The Trotting Dead - s3e038 - Raven and Star: Wandering Heart

[2015-02-04 23:21:39]*	Star_Spotter looks at Raven, so hun, what's wrong
[2015-02-04 23:21:47]<Star_Spotter>	"So hun, what's wrong?"
[2015-02-04 23:50:19]<EchoesOfDeath>	"I just feel... confused." Raven looks at her teacher and friend. "You know how Rosebee used to be my best friend, right? And we known each other for years. It was good to have a friend that was honest when so many ponies wanted me to just pay their lunch, because of my parents' money, right?"
[2015-02-04 23:50:41]<EchoesOfDeath>	She looks down. "...oh, it's been a while I don't think of my parents. I guess I'm just used to them not being there. I wonder if they are okay. They were always busy with their travels and meetings and events. Maybe all this madness just never reached them."
[2015-02-04 23:50:51]<EchoesOfDeath>	"But anyway, Rosebee was always there. And that was great, until I hooked up with Wheel. You remember him from the other class right? He was the worst, he left me for Rosebee and that hurt so much. And I don't think she did it on purpose, but she is always naive like that and she even tried to comfort me but I couldn't take it." She huffs. "That dick left her too."
[2015-02-04 23:51:01]<EchoesOfDeath>	"And that's why I didn't speak to her all year. But then everything started going into madness. I thought Bee would die! I didn't want her to leave me too, but it still hurt a bit. And now I think she likes Swift, and I feel kind of jealous. I think I like her. But I never liked fillies that way before. And after all that, I don't know! I don't even know if she likes me back, because I was
[2015-02-04 23:51:01]<EchoesOfDeath>	kind of awful to her for a while. I don't even know if she likes fillies." She flaps her wings and flies a bit without realizing.
[2015-02-04 23:51:22]<EchoesOfDeath>	"And now the others are trying to hook us up. But what if it doesn't work? What if she doesn't like me that way?! What if she still likes Swift? What if she gets hurt because Swift didn't notice? Should I even like her? Like, the world ended and won't they want us all to have foals? Do I have to have a foal? I don't want to! I wanted to write books and study literature! What if I hate the
[2015-02-04 23:51:22]<EchoesOfDeath>	colt!? Why is everything so weird now?! Is it ever going to be normal again? Are we going to be trapped forever?"
[2015-02-04 23:51:29]<EchoesOfDeath>	She stops and catches her breath. "...should I tell Rosebee how I feel? What if she gets weirded out and doesn't even want to be my friend anymore. I don't want to be lonely."
[2015-02-04 23:54:32]*	Star_Spotter sighs and sits down. "Raven, I want to tell you a story of my own before I answer you. I'm sure you've noticed I can be a flirty mare, but I didn't always used to be like that. I used to be really shy, only look into a telescope at night and look over the stars. But a special somepony brought me out of my shell."
[2015-02-04 23:57:07]<Star_Spotter>	"Her name was Wish I Might. I called her Wishie. She was my best friend when we were fillies. She left me for a bit, her family needed to travel, and thats when i became shy. Until around when I was 17. She moved back. We had both grown into pretty young things, as she liked to say." she chuckles quietly.
[2015-02-04 23:58:57]<Star_Spotter>	"But, that's when i found something very important out about me. I had a fluttering shakey feeling when i was around Wishie now... I wanted to be near her, hug her a lot, when she kissed my cheek i couldn't have been happier. I was in Love. And thats when Wishie figured it out too, around the same time, and for my 18th' birthday, she shared a special night with me.
[2015-02-05 00:00:44]<Star_Spotter>	"After that night she would always tell me never to sell myself short, i was smart, pretty and I should be able to get anypony, and she was happy it was her. But... Good things can't last forever. I woke up next to Wishie one morning and she wasn't moving, she still had a smile on her face... but after calling the hospital I found out..."
[2015-02-05 00:02:28]<Star_Spotter>	"She was dead... she died of a brain tumor in her sleep, one no one had knew about. After a few months of mourning, i remembered her words and how she made me feel, and I decided then, that I couldn't sell myself short. I would make sure everyone would know im smart, beatiful, and I could get anypony I wanted, just like wishie had told me. I'm not sure if it's what she would have wanted, but... even if it isn't, I'll bet she h
[2015-02-05 00:03:22]<Star_Spotter>	it's what she would have wanted, but... even if it isn't, I'll bet she has a laugh every now and again up there."
[2015-02-05 00:04:23]<Star_Spotter>	"Either way Raven, it's normal to like fillies, the worst Rosebee can say is no, and we both know she's not the type of filly to just stop being friends with you. If you want to be with a mare, there will be one out there for you. If you want a colt, same deal." She kisses Raven's forehead. "Does that help?"
[2015-02-05 00:09:59]<EchoesOfDeath>	"Oh." Raven looks down. "I'm sorry." She looks back at Star_Spotter and doesn't seem to know what to say.
[2015-02-05 00:10:54]*	Star_Spotter pets. "Don't be hun, it's not your fault. All I'm saying is, you need to try. You can't always worry. If the others are trying to hook you up, beat them to the punch and ask Rosebee out."
[2015-02-05 00:18:03]<EchoesOfDeath>	Raven blinks."I... " She pauses. "...maybe I should. This grim world is full of terrible things. If we are idle, joy will bleed away from our hooves."
[2015-02-05 00:18:26]<Star_Spotter>	"Why not write her a love poem?"
[2015-02-05 00:18:33]<Star_Spotter>	"If that helps you that is."
[2015-02-05 00:20:02]<EchoesOfDeath>	She thinks about it and smiles. "I think I would like that"
[2015-02-05 00:20:35]*	Star_Spotter smiles and hugs her. "It's been a while since I've seen you smile Raven, I hope Rosebee says yes to dating you so I can see it more."
[2015-02-05 00:21:35]<EchoesOfDeath>	Raven hugs her back. "Lets hope. Thank you teacher."
[2015-02-05 00:21:49]*	Star_Spotter pats her. "Well you better get writing then."
[2015-02-05 00:23:39]<EchoesOfDeath>	Raven nods and flies off to get blank paper from the library stuff.