Mostly I'm scared. There's a lot of things I'm scared about, there's a lot of things that I will be scared about, and in the future it will be scary too. Look at the past few years and you will there is a lot of things that changed. Which is good for you guys because I want you guys to be successful in life.　DDK finally got his big job at Crunchyroll, Veronin has gone to Japan, and Nick is going to college. These are some really big changes, that I can't be apart of. I'm not part of your guys lives anymore, and we can't keep on acting like I am after leaving you for so long. The truth is I'm still me after all these 5 years when we first met each other. This is what I've mostly been afraid about when we meet each other after so long. I really wish I could be part of your guys lives, however you guys seem to be making it incredibly difficult after I've been gone. I haven't experienced it myself. Sometimes it feels like I'm looking back at a ghost, a friendly ghost that wants me there, but a ghost that I will never be able to grab onto myself.

The second thing I'm mostly scared about is that I can never get a conversation starting with you guys. This has been a long time coming, and it generally is the reason why I leave every chatroom setting I go to. You guys are really opened up, but I never fully learned how. This guy named Prinny was my life mentor and he was helping me out to get there. He helped me take some big leaps that I never really saw a lot of you guys help me with. If it wasn't for him, I don't think we would have formed this big of a relationship. With Meball and Marrow rejecting me too, it's been a struggle for me to get attached with anyone anymore. My mind has rejected being in a relationship with another person as long as I remember. I have not formed any sort of connections in the past 3 years. Most of my time has been spent with other people that are like me, wanderless travelers.(We're not.) I can't remember the last time we had an actual really good conversation together. It was group events we did, but I don't remember the last time I shared my opinions.

A long time has passed, and I'm still me. The sad fact is that in Bug Money's life there isn't a need for me. This is kind of like a goodbye letter, one that a star of Bug Money needs to write this for the rest of the group. If we can interact again, I hope there is a way. But I don't want you to take time out from your life to help someone like me that kept on being a bad friend.