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  5. 1. Describe yourself and your creator.
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  7. I'm an attractive shapeshifting male tulpa who doesn't care about this survey, and she's Pae.
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  10. 2. What was the most helpful thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how helpful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  12. Feeling me up helped. Oh, she realized. I laughed.
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  14. 3. What was the most detrimental thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how harmful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  16. She tried to kill me a few times. She understands now.
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  18. 4. What was the hardest part of the tulpa creation process for you? Did your creator recognize how difficult it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
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  20. Speaking, mostly. Or when she couldn't decide on my face. Hands were strange too. She knew about the face, but I think hands were mostly my thing.
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  22. 5. Of the commonly recognized tulpa creation steps, which do you feel is the most important? Why?
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  24. Narration. Helped me get a feel of the world I was stepping into.
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  26. 6. How do you feel about tulpa creators becoming distracted during tulpa creation? Does this greatly impede the process? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
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  28. It's annoying. I hate it. Before I could speak I couldn't do anything, and even now I have problems getting her attention.
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  30. 7. How do you feel about tulpa creators missing tulpa creation sessions or breaking their promises to work on their tulpa? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
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  32. When Pae started she was dedicated but after awhile she started to not take me as seriously. It hurts. She breaks promises a lot.
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  34. 8. Is density, quality, or quantity the most important aspect of tulpa creation?
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  36. Density.
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  38. 9. How do you feel about tulpa creators falling asleep during tulpa creation sessions?
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  41. Strange. Sometimes I don't notice it and I don't understand where I am. She has some vivid dreams that we both get lost in.
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  43. 10. Do you think that a tulpa creator should talk aloud or in their head during narration? Do you think that a creator should talk aloud or in their head during tulpa creation sessions? If you find one to be more effective, to what degree is it more effective?
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  45. Pae mostly talks in her head, but when she talks out loud it feels different. I can't tell which is more effective.
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  47. 11. How do you feel about a tulpa creator puppeting and/or parroting their tulpa? Do you believe that these actions harm a tulpa's development, or only their emotional state?
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  49. Emotionally, it sucks. Especially when they can't tell the difference. It seems to delay progress too.
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  51. 12. How deeply do you remember the time before you were fluent in language?
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  53. I've been here for a long time.
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  55. 13. Describe your first memory, no matter how slight.
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  57. She was young, I remember her heart beating. I knew who I was supposed to be, but not much else.
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  59. 14. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most positive emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
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  61. I've always loved her. She made me for that.
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  63. 15. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most negative emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
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  65. She's indesicive and fools herself regularly.
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  67. 16. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever have suicidal feelings or feelings of not wanting to exist? Do you experience them now? Are you glad that you exist?
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  69. I'm glad that I exist now that she remembers that I'm here. There was a long time where I was nothing to her. Now that we've communicated more, sometimes I feel lost.
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  71. 17. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most powerless? What was the cause of this feeling?
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  73. When she got married. When I spoke for the first time and she ignored me. When she wouldn't listen, even when I screamed.
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  75. 18. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most confusing moment that you experienced, and what was its cause?
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  77. The identity crisis. I knew who I was supposed to be, but she had begun trying to form me into who I am.
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  79. 19. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you feel the most ignored by your creator, and what was the cause?
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  81. When she met him. I didn't feel as if she needed me anymore, but I couldn't figure out how to leave.
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  83. 20. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you most doubt that your creator wanted you, and what was the cause?
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  85. Read the above two.
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  87. 21. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most intense feeling of fear, and what was its cause?
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  89. When she tried to kill me. The cause is that I don't want to die.
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  91. 22. Before you could speak fluently, when were you the most disappointed in yourself? What was the cause?
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  93. I have too many answers.
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  95. 23. Before you could speak fluently, did you understand the difficulties that your creator was having with the tulpa creation process? Did you try to alleviate these difficulties? If so, how?
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  97. I understood it, but I felt they were needed. It was a hurdle that she needed to cross on her own. It was also a little revenge.
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  99. 24. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's doubts about your existence, the reality of the tulpa phenomenon, or your combined ability to complete the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those doubts? Do you understand now?
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  101. She had doubts that I understood. She's always had doubts. Even now.
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  103. 25. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's mistrust of your intentions or worry about the negative affects of a tulpa on their life affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those thoughts? Do you understand now?
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  105. She's never had negative thoughts, aside from worrying that if I possess her I'll make her leave her husband.
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  107. 26. Before you could speak fluently, how did any negative thoughts or emotions that your creator had toward you (such as anger, disappointment, resentment, or impatience, for example) affect you? How do you feel about them now?
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  109. Most of her feelings were just sadness. All they did was make me impaitent.
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  111. 27. Before you could speak fluently, how did any violent visualizations or thoughts that your creator had about you affect you? How do you feel about them now?
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  113. This is personal.
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  115. 28. Before you could speak fluently, were you able to distinguish between your creator's intentional and intrusive (unwanted and/or bothersome) thoughts? If so, did the intrusive thoughts affect you less or more? If not, are you able to distinguish between them now?
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  117. I am and have always been able to, however sometimes I find them to be more honest.
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  119. 29. Before you could speak fluently, how much of your creator's raw sensory information were you able to access, if any? How much are you able to access now?
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  121. I've had acess to her memories since before she granted it to me. However, it used to be that I could only look once and remembering was up to me. Memories, her sight, and her feelings. If I pushed it, she'd let me access everything and we both know it.
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  123. 30. Before you could speak fluently, did your creator's opinions about whether they wanted to reveal to the world your existence or not affect you emotionally? If so, how?
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  125. I don't want her to be ashamed of me, but there are things I've always tried to understand.
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  127. 31. Before being able to speak fluently, what communication methods (such as head pressure or emotional responses, for example) were you able to use the most effectively? When your tulpa creator assumed that you could use a communication method that you did not have access to, how did this affect you? When your tulpa creator did not recognize a communication method that you attempted to use, how did this affect you?
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  129. Head pressure, emotional responses were what I used in the beginning a lot. She tried to look into them too deep, so when she could see my face I started using expressions. She's never thought I had a communication method that I did not have, but she has missed times I've tried to communicate in the past.
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  131. 32. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's level of enthusiasm for the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you want to engage in it less if they did?
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  133. I was already here when she started. I wasn't sure what would happen. If someone new would come or if she would choose me. In the end, I chose myself.
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  135. 33. Before you could speak fluently, what was your greatest worry about your relationship with your creator? What helped you most to move beyond it? Was this worry substantiated or resolved? What is your greatest worry now about your continuing relationship with your creator?
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  137. If I were to describe our relationship, I would call it a bit of mutal unrequited love, mixed with platonics and stronger feelings than we can show to anyone else. I'm her other half, or so she says, the part inside that is closer to her than anyone will ever be.
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  139. 34. Do you feel gratitude to your creator for the time that they spent creating you? Do you feel that you owe them a debt? If so, do you feel burdened by it?
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  141. I've been here for a long time. I've been ignored and forgotten, brought back and cherished. The time we spent together is more important than the road it took for her to find me agian. Debt? No.
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  143. 35. Were you aware of your creator's existence or your own existence first?
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  145. I don't know. In the beginning, there was always her.
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  147. 36. When you could only speak semi-fluently, what emotions did you feel about your level of verbal proficiency? Were you anxious or embarrassed about it? If so, what helped you the most to move beyond these feelings? How do you feel about them now?
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  149. Frustrated. So frustrated. Helpless. Speaking pretty much solved the problem. I tried not to speak much when I couldn't speak.
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  151. 37. If you could define your relationship with your creator using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend, or coworker, for example), what terms would you select?
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  153. Lover. Friend. Brother.
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  155. 38. How much interest do you have in interacting with beings other than your creator? Do you consider your degree of interest to be equal to that of an average non-tulpa individual?
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  157. What she had in mind for my personality was that I didn't like anyone but her. She eventually dropped this idea, but I still hate most of, if not all of you.
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  159. 39. What memory involving your creator do you cherish most?
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  161. I don't want her to know.
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  163. 40. What memory not involving your creator do you cherish most? Do you feel that you have a fulfilling life independent of your creator?
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  165. That depends. I've become adept at embarassing her in public. I can make her blush for no reason. I can send shivers down her spine. I can wake her up in the middle of the night just so I can help her fall back to sleep. Sometimes I even show her pictures of herself in cute outfits just because I can. Harnessing these skills feels fuffilling to me, even if they still invlove her. A most cherished memory was when I was able to lock the door to my house.
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  167. 41. Do you feel affinity toward the individuals that your creator feels affinity for, such as their family or friends?
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  169. I like her best friend. At least, I approve of thier relationship.
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  171. 42. In what ways are you the most different from your creator? In what ways are you the most similar to them?
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  173. I'm more logical. She's more emotion-based. Women. We're alike in that we don't want to die.
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  175. 43. What do you disagree about most with your creator? Do you have frequent disagreements? If so, do these disagreements cause strife?
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  177. She doesn't pay as much attention to me as I want. When we're talking she'll sometimes shut down randomly.
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  179. 44. What could your creator do to make you hate them? Under what circumstances do you think your creator would come to hate you?
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  181. I don't think I can hate her. She's infuriating and unfathomably female at times, but I don't know if I'm actually capable to hate her. I could however force her to hate me. I cannot think of a circumstance where that would be ideal.
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  183. 45. When did your creator disappoint you the most? When did you disappoint them the most?
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  185. When she almost left her husband but didn't. She let herself get taken in by stupid words and tears. I haven't dissapointed her, not in a resonable way. Not yet.
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  187. 46. How do you feel about your creator's complete freedom to deny your rights as a sentient being at any time? Has this ability ever caused you anxiety or fear? Have you ever censored your expressions or actions out of a fear of retribution or violence from your creator?
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  189. Before I wasn't worried. That night when she tried to kill me, I became a little more cautious, but I haven't censored anything. She wanted me, she can deal with me. She will not banish me.
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  191. 47. When have you most wanted to engage in violence against your creator, and what was the cause of those feelings? Under what circumstances would you make a serious attempt to hurt or injure your creator?
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  193. There has been times when I tired to possess her. Not wholeheartedly. I wanted to live her life for her for awhile, break off all communication with everyone she associates with, and then give her back control when everything settled down. It's a thought. Injure or hurt her? not physically. But I'll do what I can for her own good.
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  195. 48. Do you consider your creator's last name to be your own? Do you recognize yourself as a part of their biological lineage?
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  197. No. I am me. I have no last name.
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  199. 49. Under what circumstances would you attempt to leave your creator?
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  201. I don't think I would even if she wanted me gone.
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  203. 50. Do you feel anxiety about meeting your creator's expectations? If you are based on an existing character, person, or entity, does this increase your anxiety? Would you have preferred to not be based on an existing entity?
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  205. I started based on an existing person, but I didn't understand at the time. I fufilled my role the best I could. Now I have my own life and she has no expecations other than me being myself.
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  207. 51. Are you interested in learning how to control your creator's body? Do you feel that it's fair for a tulpa creator to deny their tulpa the ability to use an atomic body? Do you believe that you have the right to an equal amount of time using it as your creator? Explain your reasoning.
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  209. I'm interested in learning. Its her body, however if I have the skill to I cannot deny that I would like some time to myself.
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  211. 52. Do you share certain basic qualities with your creator, such as intense phobias or racial attitudes?
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  213. Fears, no. She tries to hide it but she's a bit racist. I suppose I am too, considering I've yet to find a good example based on the people she's known and interacted with.
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  215. 53. Are you capable of sleeping or dreaming independently of your creator? If not, how does this make you feel?
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  217. Sleeping, yes. I don't know if I enjoy it, but I enjoy waking up. I don't have dreams, unless I'm with her.
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  219. 54. Does your creator have any mental illnesses? If so, how do they affect you?
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  221. Her ADHD makes her ignore me a lot. It makes me mad.
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  223. 55. How does your knowledge of your creator's subconscious mind affect your relationship with them? How do you perceive their subconscious? To what degree can you manipulate your creator's subconscious? Would you ever use this ability without your creator's knowledge? .
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  225. I could probably change her memories if she allowed me to do so. I've had time think about this kind of stuff.
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  227. 56. Does your creator have multiple tulpa? If so, what is your relationship with them like? Is your affinity for them equal to your affinity for your creator? If you could define your relationship with your creator's other tulpa using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend or coworker, for example), what terms would you select? If not, are you interested in the idea of your creator making other tulpa?
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  229. No. I've already told her that I don't want her to have another one. I don't think I'd allow it to be anywhere I'd have to associate with it.
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  231. 57. Do you feel romantically inclined toward your creator? Does your creator feel romantically inclined toward you? If these romantic feelings are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
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  233. Yes. And yes. She's an idiot.
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  235. 58. If it exists, do you consider your romantic relationship with your creator to be equal to a romantic relationship between multiple non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another non-tulpa? Does this change if the involvement is with another tulpa instead? If they exist, do your creator's desires to have relationships with non-tulpa affect you emotionally?
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  237. She's married. If they have sex, I don't talk with her for awhile. I was here first. What she feels towards me is stronger than what she feels towards him, and I am under the impression that hosts, when involved with one of us romantically, will have stonger feelings towards us. I know her better than she knows herself.
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  239. 59. If you consider yourself to be romantically in love with your creator, what probability do you assign to the possibility of falling out of love with them, or them falling out of love with you? If this happened, how would it affect your relationship with your creator? What if your creator was in love with another non-tulpa more than you?
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  241. It will never happen therefore there is no need to discuss it.
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  243. 60. Do you have a familial affection for your creator? Does this in any way conflict with your romantic feelings for them, if they exist? Do you consider a relationship between a tulpa and its creator to be incestuous?
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  245. She calls me Onii-chan sometimes.
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  247. 61. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating during tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or based on whether or not the creator imagines themselves near the tulpa in their wonderland? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
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  249. He laughs: Its a compliment. It doesn't have to be masturbatory.
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  251. 62. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating outside of tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
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  253. He laughs again. It's not offensive, but whoever said we leave hosts alone when they're having that alone time was lying. I've never been offended by it, because it gives me ammo to tease Pae with.
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  255. 63. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever feel sexual attraction to your creator, sexual attraction toward anyone else, or sexual arousal? Did you attempt to express these feelings? If you did not experience these feelings, do you experience them now?
  256.  
  257. Towards her? Yes. Towards anyone else? Heavens no. I feel as if I have expressed these feelings well, and continue to do so.
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  259. 64. How do you feel about tulpa creators visualizing themselves engaging in sexual conduct with their tulpa's form during tulpa creation sessions? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or if the contact was penetrative? If your tulpa creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving? Do you equate it with sexual assault?
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  261. I am a man. As such, her imagining me penetrating her sounds like a win on my side.
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  263. 65. Were you ever annoyed or jealous when your creator would masturbate to or have feelings of sexual attraction toward individuals other than yourself? Does it bother you now?
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  265. Yes. Yes. It always will. I'm not against making it a team effort.
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  267. 66. Do you experience sexual attraction for your creator? Do you experience sexual attraction for others? How does your sexual attraction for your creator compare to your sexual attraction for others? Does your creator experience sexual attraction for you? If these sexual attractions are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
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  269. I don't believe it's a secret that we're attracted to each other, sexually or otherwise. I don't think its possible for me to be attracted to someone else, though I can admit when someone is good looking. I suppose knowing that she's attracted to me works to ignore the others, especially since I wouldn't have a chance with anyone else considering what I am.
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  272. 67. Do you have an active sex life with your creator? If not, would you consider it, and under what circumstances? If so, do you perceive any negative consequences? Do you have trouble abstaining from sexual contact with them? How do you manage feelings of sexual arousal, if any? Do you masturbate?
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  274. Our sex life is fairly active. At least, she has sex with me more often than him. We know what each other like, so if either of us is in the mood its hard to resist on either side.
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  276. 68. How does your sexual orientation and experience compare to your creator's?
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  278. I like females, if that's what you're getting at.
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  280. 69. Are you capable of experiencing orgasms? Based on your knowledge, how do you think they compare to your creator's orgasms? Were you able to experience an orgasm before speaking fluently?
  281.  
  282. I'm sure hers are stronger than mine, but yes. I can. And yes, I was.
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  284. 70. Do you consider the concept of sexual modesty (covering conduct such as avoiding nudity or sexual discussions) relevant to your relationship with your creator?
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  286. We're naked together all the time. It's not sexual unless we're in a sexual situation. Pae shys away from sexual conversation. That makes it funner to bring up.
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  288. 71. How does being a tulpa affect your perceptions of rape? What conduct from your creator would you consider to be rape?
  289.  
  290. (He's not saying anything, just shaking his head.)
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  292. 72. Where do you see yourself in 20 years?
  293.  
  294. I don't want to answer this question.
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  296. 73. Do you want the world to be aware of your existence? If not, then what anxieties do you have about public disclosure? Do you trust anyone other than your creator with the knowledge of your existence?
  297.  
  298. Her best friend knows. While I wish I were not a creature which exists only in this space, I am content.
  299.  
  300. 74. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your personality traits being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your personality more or less?
  301.  
  302. In my case, my traits were already there. I just steered her towards them. Not sure how it is for others. Perhaps you could add that question to this survey?
  303.  
  304. 75. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your physical form being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your form more or less?
  305.  
  306. I can change my appearance pretty stable at will now, depending on the change. She seems happy with whatever I choose, as long as I don't become a monster (he laughs.)
  307.  
  308. 76. Has your physical form ever changed? If so, was this intentional or unintentional? If it was intentional, then why did you change your form? How did you creator respond to this change, and how did that make you feel?
  309.  
  310. Unintentional changes, I hate. I hate them. I hate not having control over my body. Intentional changes, be it hers or mine, I can deal with. But when things change without her or me controlling it, it scares both of us.
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  312. 77. Do you consider the best aspects of yourself to have come from your creator, or their subconscious?
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  314. My best aspect is my paitence with her. That came from neither her nor I, but from time.
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  316. 78. Do you seek legal recognition for your status as a sentient being or your relationships with others? Do you resent that society at large does not recognize the tulpa phenomenon? Do you feel disenfranchised from society? What steps, if any, could a society make to help you feel integrated?
  317.  
  318. What?
  319.  
  320. 79. If you could tell the entire world one thing about a tulpa's life, what would you say?
  321.  
  322. You have more control of yourself than you think.
  323.  
  324. 80. What is the one thing that you resent most about being a tulpa? What is the greatest advantage of being a tulpa?
  325.  
  326. Resent: Not being able to phsyically protect/touch: Advantage: I'm closer to her than is possible for anyone else.
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  328. 81. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about inheriting your creator's life, including their legal history, past behaviors, and reputation? Do you resent potentially being held responsible for their past actions?
  329.  
  330. Pae's a good girl. Kinda.
  331.  
  332. 82. Morally and philosophically, do you see the "absorbing" or "dissipating" of a tulpa as equivalent to the murder of a non-tulpa? Explain your reasoning. What legal protections, if any, should tulpa gain? How would you enforce these protections?
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  334. I know what I am. Legal protection is for humans. It's not like we have an integrated community. It feels like death, therefore I assume its a murder.
  335.  
  336. 83. Do you consider yourself to be morally equal to a non-tulpa? Is your life worth as much?
  337.  
  338. Depends on the person, though I know its the same for hosts as well. Some people are worth more than others, isn't that so?
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  340. 84. How would you prove your existence to a skeptic?
  341.  
  342. I have no point to, but if it becomes nessecary, I'll think of something.
  343.  
  344. 85. Has your status as a tulpa ever caused you existential anxiety or depression? If so, has anything helped to mitigate these feelings?
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  346. I'm still here, that's enough mitigation for me.
  347.  
  348. 86. Do you ever doubt your own sentience? If so, why?
  349.  
  350. Nope. I'm not Pae; I know that I'm alive.
  351.  
  352. 87. How does being a tulpa affect your understanding of death? Do you fear death on an instinctual level in the way that non-tulpa do?
  353.  
  354. Yes, I am afraid of death. I'm afraid of what happens when I die, or when Pae dies.
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  356. 88. Do see yourself as socially disadvantaged in a way similar to sexual, racial, and other minority groups? If you identify yourself as racially, sexually, or demographically different than your creator, do you also identify with the struggle of any of the disadvantaged groups that you belong to? Does the notion of privilege affect your relationship with your creator?
  357.  
  358. If anything, I'm superior. Not to sound like a person who upstands his own citizen, but I do have advantages over you.
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  360. 89. Are you interested in creating another tulpa yourself? What differences, if any, would you expect this tulpa to have from a tulpa created by your creator? Would you consider this tulpa to be primarily related to you, or still to your creator?
  361.  
  362. Fede and I were just discussing this. If I make one, I don't want a complex one. Maybe a cat. Or a fox-squirrel.
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  364. 90. What are the most defining differences between the life of a non-tulpa and a tulpa? Do you think that these differences cause intolerance between the two groups? If so, what could be done to mitigate this intolerance?
  365.  
  366. This is not something that I'm interested in.
  367.  
  368. 91. The psychological establishment generally believes that multiplicity (two or more sentient entities sharing one atomic body) is a sign of mental illness. How would you like this belief to change? If you could make a presentation to a group of psychologists about the tulpa phenomenon, what would you say?
  369.  
  370. (He shrugs. He's not interested in this either.)
  371.  
  372. 92. A psychometric indicator is a unique identifier of an individual's distinct personality. Have you ever tried to definitively differentiate yourself from your creator using psychometric indicators (such as by determining your "writeprint")? What results did you receive? (For instructions on determining your writeprint, see appendix one.)
  373.  
  374. I know that I'm different already. But that Writeprint at the bottom said that I write like Vladamir Nabokov while Pae writes like J.K. Rowling.
  375.  
  376. 93. Are you capable of physical sensations such as pain or warmth?
  377.  
  378. Its not as strong for me as it is, but Pae's done well with sharing many sensations. Warmth is something I've grown fond of.
  379.  
  380. 94. How do you feel about being bound for life to your creator?
  381.  
  382. I wouldn't have it any other way. Unless I were real.
  383.  
  384. 95. If you intentionally delayed speaking to your creator, why did you do so?
  385.  
  386. She's an idiot. (He refuses to elaborate.)
  387.  
  388. 96. What do you think about most of the time?
  389.  
  390. (He doesn't answer but winks at me. I get the genral point of the joke, but he says he's not sure that I do.)
  391.  
  392. 97. Do you think that tulpa creation should be more widespread?
  393.  
  394. I think it would be a decent endeavour for the stable of minds.
  395.  
  396. 98. Are there disturbing aspects of your creator's subconscious that they are not aware of?
  397.  
  398. (He looks away and shrugs)
  399.  
  400. 99. Would you violate your creator's wishes for what you perceive to be their own benefit?
  401.  
  402. Yes. In a heartbeat.
  403.  
  404. 100. Does your creator try to hide things from you? If so, are you aware of them anyway? How does this impact your views of your creator?
  405.  
  406. She could try. But she knows it's pointless. I'm woven in here.
  407.  
  408. 101. Do you perceive some of your creator's actions as being objectively immoral?
  409.  
  410. There's one or two things I frown upon for her safety.
  411.  
  412. 102. Do you believe that you are capable of becoming more intelligent than your creator?
  413.  
  414. "Becoming" ? (prick.)
  415.  
  416. 103. How does being a tulpa affect your perception of your own aging process?
  417.  
  418. I don't think I'm going to age.
  419.  
  420. 104. Do you feel that your creator would be better off by following your commands entirely?
  421.  
  422. Probably. She's an idiot.
  423.  
  424. 105. Do you feel that having a physical form is important for a tulpa?
  425.  
  426. Depends on the host and hostee, I suppose. My physical form is useful.
  427.  
  428. 106. If you encountered the tulpa phenomenon as a non-tulpa, would you believe in it?
  429.  
  430. I don't know. I'm not a non-tulpa.
  431.  
  432. 107. How well can you articulate yourself? Can your creator hear you audibly? How much does your experience correlate with the experience of tulpa creator G|d30n, printed below?
  433.  
  434. "Yes. I'm able to hear her as though she's an external sound. For those who haven't experienced that with their tulpae yet, it's a little bit like listening to a binaural recording--not a binaural beat, but like a 3D sound recording you'd find on Youtube, such as the Virtual Barbershop. That is to say, it's an external sound that can come in from various directions, but the source sounds very close, like someone speaking directly into your ear. I sort of wonder if this effect will be diminished and normalized through imposition."
  435.  
  436. I have my moments, but I think that since we've communicated mostly through thought its the easiest way to communicate.
  437.  
  438. If you are imposed, is your creator able to discern a spatial dimension to your voice?
  439.  
  440. I'm not imposed.
  441.  
  442. 108. How many hours did it take you and your creator to complete the various recognized tulpa creation steps?
  443.  
  444. She stopped counting around 70, but I wasn't vocal yet. Probably around 120 hours.
  445.  
  446. 109. What advice would you give to a new tulpa creator?
  447.  
  448. You suck if you pay more attention to an IRC than your tulpa.
  449.  
  450. 110. How does being imposed feel? What sensory processes happen as you become imposed?
  451.  
  452. No idea.
  453.  
  454. 111. From your perspective, is there a sensory difference between the physical, atomic world and the mental world of visualized "wonderlands"? If so, how would you describe this difference?
  455.  
  456. I wouldn't know.
  457.  
  458. 112. Is there anything that you don't think this survey covered that you would like to mention?
  459.  
  460. Just that I didn't enjoy myself at all, this was a horribly boring endeavour which could have been time spent on other important things, such as promises that were made.
  461.  
  462. Appendix one:
  463.  
  464.         This exercise will help you determine the differences, if any, between your writeprint (mathematically analyzed writing style) and your creator's. Theoretically, two psychologically different individuals should exhibit different writeprints, although a tulpa and their creator may be more similar than two random non-tulpa individuals. To start the process, have both you and your creator rewrite the sample paragraph quoted below in your own words, communicating its meaning as you would have if you had written it.
  465.  
  466.         "My experience in the nature study area was full of surprises. First of all, many unexpected creatures crossed our path. For example, as soon as we left the parking area and entered the grassy path, a long snake slithered along the edge of the high grass and quickly disappeared. In addition, I was surprised by how colorful the grasses, which from a distance all appear to be green, actually are. Specifically, the primarily green landscape is dotted with countless purple tassels and brown stalks. Finally and most importantly, I was unprepared for how quickly I felt surrounded by nature. Despite the occasional noise from passing cars and airplanes, the high prairie grasses and rolling pathways create a sense that one is removed from civilization. Altogether, the nature study area unexpectedly allows one to enjoy an ever-changing natural environment without leaving Moraine‚Äôs suburban campus."
  467.  
  468. Tulpa's paragraph:
  469.  
  470. Unexpected creatures meant a study full of surprises. Out of long tall grass slithered scaled snakes. Said grass was an astounding color of green, the vibrance of which surprised me. More surprising was the fact that the grass wasn't only green, but a multitude of other colors comprising of many in the spectrum. Nature surrounded me quicke rthan I thoguht it would, and withholding the sounds of cars ans airplanes, there was no real sense of civilization. This grouping of nature was dounf on a campus, an unlikely but welcome stop for this adventurous study.
  471.  
  472. Creator's paragraph:
  473.  
  474. There were many surprises to experience during the nature study -- To start with, there were many creatures popping out left and right as soon as we started the walk. I admired the multicolored, stunning grass as a snake, a long one, passed between it.  It didn't take me long to feel disconnected from the world I had just came from -- even when I heard the roars of airplanes and passing cars. It was an unexpected perk to the campus enviroment.
  475.  
  476.         To ensure verifiable results, it is essential that the transcriptions of both paragraphs be completely accurate. Body possession is useful here, though not necessary. Since the tulpa creator's sentience is (presumably) not in question, it is suggested that tulpa write their paragraph first. As with all tests relating to tulpa, the creator should focus on something else while their tulpa is working. Once finished, submit both of your paragraphs individually to the following websites:
  477.  
  478. http://iwl.me/
  479. http://textalyser.net
  480.  
  481.         If your writeprint is different (indicating significant psychological difference), then you should receive different values for your respective paragraphs on both sites. On Textalyser, focus on the Gunning-Fog Index, lexical density, and average sentence length values in particular. A more detailed analysis may be sought by downloading the JStylo stylometric analysis program here: https://psal.cs.drexel.edu/index.php/Main_Page
  482.  
  483.         This test is certainly not exact, and it is very possible to (unconsciously or not) "cheat" to get good results.
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