Goblin King
It's so nice to talk to someone and have them say "yeah, I'm have my the same troubles, for the same or similar reasons".
Goblin King
It might not fix things but I feel a lot better.
ｍｏｏｎｓｅｙ
that's goooood
Goblin King
And that perhaps rp is too toxic for me to deal with right now. or ever
ｍｏｏｎｓｅｙ
how so? D:
ѕoвв ѕтαrĸ
;A; How come?
Goblin King
For me, I suppose, I want to matter but it's just too big. I'm a grain of sand on a beach. (And this is game wise)
Goblin King
I unfortunately do compare myself to others and wonder why do they have x and I y etc etc
gσηє вαтту
yep
Goblin King
Sometimes it's just for comparative reasons. Others it is solely selfish of "why are they so popular" or "have so much cr" or fill in the blank.
ѕoвв ѕтαrĸ
To be honest, I feel the same about that, that wanting to matter in a whole scheme of a game. And sometimes it does get me down as well. But you know...you do matter to the people where you do matter to.
ѕoвв ѕтαrĸ
I think for me it helps. Even though I've been snubbed and blown off by people so many times, it helps to know that there are people you matter to.
ѕoвв ѕтαrĸ
I messaged people for CR and they never get back to me, I asked people to plot on plurk and no way in hell they add me, I put up logs for people and no way they reply to it. It is shit, really shit.
Goblin King
I imagine we all do it to some extent. I just take it to heart sometimes a bit harder. Like its a good thing as I'll never be mentioned on the bad side of the anon come but the converse is true to
Goblin King
*too. In that I'll never be mentioned on the good side either.
ｍｏｏｎｓｅｙ
Are you basing your worth also on an anon comm?
Goblin King
Man, I haven't even touched on the amount of flakes you have to put up with. Of course, it's done of those flakes that I see get so celebrated. Which pisses me off even more. And then hate spiral.
ｍｏｏｎｓｅｙ
There are quite a few of us who do believe you're worth it and really enjoy playing with you.
ｍｏｏｎｓｅｙ
RP can be toxic but only if you let it :-(
ѕoвв ѕтαrĸ
Exactly! You matter to me, and to ｍｏｏｎｓｅｙ and to a whole lot of others.
ricatrix.
this makes me so sad bc you're definitely at the top of my favorite cr
ricatrix.
but... okay
sakura
it sounds like you may need to take a break from rp for a bit...
ｍｏｏｎｓｅｙ
It's tough to look past, all of that stuff, but man you matter and we're here to have fun with you and we do
sakura
or at least plurk or something? focus on what makes you happy about tags
sakura
and just doing tags, doing your thing
ricatrix.
^this
ｍｏｏｎｓｅｙ
rp is supposed to be a fun hobby ;_; not one where you worry about being mentioned/popular
sakura
try not to focus on what anyone else is doing
sakura
we all get these feelings in rp
ѕoвв ѕтαrĸ
You're absolutely worth it, you are fun and dedicated to your character and plots. Just do your thing, you do a good thing.
sakura
when i notice i'm having them, i tell myself "ok you need to distance"
ricatrix.
do your thing and don't focus so much on the one thing in rp that absolutely do not matter one bit. Focus on US who actually love you and want to play with you
sakura
and i'll stay off plurk and just try to do tags or focus on fun cr or a thread
ricatrix.
the grass is totally not greener on the other side
ｍｏｏｎｓｅｙ
A very good thing X-(
sakura
what rica said
sakura
you could even hiatus and just do other things!! you will feel better before you notice
ricatrix.
and maybe this is just me but whenever I see plurks like this I feel like... okay then. What we're doing isn't enough apparently.
ricatrix.
so maybe think about that as well
sakura
but when you're comparing yourself and thinking things like that it's really time to step away
sakura
yes
sakura
that too
ｍｏｏｎｓｅｙ
I agree with Rica, especially when we all tell you that you do matter and that we do have a lot of fun with you and want to thread lots
ricatrix.
I squirm with happiness whenever I get a Norman tag but if that's not fun for you? Maybe you really should take a break
sakura
even if you may not mean it, if you say things like that it either sends a difficult message to your friends or makes us wonder who you're talking about
ѕoвв ѕтαrĸ
Ugh, I love it when my inbox is full of Norman
sakura
aka "who is popular but doesn't deserve it", etc.
ｍｏｏｎｓｅｙ
As do I
ѕoвв ѕтαrĸ
Don't let this all get to you because it'll make you feel miserable. All these people love you and your tags. Just know that you're loved bb.
Goblin King
Sorry, work needed me. Okay. You're right to call out the selfishness of this. 99% percent of the time I don't even think about it but there is always that 1% of dark moments that I do.
ｍｏｏｎｓｅｙ
<3
Goblin King
(Like now) I shouldn't and I don't know why I do. I guess a need for validation that isn't necessarily from someone I know? It's stupid. And I'm sorry if I hurt anyone here.
Goblin King
Know that I love guys and your tags. (And I wish I could give some back to you, I really do.)
ｍｏｏｎｓｅｙ
You can ;;
ѕoвв ѕтαrĸ
Goblin King
I guess some people are like the movie frozen to me: I personally wasn't wowed but others are all over it so it makes my head tilt a little in wonder. It's not fair for me to lash out.
Goblin King
But thank you, know that I'm hold back tears at work and I love you all. I'll work on pulling my head out from the darkness. (heart_beat)
Goblin King
(And yeah I do need to stay off plurk but it is a bad habit and also one of the few places I can talk about stuff i want to. Not much room for comics talk in the er.)
ѕoвв ѕтαrĸ
If you ever feel like venting or letting things out, you can always PP me.
ｍｏｏｎｓｅｙ
I understand that logic, the movie frozen thing compared to people, I understand it so much and can relate but at the sametime don't let it get to you too
ｍｏｏｎｓｅｙ
At the end of the day you should do what you do best, have fun with it and those that are here to enjoy your company and tags and have fun with you ;;
ricatrix.
not understanding why people like frozen doesn't mean you can't like other movies
ｍｏｏｎｓｅｙ
And if you want I'm down to do anything outside of a game, like a musebox thing with Norman & Tess or Norman & Lucy, whatever you want if you just need a break from games and want to write/tag still
ｍｏｏｎｓｅｙ
PP me too if you ever need to, if something's wrong or you just want to chat
Goblin King
Yeah. I need to remember to enjoy what I have, not be jealous of what I perceive I don't. (~Life lessons ~) I really do love all my cr here.
ｍｏｏｎｓｅｙ
Some jealousy is okay, it's a natural feeling but don't let it rule you and ruin your funtimes ;;
Goblin King
99% of the time I'm okay, I guess all the things aligned correctly for it to all come to s head right now. (I'm blaming the month of November. I think it messes with me.)
Goblin King
<3 I'll definitely keep that in mind.
ｍｏｏｎｓｅｙ
<33333
kioaun
I am late to the party and definitely feel you on this
kioaun
And everyone has said pretty much what I would say. It sucks sometimes when people have things you want and things you try to work toward and it doesn't seem to work. Ariel is really bad about that
kioaun
But I definitely have fun playing with you and enjoy your tags and I know others do as well. Sometimes like just gets us down and it helps RP get us down and just repeats
kioaun
I wish I could do something to help but it's just one of those things. I think you've got a grip on it.