Frida... We need to talk, I want you to hear me out please. I gave you some time... it was really hard for me but..

I want you to understand something. You are really special to me.
I want you to know how much you mean to me. Because I know I haven't really showed it the past month or so.
We have been a bit distant. And I know when you're feeling sad or upset... This really isn't the best for us.

And I'm a bit embarrassed to tell you. But everything I do... Like simply getting up out of bed, putting some creams on my face.. eating..
trying to look good.. all I ever do, supposedly for myself... is really just because of you. I wanna look good for you. Be good for you... But I failed lately.
I wasn't there for you. Sometimes, I would be about to send you some silly snaps of myself, being funny, being silly, just being myself. But I would shy away from it.
Think maybe you would think it's stupid, and then I would barely send you anything... and I think it's likely you have been through the same.
I wanna be myself with you again. I want you to be yourself with me again. I'm hoping that can happen but for now... I would never let you down.

I just wanted to say, I'm really sorry. I never thought I would lose you like this. I kind of took you for granted, and was just waiting to go see you.
I was hoping that would make it all better. And I am sure it still can. I really don't want to lose you.

Hear me out. Like, real love... like this. Doesn't happen often. Trust me. I believe we have something really special here. And I really wouldn't like to
see this relationship dissapear like if it was nothing...

I said this before, and I have to say it again. You only live once. I know it sounds a bit silly. But for reals.
We only have one life to do stuff, fun stuff, amazing stuff. And seeing each other again, in 2 weeks or so, is something that can never happen again.
Like, that one week I could be with you. Otherwise what else would happen? It would just become, at least for me, a simple shitty week. Where nothing really happens.

And if we have been together for all this time, which I think it is a pretty decent amount of time taking into account we've been through so much shit.
I really think we should see each other again. Why? Because we would never regret it. We would always think back and we would have good memories of it.

Think about that... We would never be like, shit!! I wish we never had seen each other again that week ahhh i had so much homework to do... nah.
We would always think back and be like damn I'm glad we had that week together. It was really lovely... Maybe it can happen again in the future... who knows...

And whatever happens after, I'm hoping we can still at least be good friends. I don't want to make you feel like you have to be with me...
Maybe you wanna have fun and go flirt around and stuff, I understand that! It's cool. But it doesn't mean we have to stop all communication!! haha

I will always love you.
Cristian.
xxx