16] <snuffshotMartyr> WAIT NO
[23:16] <snuffshotMartyr> NO NO NO NO NO
[23:17] <frozenFire> Ok ok I won't
[23:17] <snuffshotMartyr> NO^∞
[23:17] <frozenFire> Ok you've made your point
[23:17] <snuffshotMartyr> There's nowhere to land on the other side
[23:17] <snuffshotMartyr> You'll fall
[23:17] <frozenFire> Seriously?
[23:18] <frozenFire> Now /that's/ stupid game design
[23:18] <snuffshotMartyr> I hear ya
[23:18] <snuffshotMartyr> Made that mistake before
[23:18] <frozenFire> You did?
[23:18] <frozenFire> Wait
[23:18] <snuffshotMartyr> Alex
[23:18] <frozenFire> Oh. Alex.
[23:19] <frozenFire> Bluh
[23:19] <snuffshotMartyr> Shoulda thought it through better the first time
[23:19] <frozenFire> So I can't go through until you build up his house?
[23:19] <snuffshotMartyr> Yep
[23:19] <snuffshotMartyr> Or get Byron to fly you through
[23:19] <frozenFire> He's not here
[23:19] <snuffshotMartyr> Really?
[23:19] <snuffshotMartyr> Where is he?
[23:20] <frozenFire> I don't know
[23:20] <snuffshotMartyr> Huh
[23:20] <frozenFire> He disappeared while I was chatting
[23:20] <frozenFire> Didn't even leave a note
[23:20] <frozenFire> Or responded to my message
[23:20] <snuffshotMartyr> I sent him a message too, yeah
[23:20] <snuffshotMartyr> Guess he's doing something important
[23:21] <snuffshotMartyr> Look, regardless
[23:21] <snuffshotMartyr> I can try and loop the gates, come pick you up
[23:22] <snuffshotMartyr> Soon as I get the feeling back in my legs
[23:23] <frozenFire> I don't think you need legs to fly
[23:23] <snuffshotMartyr> Neither did I
[23:23] <snuffshotMartyr> Reggie made them to look good instead of to work well
[23:24] <snuffshotMartyr> I can keep moving moderately well, but it's a lot harder when you're half numb
[23:24] <frozenFire> 10/10 design right there
[23:24] <snuffshotMartyr> And stopping means crumpling up on the ground
[23:24] <frozenFire> I won't go through the gate then. I'll just occupy myself until you're done I guess
[23:25] <frozenFire> Might go for a walk
[23:25] <snuffshotMartyr> Oh yeah, rub it in
[23:25] <snuffshotMartyr> :P
[23:25] <frozenFire> Heh
[23:25] <frozenFire> Sorry
[23:25] <snuffshotMartyr> S'fine
[23:25] <frozenFire> Not like my leg is also nearly disabled, nope
[23:26] <snuffshotMartyr> Riiiight
[23:26] <snuffshotMartyr> How're you gonna go for a walk, then?
[23:27] <frozenFire> Yeap
[23:27] <frozenFire> Nothing else to do
[23:27] <frozenFire> I can still walk, it just hurts a bit
[23:27] <frozenFire> Plus, it might be fun to explore a bit. I can still defend myself.
[23:27] <frozenFire> Who knows, maybe I'll pick up a sentient object along the way
[23:27] <snuffshotMartyr> Try to avoid that
[23:28] <frozenFire> Sheesh, nobody understands sarcasm nowadays
[23:28] <snuffshotMartyr> Like I said
[23:28] <snuffshotMartyr> Can't understand people
[23:28] <snuffshotMartyr> *shrug*
[23:28] <snuffshotMartyr> The nice thing is that being a sociopath gives me an excuse for a whole lot of stuff
[23:29] <frozenFire> Having 3 lives is also a plus I would think
[23:30] <snuffshotMartyr> You'd think so
[23:30] <snuffshotMartyr> But juggling three sylladices is more a hassle than anything
[23:30] <snuffshotMartyr> Gotta dead-drop stuff I wanna switch, so I can come back and grab them later
[23:33] <snuffshotMartyr> ... Tell you what
[23:33] <snuffshotMartyr> I'll try and get Byron to back off, you do the same to Alex
[23:34] <frozenFire> This won't go well
[23:34] <snuffshotMartyr> I know
[23:34] <snuffshotMartyr> Nothing ever does
[23:34] <snuffshotMartyr> But I don't know how else to get through this
[23:35] <frozenFire> Give it a shot?
[23:35] <snuffshotMartyr> ??
[23:35] <snuffshotMartyr> Give what a shot?
[23:35] <frozenFire> Alex was there qt the court case right?
[23:35] <snuffshotMartyr> Yeah
[23:36] <frozenFire> He knows what he's in for
[23:36] <snuffshotMartyr> Well
[23:36] <snuffshotMartyr> No
[23:36] <snuffshotMartyr> He's got this insane tendency to ignore whatever mess he's about to get into and charge in blindly
[23:36] <snuffshotMartyr> Did he tell you where he was pre-Sabath?
[23:37] <frozenFire> I don't think so
[23:37] <snuffshotMartyr> Living alone in a forest somewhere
[23:38] <snuffshotMartyr> Because he up and decided to run away from home and see how it went
[23:38] <frozenFire> -cough-
[23:39] <snuffshotMartyr> Well YEAH, but that's not the point
[23:39] <snuffshotMartyr> He's from cyberpunk megacorp future
[23:39] <snuffshotMartyr> Online world, and he dropped off the grid
[23:40] <frozenFire> People /do/ do that
[23:41] <snuffshotMartyr> But WHY!?
[23:41] <snuffshotMartyr> He could have at least planned it out better than lolnoping off on his own!
[23:42] <frozenFire> You sure he didn't?
[23:42] <snuffshotMartyr> Whaddaya mean?
[23:43] <frozenFire> You sure he didn't plan it out?
[23:43] <snuffshotMartyr> Pretty sure, yeah
[23:43] <snuffshotMartyr> He kinda said he didn't
[23:44] <snuffshotMartyr> ... I think
[23:45] <frozenFire> So he somehow has a house and a computer along with food so he doesnt starve
[23:45] <frozenFire> All without a plan?
[23:45] <snuffshotMartyr> Okay yeah, but
[23:45] <snuffshotMartyr> But
[23:46] <snuffshotMartyr> BLUH
[23:46] <snuffshotMartyr> You know what I mean
[23:46] <frozenFire> Ish
[23:47] <snuffshotMartyr> He ran off on his own!
[23:48] <snuffshotMartyr> You can't just DO that!
[23:48] <frozenFire> Why not?
[23:48] <snuffshotMartyr> Because!
[23:48] <snuffshotMartyr> What if something happens!
[23:50] <frozenFire> What if he had abusive parents?
[23:50] <frozenFire> Or bullies or something I don't know
[23:50] <snuffshotMartyr> I...
[23:50] <snuffshotMartyr> I dunno
[23:50] <snuffshotMartyr> But still
[23:51] <snuffshotMartyr> At least with something like that he'd know where he stood
[23:52] <frozenFire> Don't quite understand there
[23:52] <snuffshotMartyr> I mean
[23:54] <snuffshotMartyr> Abusive lifestyle is one thing, but something like that?
[23:54] <snuffshotMartyr> Off the grid, so if you get hurt there's nobody to help you?
[23:55] <frozenFire> Raising an eyebrow here
[23:55] <frozenFire> But yeah
[23:55] <frozenFire> Maybe he wanted it like that?
[23:56] <snuffshotMartyr> Why?
[23:56] <frozenFire> I dunno, ask him
[23:56] <snuffshotMartyr> There's no way that kind of uncertainty can be better than stability, even if it's miserable stability
[23:56] <frozenFire> Maybe he wanted to feel independant
[23:58] <snuffshotMartyr> Then why's he so focused on me?
[23:58] <frozenFire> Don't ask me, I know less about love than you
[23:59] <snuffshotMartyr> Not sure that's even possible
[23:59] <snuffshotMartyr> B'sides, you're one of the smartest people I know
[00:04] <snuffshotMartyr> There's no way this can end well
[00:07] <frozenFire> *shrug*
[00:08] <snuffshotMartyr> I just wanna get through this with everyone alive
[00:08] <frozenFire> We all do
[00:09] <snuffshotMartyr> Why does he have to make things complicated again?
[00:10] <snuffshotMartyr> They were finally calming down
[00:15] <snuffshotMartyr> One dungeon crawl.  No countdown, no subtext, nothing but killing enemies for the sake of making grist
[00:15] <snuffshotMartyr> And now...
[00:15] <snuffshotMartyr> Bluh
[00:22] <snuffshotMartyr> Look, I gotta go.  Just promise you won't tell anyone, yeah?
[00:27] <frozenFire> I won't
[00:27] <frozenFire> Stay safe
[00:28] <snuffshotMartyr> About this talk, and the, uh, fact that we kissed
[00:28] <snuffshotMartyr> Not looking forward to hearing Regent's comments
[00:29] <frozenFire> My lips are sealed
[00:29] <snuffshotMartyr> Thank you
[00:30] <snuffshotMartyr> If there's anything you need, I owe you one
[00:30] <snuffshotMartyr> After the ferry service, that is
[00:31] <snuffshotMartyr> Alright, I'm off
[00:31] <snuffshotMartyr> Once more, thank you Tarane
[00:31] <snuffshotMartyr> Sorry I ever doubted you
[00:33]  * snuffshotMartyr [SM] ceased pestering frozenFire [FF]