[30/01/2015 21:34:31] Aυѕтιɴ ▽: Well I feel like this is long overdue but I need to say this.

A lot of people in Trivium know this but the community doesn't really. We spoke a couple of times in here about minecraft being an escape and for me it was exactly this. Over a year ago now, Summer 2013 I finished GCSE's and you guys know I did pretty well. What happened after that kinda sucked. I don't wanna go into detail because I'm touchy about this but some stuff started happening irl. I started playing online minecraft!! I played on the Hive and was horrendous. 6/500 or something as you guys know. So I googled how to get better and it was basically entirely hacking videos. So I got some! 80/800 I got to cause I was still kinda shit cause... Hacks don't really make you good. I was banned on Hive for a week and so I was taught that cheating in live is stupid, even if it's a game. I played some random servers for a bit and I actually started getting okay, I wasn't even shit. I moved to mcsg.. And no, I wasn't hacking, at all. I can't remember if I ever did hack in my first weeks on mcsg, but yeah. That Christmas (the one going into 2014) I got chronic fatigue. If you don't know what that is then google it. I got it cause of irl depression because of the things that happened to me. Long story short I lost about 16kg, I weighed 84kg in the summer before I got ill, and was at the gym everyday, so yea you know..

What happened next was I was introduced to the companionship that is found on mc. I met my first friends in Sardoz, Nick and Kyle: and we made a clan. From this point forward I wasn't hacking. I never hacked on mcsg with clan wars and whatnot, it's dishonest and disgusting. I have, however, hacked. In times where my ego got involved and I got captivated by the game and felt the need for a false sense of satisfaction, I hacked. The 10k on cove was 80% legit, but I would always have the same old hive client on in case there was a hacker. I never hacked against my friends or the famous Mahxi video.. But yeah. I have hacked, everyone kinda knows when I am I guess, but I guess it's smeared out to I'm always hacking.

Recently my dad was diagnosed with cancer. Recently being weeks. I felt so sapped from everything that this sense of desire for some sort of achievement came back. I'm not really a bad player, a 1900 ish elo that is pretty ok I'm mcsg team fights. For the past two days since I've had donor+ on Voltaiire I've been hacking, it's obvious. This 2100 elo is retarded. So yeah, you guys already knew that though.

I get pretty retarded hits anyway and I wasn't hacking on Austin_HG on badlion, not when I had high elo or recorded the montage.

So long story short I used minecraft as an escape. I hacked on hive, stopped, got okay, but have hacked when my life or ego intervened. I know this doesn't really justify a lot but yeh. Cause of what I've dealt with I've tried to be the leader and friend that trivium looks up to.. I would like to think that I have saved Albin in some ways and that's what I treasure; not 2100 elo. It's materialistic and I couldn't care less.

Have fun reading this and progressing your opinions about me.. I'm open to questions :p
[30/01/2015 21:34:48] Aυѕтιɴ ▽: That was fucking effort to type btw I'm on my phone
[30/01/2015 21:35:57] Aυѕтιɴ ▽: Btw Owain the first time we fought on cove I was legitimate aha