[18:26] <Damac1214> Can we talk?
[18:27] <Derpy_Hooves> eeyup
[18:28] <Damac1214> I'm sorry for what I said earlier
[18:28] <Damac1214> that much is clear
[18:29] <Damac1214> But don't you think your being a bit unfair?
[18:32] <Damac1214> I'm not talking about the ban mind you
[18:32] <Damac1214> right now im just talking about the quieting
[18:32] <Derpy_Hooves> i unquieted you
[18:32] <Derpy_Hooves> a while ago
[18:32] <Derpy_Hooves> and it's preempetive
[18:33] <Derpy_Hooves> so things dont become a shitfest of talking down on other users
[18:34] <Damac1214> So I can't even get a word out if it shows the chat in a negative light?
[18:34] <Derpy_Hooves> considering i have to put up with it every god damned day im here
[18:34] <Derpy_Hooves> i dont think so, no
[18:35] <Derpy_Hooves> just like how Chat doesn't get to put IRC in a negative light
[18:36] <Damac1214> Wow
[18:37] <Damac1214> My only thought is why would you put it up with that?
[18:37] <Derpy_Hooves> because i do
[18:37] <Derpy_Hooves> if i didn't then i would have quit a long time ago
[18:37] <Derpy_Hooves> luckily im one to forget and forgive quickly because i cant be bothered to bog myself down in dislike for other human beings
[18:39] <Damac1214> I'm gonna be honest
[18:39] <Damac1214> No sugar coating or sucking up or anything
[18:40] <Damac1214> thats one of the most insightful things i've heard from a real person
[18:40] <Damac1214> Well...
[18:40] <Damac1214> Mostly the "i cant be bothered to bog myself down in dislike for other human beings"
[18:41] <Derpy_Hooves> i live with tolerance
[18:41] <Derpy_Hooves> people can say what they want about me, people can think what they want to think
[18:41] <Derpy_Hooves> i'll tolerate it
[18:41] <Derpy_Hooves> like that dude in chat who called me "gay" earlier because i cracked a joke at him
[18:41] <Derpy_Hooves> i didn't kick him
[18:41] <Derpy_Hooves> 50 bucks says other people would have
[18:42] <Damac1214> I always like to think i'm a tolerant person, I can take criticism and what not, but I always slip up when it comes to people
[18:42] <Damac1214> I find that i can't help but dislike some people
[18:45] <Damac1214> One more thing though
[18:45] <Derpy_Hooves> i used to be bullied when i was younger
[18:45] <Damac1214> Continue, i'll bring my thing up later
[18:45] <Derpy_Hooves> even when i was big and had a temper that would scar someone for a long time
[18:45] <Derpy_Hooves> i put up with it for... ever?
[18:45] <Derpy_Hooves> it stopped when they realised they couldn't do anything to bring harm to me
[18:45] <Derpy_Hooves> i made friends with them afterwards
[18:46] <Damac1214> I'm kind of the same way, I got bullied throughout most of my younger years
[18:47] <Damac1214> But it changed when I got to High School, I can't say exactly what it was. Maybe it was a bit of what you did, cause I learned to laugh at myself
[18:47] <Damac1214> But I also learned to just go with it
[18:47] <Damac1214> shits gonna happen, you need to see where it takes you
[18:47] <Derpy_Hooves> bullies are like internet trolls
[18:48] <Derpy_Hooves> they just wanna piss you off
[18:48] <Derpy_Hooves> so long as you dont let them get to you
[18:48] <Derpy_Hooves> they bugger off
[18:48] <Derpy_Hooves> and you win
[18:48] <Damac1214> Yeah
[18:48] <Damac1214> Now I do have one more question, and like I said, its unrelated to this whole thing
[18:49] <Derpy_Hooves> go on
[18:49] <Damac1214> When you went through rfa's and UotM's did you experience, for lack of something better, a change in personality?
[18:50] <Derpy_Hooves> i am the same person i was before i became an admin
[18:50] <Derpy_Hooves> just older
[18:50] <Damac1214> No, no, I mean during the voting, not before or after
[18:51] <Damac1214> Like you felt more nervous or stressed in one way or another
[18:51] <Derpy_Hooves> not at all
[18:51] <Derpy_Hooves> do you know why
[18:51] <Derpy_Hooves> because it's just a wiki
[18:51] <Derpy_Hooves> and i can always try again if i need to
[18:52] <Derpy_Hooves> and if it didn't pass, then there would have been ample reason for it not to pass
[18:52] <Damac1214> I always think that way... until I'm actually doing it
[18:52] <Damac1214> and then suddenly it becomes a competition
[18:52] <Damac1214> and I have to be better than everyone
[18:52] <Derpy_Hooves> i am not one to change my behaviour or attitude or thinking as i am being evaluated
[18:52] <Derpy_Hooves> as Gandhi once said, "It is better to be violent, if there is violence in our hearts, than to put on the cloak of nonviolence to cover impotence."
[18:52] <Derpy_Hooves> i.e. it's better to be yourself than someone you are not.
[18:53] <Damac1214> Your right
[18:53] <Damac1214> Thanks for talking to me, once again, I'm sorry for acting out earlier, truly. I should have thought before I did
[18:53] <Damac1214> but I need to go now, Thank you again
[18:53] <Derpy_Hooves> anytime, my friend, anytime
[19:00] <Derpy_Hooves> there will be some day when im older
[19:00] <Derpy_Hooves> long after my time here has passed
[19:00] <Derpy_Hooves> and i will miss it
[19:00] <Derpy_Hooves> dearly
[19:02] <Derpy_Hooves> which is why in an ideal world
[19:02] <Derpy_Hooves> i would not leave this site, nor the MLP wiki
[19:03] <Derpy_Hooves> i had to talk with a very angry moderator on the MLP wiki yesterday and try to get him to not quit in protest of something that happened
[19:05] <Derpy_Hooves> it's rather sad to see someone quit a wiki just because of one thing
[19:05] <Derpy_Hooves> "I object to violence because when it appears to do good, the good is only temporary; the evil it does is permanent." - Gandhi
[19:05] <Derpy_Hooves> leaving the wiki may be good to you in the short term
[19:05] <Derpy_Hooves> the damage it causes for other users you've come to know does not go away
[19:10] <Damac|Dinner> Thank You again, It's time for me to make a change
[19:39] <Derpy_Hooves> http://mlp.wikia.com/index.php?title=User_talk:Callofduty4&diff=199569&oldid=188987 it's this sort of thing which makes it all worth it
[19:40] <Damac1214> Haha yeah, thats why I think i'm still here
[19:40] <Damac1214> the times when people are nice
[19:46] <Derpy_Hooves> http://callofduty.wikia.com/wiki/User_talk:Damac1214/Archive1#WoW.21 you see this
[19:46] <Derpy_Hooves> thats what you should care about
[19:47] <Derpy_Hooves> http://callofduty.wikia.com/wiki/User_talk:Damac1214#Banned_from_Chat thi,s fuck this, and fuck the admin who banned you
[19:47] <Derpy_Hooves> it doesn't matter once you apologise
[19:47] <Damac1214> Lol, thanks, I think I get it now
[19:47] <Damac1214> I'm not going to be what I was trying to be
[19:48] <Damac1214> I'm gonna make my time here a fun one
[19:48] <Derpy_Hooves> http://callofduty.wikia.com/index.php?title=Special:Log&type=block&page=User%3ACallofduty4 i look at that and laugh
[19:48] <Derpy_Hooves> why? not because i didn't do anything wrong, i did
[19:48] <Derpy_Hooves> but, because its funny to look back and see where you fucked up
[19:49] <Damac1214> And learn from it, see what you've become compared to what you were right?
[19:50] <Derpy_Hooves> exactly
[19:52] <Damac1214> Thank you again
[19:52] <Damac1214> How many times is that now? 5 I think
[19:52] <Derpy_Hooves> i need not be thanked
[19:53] <Derpy_Hooves> you being happy is more than enough thanks for me
[19:54] <Damac1214> And I'll keep up my end, I'm gonna try and keep myself out of trouble from now on
[19:54] <Damac1214> cut down on what you have to deal with
[19:55] <Derpy_Hooves> another reason why i put up with it is because im too soft and nice to warn people
[19:55] <Derpy_Hooves> once, i had to ban some guy for sockpuppeting
[19:55] <Derpy_Hooves> uhh, forgot the name
[19:55] <Derpy_Hooves> Fr33flya i think
[19:55] <Derpy_Hooves> he came on the MLP wiki asking to be unbanned and that he was sorry
[19:56] <Derpy_Hooves> you dont know how bad i felt
[19:56] <Derpy_Hooves> i said i was sorry like 5 times to him :S
[19:56] <Damac1214> I actually know exactly what your talking about, I hate upsetting people
[19:57] <Damac1214> Like in my early days on IRC when Reznov was a bit of a problem, he got angry at me for something I said, i forget what, and got kicked for it
[19:58] <Damac1214> I said I felt bad for making him upset
[19:58] <Damac1214> You told me not too, but I still felt bad
[19:58] <Damac1214> Its stuff like that that really gets me
[19:58] <Damac1214> And Its why I felt awful when AS360 deleted his page
[20:08] <Derpy_Hooves> yeah
[20:09] <Derpy_Hooves> im sorry i had to resort to kicking you out of the chat
[20:09] <Derpy_Hooves> you may think that being an admin, it's fun to ban people
[20:09] <Derpy_Hooves> it's fun when you're banning a common troll, just for obvious reasons
[20:09] <Derpy_Hooves> there's times when it's not fun
[20:10] <Damac1214> You did what you had to do to keep order, and this talk has given me a pretty big new look on what its like to be an admin
[20:11] <Damac1214> And I get what your saying, the times when its fun and when its not