DXM Log 003 (2014-05-04)

The current time is 21:31.  I just took 300 mg of DXM HBr, which evens out to a second plateau dosage thanks to my body mass of 70.3 kg.  I intend to watch End of Evangelion, then bask in the resultant Eva-themed visions.

The current time is 22:22.  I've finished the first half of End of Eva.  Thus far, I have yet to feel any physical of mental symptoms of the DXM dosage.  This is consistent with my previous trips, in which nearly 2 hours passed before substantial symptoms manifested.

The current time is 00:56.  I went out with two friends of mine to a nearby nature preserve for a couple of hours.  I did not get to finish End of Evangelion, but it's too late for it anyway at this point.  The DXM is hitting me hard, but I'm not experiencing the skin tingling or sense of melting from before.  The loss of motor coordination and impairment of balance are both present, as is the overwhemling urge to lay down and sleep.  Choosing the words for speaking and writing is substantially more difficult than normal, and it's harder to maintain concentration.
I just had my first vision.  It was a shot of the green mountain background outline from that old Windows 95 game with the tanks [BattleZone], except the background was filled with dark purple static.  The perspective zoomed in, and suddenly I was climbing up the mountain.  Then, I lost my grip and began sliding down, and the row of green mountains rolling past me turned into the spikes along the spine on the back of a green dinosaur.

The current time is 01:20.  I had a vision of the room before the balcony in Big Boo's Mansion in Super Mario 64.  It's taking all of my willpower to sit still at my computer and type this rather than lie down or fall over on the spot.  My skin still isn't tingling, but it feels numb, and the inside of my mouth feels similar to how it did when I got that tooth pulled.

The current time is 01:39.  With much effort, I relocated my laptop to a more convenient location.  From here, I can type and update this log while still being able to lie back and see more visions.  I feel numb, shakey, and very positive.  I'm also resisting the urge to spill my ramblings into this log.

The current time is 02:42.  Distances are vastly exaggerated in my mind.  Objects that rest a meter or so away seem to be several kilometers out of reach.  Standing up is like being placed on top of the Eiffel Tower or something similarly tall.  My skin is a numb, tingly mess, and my mind is full of static and over-abstractions.  My body feels heavy, but, at the same time, feels rubbery and slippery.  The mild mausea has come and gone.  Even typing takes great effort and concentration.

The current time is 02:59.  Although it's only been a few minutes since the last entry, it feels as though it's been hours or even days.  My sense of time has corrupted entirely.  My mind will wander off on tangents that seem to last for ages and ages, then abruptly return; in the end, only a couple of minutes passed.  There haven't been many Eva-themed visions at this point.
There are moments of sudden clarity, where the drug-induced fog parts and you can think perfectly clear, if only for a split second.  Then the moment fades, swallowed by reactions to stimuli.  I suspect that such moments of clarity are rare for people who are sober all the time.  Exceedingly so, even.

The current time is 03:48.  I've started wondering about how to define a "normal" state of consciousness.  I mean, I sure as hell know that I'm not in one right now, and I know that when I'm sober, that's a normal state.  Then, is a normal state of consciousness simply one free of distortion from drugs?  In that case, I suppose drunkenness is an abnormal state of consciousness.  Could smokers also be said to be in an abnormal state of consciousness?  Probably not.  We should limit the definition to psychoactive drugs.

The current time is 04:56.  The effects of the DXM are definitely fading.  I can have coherent conversations with others and not loose track of what's going on due to a delusion presented to me by my drug-addled brain.  Additionally, typing and speaking is much easier.

The current time is 05:23.  At this point, the DXM has stopped affecting my mind entirely.  My sense of balance is still off, and I'm wobbly on my feet, but I can think clearly.