Daisy Kay
23:02  but yeah, my teenage years were lousy
23:03  and that is the worst time to have a bad time

Kommissar Mandar
23:03  mmm

Daisy Kay
23:03  because your body is changing and your brain is already messed up

Kommissar Mandar
23:03  It shapes you
23:03  What happens then

Daisy Kay
23:03  but our family was really fucking poor
23:04  and we had so much bad luck
23:05  shit just kept happening to us and it was hilarious whenever people heard about it. We lived in one of those single-wide trailers in a place surrounded by people with "real houses."
23:07  the foundation broke, we didn't have electricity or running water or heat, we had to eat cereal with powdered milk, we did all that for two weeks before our insurance paid for a cheap hotel that we had to stay in for six months and during that time the trailer also caught on fire

Kommissar Mandar
23:08  oh jesus christ...
23:08  I couldn't imagine... = (

Daisy Kay
23:08  and that's funny to kids
23:08  because you're poor

Kommissar Mandar
23:08  fuck kids

Daisy Kay
23:08  you are poor, pathetic trash
23:09  you dumb, poor, shitty trash... with your shitty, ratty shoes that are falling apart

Kommissar Mandar
23:09  this was in Jersey?

Daisy Kay
23:09  this was in Virginia

Kommissar Mandar
23:09  ah
23:09  I"m so sorry, sweetheart...

Daisy Kay
23:09  we were surrounded by people more well off than us
23:10  also hicks

Kommissar Mandar
23:11  well I know hicks...

Daisy Kay
23:11  the kind of hicks with money

Kommissar Mandar
23:11  that's the majority of my family

Daisy Kay
23:11  so they're extra douchy

Kommissar Mandar
23:11  i know em with and without...
23:12  My father's side of my family are basically sociopaths with lots of money
23:13  I feel terrible that you had to go through that...

Daisy Kay
23:14  and me not being able to handle it was my fault
23:14  I was always being treated like some kind of criminal after my suicide attempt.

Kommissar Mandar
23:14  I know few who could live like that and handle it well...
23:14  ... = (
23:14  I know that feeling

Daisy Kay
23:15  after columbine every depressed kid was a suspect

Kommissar Mandar
23:15  After my breakdown in AZ I basically became a leper

Daisy Kay
23:15  bullies were not a problem
23:15  only the depressed, sad kids
23:16  The upside is that I went to therapy and got to take neato drugs. I wonder if my problems I have now are because I'm not getting enough drugs

Kommissar Mandar
23:16  heh....

Daisy Kay
23:16  because I was fine for a while but my depression and anxiety has been getting worse

Kommissar Mandar
23:17  My mother was an....interesting lady
23:17  she fed me all kinds of pills when I was little because I had a "problem"
23:17  they put me on some weird med once at her request
23:17  I was 5
23:18  the next day I said I was gonna take my dads gun and murder everyone in the house

Daisy Kay
23:18  drugs are actually very good for you
23:18  but
23:18  they are all different

Kommissar Mandar
23:18  depends what kind
23:18  I should know
23:18  I'm a pillhead and a half

Daisy Kay
23:18  no two problems are the same

Kommissar Mandar
23:19  I used to pop oxy like it was candy

Daisy Kay
23:19  and pills should be tested and figured out

Kommissar Mandar
23:19  I know klonopin works wonders for my anxiety
23:20  have you ever tried it?

Daisy Kay
23:21  nah, I was only effexor and one other thing

Kommissar Mandar
23:22  klonopin and kratom are my best friends

Daisy Kay
23:22  yeah
23:23  there are people that are so anti-pill that it makes me annoyed
23:23  telling someone to "go off their meds" is bad advice.
23:23  always.

Kommissar Mandar
23:23  I was so put off by medication from the shit my mother put me through I actually joined the Church of Scientology once
23:24  Yeah, I was HARDCORE stupid when I was younger

Daisy Kay
23:24  "it makes you high and stupid and it's bad for your brain you should just be sad!"
23:24  haha they are also anti-therapy