lea: Do you want to forget what happend between us? I mean like not the good times (if there were good times maybe, where i made you happy or something)
anna: uhm yeah why not
anna: but you still hate me for who I am so :)
lea: i hated you for not telling me the truth. I knew who you are before and i loved you for who YOU are but i hated that YOU didnt tell me yourself
anna: I didn't tell ANYONE until a few months back, I couldn't and I hated myself for it, I was mostly sad bc I was NOT who I was, that's why I was always always depressive. I'm sorry I didn't tell you earlier. I just couldn't bc I didn't want to lose anyone bc currently, Im losing mostly everyone I care about //internet / irl.
anna: so it didn't really change anything by waiting but honestly, if people want to leave me for who I am, i could honestly care less now. bc I only want to be happy.
lea: i left you because you didnt told me who you are
anna: Ik, and as I said. I regret not telling you. I don't hate you or anything but you have all the rights to hate me. :)
lea: i dont hate you
lea: i tried to date many other people but never loved one the way i did love you
anna: I just couldn't and even a few months back when I told people I literally was having a mental breakdown bc of all the thoughts going on. it was hard for me, and I hate myself for not telling u.
anna: And yeah, I've noticed.
lea: Breaking up with your was the worst decision i did in my life and i legit regret it everyday. You were special and listended to me perfectly and it hurted me to "fight" against you via comments or twitter. I should had did you give 2 options either to tell me who you really are (because thats who i loved) or break up if you didnt told me.
anna: Honeslty, if you would of gave me those 2 options I would of ended up telling you.. I'm once again sorry. All the stuff I said to you were real and I'm sorry for having so so much drama after. Ik it seemed like I was looking for attention but whatever, but two things happened before and after, before... the 19th of november. day of my birthday at night, I had told my mom about what's been happening and like who I was and she lost her mind and just idk, lots of stuff happened that night and its like still fresh in my head how she said I was a disgrace and stuff, also that night I was about to tell you aswell but I just couldn't bc all these scenarios going through my head that u would leave me etc were killing me, ik I took the bad decision of not telling you and it's all my fault yes ik and Im sorry for that. 31st of march - that night I was actually gonna do it, I had stayed up all night and everything was planned out, even my note. but someone had uhm talked to me and basically stopped me from doing it, the reason why I was gonna do it is bc of who I am and bc I knew in the end I was gonna lose everyone I loved so what's the point right? but then I just uhm kind of vented everything out and that person made me feel like I was wanted again etc. I know I seemed like an attention whore and im sorry for that, im sorry for not telling u and im just sorry for everything even if 'sorry' is literally a easy word to use to get away with EVERYTHING. // Sorry if I made no sense. I just uhm typed what was on my mind, sorry.
lea: wait i finish the game then read.
anna: ok
lea: <3
lea: I don't really blame you because I mean i did knew all the time but just one thing
lea: i tell after the game tho
lea: its more like a question tho
anna: i was scared
anna: terrified
anna: and I apologize for everything, I really did not mean it.
anna: I hated lying
anna: and I hated myself for it