me: okayso
4:15 PM
this girl i went out with from okc

like... 2 weeks ago

kinda went silent on the wire

which is fine

she was hella busyt

getting adjusted to seattle

but i liked her and all

she has huge cans

this is key

i was in a terrrrriible mood last night

so i start walking around the hill

et

c

get blown off by friends
4:16 PM
she texts me super late and asks me to meet her at electric tea garden

i say ok

i get there and pay the fucking 10 dollar cover

Winona: yeah

me: she immediately starts kissing me and wants to take a cab back to her place

okay

so we do that

she has an interesting coping/defense mechanism of bro humor

underneath the surface she is a depressive so probably very thoughtful and insightful
4:17 PM
but she never acts seriously

she makes it clear though lightheartedly that we arent going to be having sex

which is fine

so it's spoonfest

and she's super affectionate, it's intimate in a weird way

but im asking her questions about herself and she basically deflects with her humor

and i call her on it
4:18 PM
and every time i hit a nail on the head she jokes about killing me

anyway evidently she was a lot drunker than i thought

but basically waht i learned was

she used to let people in

and was really, really hurt by someone

dunno who

guy

maybe dad

idk

and now does not really do that

btu wants to?

so one of two things happened last night

she invited me over because she is a lonely person and she just thought to text me
4:19 PM
or she actually kinda likes me and is going to reject me /ignore me so she doesnt risk being rejected herself