My life has fallen apart these past few months

My life has fallen apart these past few months. I feel like I've lost my hope, any dreams or aspirations. I've lost my girlfriend and missed classes since november because I'm depressed. I will have more debt with no credits to show for it, and only disappointed family to look foreword to. My friends are in prison for drug abuse as well is my brother. Cutting myself after being cut free for over a month led to two suicide attempts last week.
For some reason this game has kept me going. It keeps me distracted from depression and feel like I accomplish something when I help my team win. I'm only like a hundred games in, but theres so many ways/ heroes to play that I'm over my head in things I want to try. I love supporting my team and just being a useful helper in general. Every day I've asked myself If I can keep going and when I don't think I can, I start thinking about how much fucking fun I have playing this silly game. I cannot get enough and while it's not healthy to play in excess, it's been better than ending my life. I don't know if I honestly will be here after tomorrow, regardless I just wanted to say that this game is awesome and the people that play are just as great(even if theres some assholes along the way). I'll be supporting tomorrow and having a blast. That all l wanted to say I guess, and have an awesome Dota day! keep on supporting:)