Sketch - Yesterday at 4:51 PM
Are you online, Ritchi?
Well, either way I think I should tell you that Pap is doing fine, and just needed a break from the chat.
He's been chatting, via PMs, with various people.
ritchi - Yesterday at 11:41 PM
thats good to hear...
thank you for telling me
i was getting a bit worried already...
Sketch - Yesterday at 11:43 PM
You need to get a grip, Ritchi
Living a life of emotion is doing you no good.
ritchi - Yesterday at 11:43 PM
what exactly are you talking about...?
did you talk to pap about everything?
Sketch - Yesterday at 11:46 PM
I'm talking about you basing your decisions and thoughts purely on how you feel in the moment.
I'm telling you that about Pap because I knew you'd be worried.
And I mean, what was the first thing you said?
You can't hide from having to decide on things and actually thinking for a change, forever you know.
I'm not stupid, Ritchi. I can piece together things about people without needing to be directly told.
ritchi - Yesterday at 11:49 PM
wh-what do you mean...?
what exactly did you piece together?
sorry
i shouldnt be asking all this
instead
how have you been doing lately...?
i havent heard about your situation in some time
Sketch - Yesterday at 11:51 PM
You're avoiding something uncomfortable again
And you know it
ritchi - Yesterday at 11:52 PM
okay
then tell me
Sketch - Yesterday at 11:52 PM
I shouldn't have to.
What I'm telling you doesn't require that information
ritchi - Yesterday at 11:53 PM
i dont understand
what even am i avoiding then if you wont tell me what you found out
Sketch - Yesterday at 11:54 PM
Because it's irrelevant
There's something you need to deal with, that doesn't involve me
I avoided ever getting on your case over this, but your continued carelessness has me intervening now.
That thing being your avoidance of anything uncomfortable and an insistence on living by your emotions.
ritchi - Yesterday at 11:56 PM
i dont avoid uncomfortable things...
Sketch - Yesterday at 11:56 PM
Yes you do.
ritchi - Yesterday at 11:56 PM
i try not to
Sketch - Yesterday at 11:57 PM
You're doing nothing but that this whole time
ritchi - Yesterday at 11:57 PM
i try to get the full picture most of the time
can you please explain to me how...?
because i dont know...
Sketch - Yesterday at 11:57 PM
If I do you won't learn anything
Not everyone in life presenting something like this to you will be even half as direct as I'm being right now
Your actions have consequences Ritchi
And sooner or later they'll catch up to you.
ritchi - Yesterday at 11:58 PM
i dont know what you are talking about...
i dont understand...
Sketch - Yesterday at 11:59 PM
I should have figured you wouldn't piece together the obvious.
ritchi - Yesterday at 11:59 PM
im sorry
Sketch - Yesterday at 11:59 PM
You've been hurting Pap
ritchi - Yesterday at 11:59 PM
i know
i know that damnit
Sketch - Yesterday at 11:59 PM
And I know everything involved in that(edited)
ritchi - Yesterday at 11:59 PM
why do you think we dont talk anymore
October 26, 2016
Sketch - Today at 12:00 AM
I know already, Ritchi.
I'm not going to grand stand at you
But your avoidance of uncomfortably shit
You fucked him up
ritchi - Today at 12:01 AM
no...
Sketch - Today at 12:01 AM
Yes.
ritchi - Today at 12:01 AM
that cant be...
i tried to help him
Sketch - Today at 12:01 AM
No fucking melodrama
ritchi - Today at 12:01 AM
i always wanted the best
Sketch - Today at 12:01 AM
Yeah?
My aunt did too
Then she ruined everything
Good intent doesn't matter
ritchi - Today at 12:02 AM
i-i didnt even know about his feelings until like a week ago...(edited)
Sketch - Today at 12:02 AM
But you keep talking to him
ritchi - Today at 12:02 AM
not anymore
Sketch - Today at 12:02 AM
You and Deijo both
I know
ritchi - Today at 12:02 AM
so
you know about that too huh
Sketch - Today at 12:02 AM
I know
ritchi - Today at 12:02 AM
heh...
Sketch - Today at 12:02 AM
everything
Okay?
ritchi - Today at 12:03 AM
why
Sketch - Today at 12:03 AM
So cut the crap and own up to your actions
ritchi - Today at 12:03 AM
why did he tell you everything
and i am
Sketch - Today at 12:03 AM
Because Paps been losing his god damned mind and had to talk to someone(edited)
ritchi - Today at 12:03 AM
i know its mainly my fault
i just
i never even thought about the fact he could fall in love with me
Sketch - Today at 12:04 AM
I'm here to be the shitty fuckhead who tells you all to stop being so retarded
I know man
But it happened
And you're avoiding acknowledging this all
ritchi - Today at 12:05 AM
yeah and i offered him to stop talking multiple times
i left the server twice
no one even noticed that
guess i just had to make him stop talking to me...
Sketch - Today at 12:05 AM
Yes
And for the record of course nobody noticed
You're not exactly doing a whole lot in there aside from making one person insane when you two start talking(edited)
ritchi - Today at 12:07 AM
i will leave the discord then.
Sketch - Today at 12:07 AM
No
You're being a coward again
ritchi - Today at 12:07 AM
i told him time and time again i should just leave
Sketch - Today at 12:07 AM
You can run from that
You can run from Pap(edited)
ritchi - Today at 12:07 AM
run from what?
Sketch - Today at 12:08 AM
Hell you can even run from me
ritchi - Today at 12:08 AM
i just wont be able to hurt him
Sketch - Today at 12:08 AM
But you can't run from yourself
Cause you know I'm right about this
ritchi - Today at 12:08 AM
i dont understand you
no one in the discord cares about me, nothing would change if i leave
it would only get better
since pap would be in a better mood most of the time since he wont see me posting at all
Sketch - Today at 12:09 AM
You don't have to be a stagnant person.
You can get better at talking to people
Hell Yuki's made great progress on that in the past few days
A lot of people in the chat have
And
ritchi - Today at 12:10 AM
i can talk sure
and i have before
Sketch - Today at 12:10 AM
I know I'm tearing into you right now Ritchi
ritchi - Today at 12:10 AM
i was very active during summer
but no one just seems to care
Sketch - Today at 12:10 AM
But Pap isn't exactly mentally sound
ritchi - Today at 12:11 AM
even you, you always have been hostile to me
Sketch - Today at 12:11 AM
Because you want to run away, instead of learning, from your mistakes.
And look where it got you
ritchi - Today at 12:12 AM
how do you think ill run away
where
what are you talking about
i understand im at fault for the situation
Sketch - Today at 12:12 AM
Like leaving the server?
ritchi - Today at 12:12 AM
i accept it fully
Sketch - Today at 12:12 AM
That's running away
ritchi - Today at 12:12 AM
pap would get better if i do
Sketch - Today at 12:12 AM
No
ritchi - Today at 12:12 AM
no one else would care
Sketch - Today at 12:13 AM
He's got his own issues to work through
ritchi - Today at 12:13 AM
if they need me, which they wont, they can pm me
Sketch - Today at 12:13 AM
Believe it or not I gave him shit for continuing to rely on you so much too
You know why you think I'm hostile?
Cause this shit doesn't work on me Ritchi
The emotional manipulation
ritchi - Today at 12:14 AM
i dont know, because whenever you speak to me in the general you take jabs at me or are just being actually hostile?
thats how it was from the start
im not trying to manipulate anybody
Sketch - Today at 12:15 AM
I'm like that with a lot of people
ritchi - Today at 12:15 AM
but why...?
i never did anything to you, why do you dislike me?
Sketch - Today at 12:15 AM
The thing is that in the times I've leveled with you, you just do this
ritchi - Today at 12:15 AM
what...?
Sketch - Today at 12:15 AM
You whine, cry, and mope
ritchi - Today at 12:15 AM
gah
maybe
Sketch - Today at 12:16 AM
Not a maybe
You do
ritchi - Today at 12:16 AM
now that you say it that might be true
Sketch - Today at 12:16 AM
You refuse to deal with shit
And I don't like that in people
ritchi - Today at 12:16 AM
i never had to deal with actual shit in the discord
Sketch - Today at 12:16 AM
But now you do
ritchi - Today at 12:17 AM
only example you have is the pap situation and you know we dont talk anymore
you know i acknowledge it being my fault
what else do you want from me?
Sketch - Today at 12:17 AM
What do you think I want?
ritchi - Today at 12:17 AM
it tearing me apart
Sketch - Today at 12:17 AM
Ritchi
ritchi - Today at 12:17 AM
i feel like i ruined someones life
Sketch - Today at 12:17 AM
Not everyone is going to explain shit to you
Honestly I can't tell you what to do
And I'm trying to get you to realize that
I DON'T have an answer for you.
Because this is YOUR problem(edited)
YOU have to take the information being presented to you and think of what to do next
So instead of crying at me
Tell me
What do YOU think you should do?
ritchi - Today at 12:22 AM
i dont know
Sketch - Today at 12:22 AM
Look
ritchi - Today at 12:22 AM
i have nothing to do except waiting out this month
and getting my holiday ruined because i know he knows about it and ill be just constantly thinking about how he feels
Sketch - Today at 12:22 AM
I can be a guiding figure, a motivator, a support for many people.
But I'm only doing that if I don't think my time will be wasted
ritchi - Today at 12:23 AM
you feel like i am wasting your time?(edited)

ritchi - Today at 2:20 PM
the way you said it sounded deregatory
and i hate that word
Sketch - Today at 2:20 PM
What word
ritchi - Today at 2:20 PM
but whatever actually
"boyfriend"
Sketch - Today at 2:21 PM
Are you not?
ritchi - Today at 2:21 PM
its no matter
Sketch - Today at 2:21 PM
No fuck you
You guys waste so much of my time
Answer that
Are you or are you not his boyfriend?
ritchi - Today at 2:21 PM
...yes i am
Sketch - Today at 2:22 PM
Why is that a big deal?
Enough to ask me to not call you that?
ritchi - Today at 2:22 PM
i dont know
i just hate that word
it makes me unconfortable
probably because im not used to it
Sketch - Today at 2:23 PM
Afraid of commitment?
ritchi - Today at 2:24 PM
no!
no no no
just
i
Sketch - Today at 2:24 PM
Oh it's just embarrassing like one of my Japanese yaois then
ritchi - Today at 2:24 PM
i never was with a guy before
gah
fuck
Sketch - Today at 2:25 PM
Anyway, repeating myself with you two
You both frustrate me because you just don't seem to ever get anything I say no matter what I do
But you both keep coming back
Every time I think you're listening, you show me the next day you didn't learn a god damned thing
And now I'm roped into this fucking Bermuda love triangle
And because of the pact you all made, I have to deal with you two without Pap
ritchi - Today at 2:29 PM
im sorry
you dont have to do this
Sketch - Today at 2:29 PM
Who the fuck else will?
Iggy?
ritchi - Today at 2:29 PM
and i know you probably despise us both because its all our fault(edited)
Sketch - Today at 2:29 PM
Cut that out
ritchi - Today at 2:30 PM
im not trying to be the victim here if thats where youre getting at(edited)
i know i was in the wrong
Sketch - Today at 2:30 PM
Stop being so melodramatic
ritchi - Today at 2:30 PM
i know i should have stopped talking to pap long before
Sketch - Today at 2:30 PM
You need to work on your self confidence
And Deijo needs to come back to reality
That's it
ritchi - Today at 2:31 PM
what do you mean by that
Sketch - Today at 2:31 PM
That's fucking the only two points I've been trying to hammer into you two
How the fuck can I make it any simpler
Do I need to go into the psychology of self confidence?
ritchi - Today at 2:31 PM
fucks sake
>Deijo needs to come back to reality(edited)
what did you mean
Sketch - Today at 2:32 PM
He's got his head in the clouds, still
Is that an idiom you're familiar with?
ritchi - Today at 2:32 PM
yes
i understand
Sketch - Today at 2:32 PM
That's all I've been trying to explain to him about him
And when it's just that one point, can you see how I'm getting frustrated that he can't grasp even that?
ritchi - Today at 3:03 PM
i feel like a complete idiot
i guess thats how it is, but i just couldnt see it
im thankful to you lou, really
im not sure if pap prompted you to do this or if you decided to do it yourself but thank you
Sketch - Today at 3:09 PM
I'm just sick of all three of you's shit.
ritchi - Today at 3:17 PM
okay
you can block me as well if you feel so
just want you to know that i always wanted to be your friend, and again, im not trying to be manipulative or be the victim here, but really, i wanted to, since i knew you werent a bad person
but seemed to me you were always hostile to me
but i guess now that youre just always like that
Sketch - Today at 3:20 PM
Deijo's just lashing out because he's still hurt
He wanted an excuse to ignore everything I was saying, and one way is to act like I'm the villain.
ritchi - Today at 3:21 PM
it doesnt help that your tone is very aggressive
Sketch - Today at 3:21 PM
You guys wore out my patience
ritchi - Today at 3:21 PM
i guess...
and im sorry for that
you dont really have to deal with this
unless you want to yourself
but i dont think you do
did pap ask you to?
be honest
Sketch - Today at 3:24 PM
Yes.
I shouldn't have enabled him
Jesus Christ this entire thing is so much bullshit I shouldn't be involved in
ritchi - Today at 3:26 PM
im sorry
why did this even have to happen
heh
i guess it was all me
since i kept talking to pap all the time
Sketch - Today at 3:27 PM
No it's my fault
I shouldn't have talked to either of you
ritchi - Today at 3:28 PM
what...?
why?
Sketch - Today at 3:28 PM
Look what happened, genius.
Today is entirely my fault
Should have known better
ritchi - Today at 3:29 PM
dont blame yourself
only thing is your tone is always borderline murderous
it feels like you despise me every time you speak to me(edited)
heh
i wouldnt really be surprised if that's how it actually is(edited)