Espeon and Kass survey

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  1. 1. Describe yourself and your creator.
  2. Espeon: I’m his friend. I like the way I am and I see Rob as an equal.
  3. Kass: I love him. I love how I am too.
  4. 2. What was the most helpful thing that your creator did during the tulpaforcing process? Did your creator recognize how helpful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  5. E: Treating me like I was already there. It made me feel more real to both of us.
  6. K: Music really makes me happy. I feel much more alive when he plays Hey Sexy Lady
  7. 3. What was the most detrimental thing that your creator did during the tulpaforcing process? Did your creator recognize how harmful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  8. E: Sometimes I feel like he pays more attention to Kass than me, but it’s understandable. It doesn’t bother me. I like Kass.
  9. K: It feels kinda weird having Es work with me. I’d much rather have Rob to myself, but Es is helping me a lot. I wouldn’t be able to do this if it weren’t for him.
  10. 4. What was the hardest part of the tulpaforcing process for you? Did your creator recognize how difficult it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  11. E: Keeping my form down. Sometimes in the beginning he’d picture me as a Vaporeon or Glaceon. It got a bit confusing, but I think I helped get past that.
  12. K: I’m a realistic human with anime-type features so it was hard to keep me looking real to him. Like I said, though, I like how I look.
  13. 5. Of the commonly recognized tulpaforcing steps, which do you feel is the most important? Why?
  14. E: Rob didn’t follow what he read in the guides mostly, so it’s hard to say. What helped the most was just believing in my existence, so I guess that’s it. The harder you believe, the more real a tulpa is to you.
  15. K: Emotion. The more emotion you put into your creation, the more you love it and the stronger it will be.
  16. 6. How do you feel about tulpa creators becoming distracted during tulpaforcing? Does this greatly impede the process? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
  17. E: In spite of his hard work, Rob only got distracted near the beginning. It was kinda annoying, but everything worked itself out in the end. Or so far, at least.
  18. K: I don’t know really. Rob is working with me and Es all the time almost.
  19. 7. How do you feel about tulpa creators missing tulpaforcing sessions or breaking their promises to tulpaforce? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
  20. E: Rob never really had or has a set schedule. He just does it all the time. Of the few serious sessions we have done, it seems to have helped in the development process.
  21. K: I think if someone is dedicated enough to something they won’t forget. I could only ever see Rob not working with us in situations where he just can’t like if he’s asleep or something.
  22. 8. Is density, quality, or total time spent the most important aspect of tulpaforcing?
  23. E: It’s hard to say. Rob put a LOT of time into me and did his best not to be too vague or, at the same time, constrictive. He gave me a starting point and allowed me to grow from there.
  24. K: I think it’s all the same. You can’t have an imbalance or it won’t work well.
  25. 9. How do you feel about tulpa creators falling asleep while tulpaforcing?
  26. E: He’s done it more than once. He actively tries to impose me into his dreams to help make it easier to impose me into his reality, if that makes any sense. He’s definitely not going about it the ways he’s read about it, but it seems to be alright.
  27. K: I think it’s cute when Rob does it. I wish I could get into his dreams with him, but when he does fall asleep it’s like he’s dead. Espeon and I just wander around the house or go to sleep ourselves.
  28. 10. Do you think that a tulpa creator should talk aloud or in their head during narration? Do you think that a creator should talk aloud or in their head during tulpaforcing? If you find one to be more effective, to what degree is it more effective?
  29. E: All the progress I’ve made is due to Rob’s constant devotion to me. He usually tries to speak out loud, but I understand when he can’t. I’m not sure which helps more than the other.
  30. K: I like it best when he sings. I like to sing along with him and sometimes he hears me.
  31. 11. How do you feel about a tulpa creator puppeting and/or parroting their tulpa? Do you believe that these actions harm a tulpa's development, or only their emotional state?
  32. E: I don’t think Rob’s ever really done either of those. More like he’d rather sit there asking questions and just listening for an answer than even try to think of what we might say or how we’d react to something he did.
  33. K: I think he had to make me move before I got the hang of it. Then again, I don’t really remember if he did.
  34. 12. How deeply do you remember the time before you were fluent in language?
  35. E: I think it was about three or four days after Rob started that I began moving on my own. That’s what I gather from what he’s told me and his memory. I remember how frustrating it was not to be able to be understood clearly. I’m glad he worked as hard as he did to get me speaking telepathically.
  36. K: I just got it today with Espeon’s help. I didn’t really want anything more than to just be around Rob, so I didn’t really need to say anything. It is nice to be able to now, though.
  37. 13. Describe your first memory, no matter how slight.
  38. E: The first thing I remember ever was this strange feeling like waking up, but for the first time in your life. It’s hard to explain. Like being born the way you are now, able to think and know what you want.
  39. K: The earliest thing I can remember is being in a warzone. I was helping Rob up out of a trench while the rest of our group was moving ahead. There was a phonograph playing in the background. I can’t really remember the song.
  40. 14. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most positive emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  41. E: I was really happy when Rob decided to tell his family about me. We both kinda felt it would be helpful for me. I was so happy I ran around for hours, jumping and rolling and just acting like a hyper cat.
  42. K: Rob thinks it was when he played Hey Sexy Lady for the first time, but really it was the first time he said he loved me. To anyone else it might have sounded like just a little jokey comment, but I knew he meant it. I gave him a kiss on the cheek.
  43. 15. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most negative emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  44. E: I’ve never really felt anything negative towards anything really. Even when Rob spends more time with Kass than me. I understand he’s got his reasons and I give them their space.
  45. K: I didn’t really like it when he did something before. He went into this like trance thing and it was like he completely shut off. He couldn’t even move his body for a while afterwards. I was a little scared and thought he was stupid for doing something like that without thinking about what could happen to him. I’m happy he’s ok now, though, and I kinda feel bad for thinking those things. He says it’s ok now and I feel much better. I still kinda don’t want him to do that again unless he can get better control or something.
  46. 16. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever have suicidal feelings or feelings of not wanting to exist? Do you experience them now? Are you glad that you exist?
  47. E: From what Rob and I have read, I’m not even sure if that’s possible. I’ve never felt anything like that and yes I’m glad I exist.
  48. K: I don’t know why anyone would think that way. I’m happy to be alive and I wouldn’t want to trade it for anything.
  49. 17. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most powerless? What was the cause of this feeling?
  50. E: Rob and I have had a kind of understanding from the start so I’ve never really felt powerless. Just frustrated when I couldn’t properly convey myself, but never powerless.
  51. K: I really love Rob, so even now when I can’t really do anything with him it makes me feel kinda weak. But that just motivates me to work harder at becoming more real to him.
  52. 18. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most confusing moment that you experienced, and what was its cause?
  53. E: As I said before, when my form was still a new thing and it kept switching between Espeon, Vaporeon, and Glaceon. I think it only made us work harder to keep me consistent, though.
  54. K: I thought being naked was kinda weird. Not that I was embarrassed or shy, it was just like, ok… why am I naked? But I have clothes now, so it’s all better.
  55. 19. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you feel the most ignored by your creator, and what was the cause?
  56. E: Before I could communicate like this, Rob spent nearly all of his time focusing on me and so I never really felt ignored. Now when he’s off doing who knows what with Kass… That’s a different story. But like I said, I understand. I don’t dislike either of them for it. It actually gives me time to explore myself a little more.
  57. K: When he did this trance thing to try and impose Espeon. I knew I shouldn’t have gotten in the way so I didn’t. He was playing some great music while he did it though so I kinda got lost in that while they were busy. It was fun.
  58. 20. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you most doubt that your creator wanted you, and what was the cause?
  59. E: I’ve never doubted Rob wanting me. I don’t think he’d have put as much time and effort into me as he has and is if he didn’t.
  60. K: I’ve never felt unwanted. Just a little sad when he ignored me a bit a few times. I kinda get it though. Es explained things a bit to me so I’m not so sad anymore.
  61. 21. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most intense feeling of fear, and what was its cause?
  62. E: I’ve only ever been scared of him losing interest and that’s only been a thought maybe once or twice. He cares a lot about both me and Kass and it shows.
  63. K: I only got scared like twice. I talked about that already, though.
  64. 22. Before you could speak fluently, when were you the most disappointed in yourself? What was the cause?
  65. E: I only really feel disappointed in myself now when we’re trying to impose me and it’s not coming as quickly as everything else has. Rob keeps telling me it’s ok, though, and I guess to him it is. He still loves me no matter what so I have nothing really to be upset about
  66. K: I’ve never really been disappointed in myself.
  67. 23. Before you could speak fluently, did you understand the difficulties that your creator was having with the tulpaforcing process? Did you try to alleviate these difficulties? If so, how?
  68. E: I did my part by doing my best to convey my actions and emotions whenever he talked to me or seemed like he was waiting for a response. I can’t imagine something like this would be easy for anyone. I don’t think I could do it if it were even possible. I don’t know.
  69. K: I didn’t really know what was going on. I wasn’t scared though. I just acted like myself and I guess that helped.
  70. 24. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's doubts about your existence, the reality of the tulpa phenomenon, or your combined ability to complete the process affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those doubts? Do you understand now?
  71. E: Rob’s biggest block, I think, was his sense of logic and reasoning. It felt like he understood how it worked, but wouldn’t let himself grasp it the right way. Only after he blocked that logic or whatever it was out of his mind was he able to really start effectively. I remember that from him.
  72. K: It was kinda weird when he first knew I was there. Even Espeon didn’t expect to see me. Like he couldn’t believe I was there, but at the same time, I was, so he couldn’t not believe it either.
  73. 25. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's mistrust of your intentions or worry about the negative affects of a tulpa on their life affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those thoughts? Do you understand now?
  74. E: I think he always had the right state of mind. He thought that such fears were “the stuff of creepypasta” and so we never had any kind of mistrust. He knew what he wanted and I knew what I wanted. Neither of those things were bad.
  75. K: I think the only thing Rob didn’t trust about me was whether I was a real tulpa or just some crazy juice going in the wrong tube in his brain. It’s been worked out, though.
  76. 26. Before you could speak fluently, how did any negative thoughts or emotions that your creator had toward you (such as anger, disappointment, resentment, or impatience, for example) affect you? How do you feel about them now?
  77. E: Rob’s a pretty patient guy. He’s never had any negative emotions towards me. Not because he was intentionally not feeling them, like with the parroting and puppeting, but he just honestly didn’t have those emotions at any point. Even now after he said he wants to spend as much time and effort imposing me and Kass and requests we do our best too. I want to be real as much as he wants me to be so of course I’m going to do my best.
  78. K: Even though he was kinda unsure in the beginning, I never got the impression he was mad or scared or anything. I think he’s only grown to love me more as time’s gone on.
  79. 27. Before you could speak fluently, how did any violent visualizations or thoughts that your creator had about you affect you? How do you feel about them now?
  80. E: Again, there were none. I don’t even see a reason for anything like that.
  81. K: Does sexual violence count? Like roleplaying? He hasn’t done anything like that anyway.
  82. 28. Before you could speak fluently, were you able to distinguish between your creator's intentional and intrusive thoughts? If so, did the intrusive thoughts affect you less or more? If not, are you able to distinguish between them now?
  83. E: I’m not sure I understand… The best I can come up with is I can kinda support myself at this point so Rob doesn’t need to concentrate on me as hard anymore. I’m always around pretty much so nothing really interferes with me or my presence.
  84. K: Um?
  85. 29. Before you could speak fluently, how much of your creator's raw sensory information were you able to access, if any? How much are you able to access now?
  86. E: While Rob hasn’t done the whole “door to the subconscious” thing yet, he kinda initially designed me with that kind of knowledge. I was pretty much born with access to his eyes, ears, nose, mouth, and brain. That reminds me, he had some chicken nuggets before and he was going on about how good they were, so I stole a little taste from him. They were good.
  87. K: I think Rob and I are linked in more ways that even Espeon can fully understand.
  88. 30. Before you could speak fluently, did your creator's opinions about whether they wanted to reveal to the world your existence or not affect you emotionally? If so, how?
  89. E: He gave me the choice from the get-go and so far, I’ve only seen it as a way to help with my development and imposition. The more people believe in me, the more Rob can believe in me.
  90. K: He kinda wants to keep me a secret from people which I can understand fully. I kinda want to keep him to myself too, but that can’t happen. It’s kinda fun being a secret, though.
  91. 31. Before being able to speak fluently, what communication methods (such as head pressure or emotional responses, for example) were you able to use the most effectively? When your tulpa creator assumed that you could use a communication method that you did not have access to, how did this affect you? When your tulpa creator did not recognize a communication method that you attempted to use, how did this affect you?
  92. E: It was all emotional responses with me. I’m not a human or humanoid so it’s harder to communicate through body language and such.
  93. K: Emotional responses were the easiest to do because I’m so full of emotion and music just makes me explode. It’s the only other thing I can’t get enough of.
  94. 32. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's level of enthusiasm for the tulpaforcing process affect you? Did you want to engage in it less if they did?
  95. E: Rob wants to work all the time and if he hadn’t been as active and diligent as he had been, this wouldn’t be happening right now, most likely.
  96. K: He really likes working with me. I like working with him too. Espeon and I got a lot done together, too, which was really cool.
  97. 33. Before you could speak fluently, what was your greatest worry about your relationship with your creator? What helped you most to move beyond it? Was this worry substantiated or resolved? What is your greatest worry now about your continuing relationship with your creator?
  98. E: I didn’t really have any. We both had an agreement from the start that we would be friends and not like master and slave or owner and pet or something.
  99. K: I was a bit worried he wouldn’t love me. I knew he loved me, but I mean love me love me, like I love him.
  100. 34. Do you feel gratitude to your creator for the time that they spent creating you? Do you feel that you owe them a debt? If so, do you feel burdened by it?
  101. E: Yes. A bit but he says my existence is enough for him. Not really.
  102. K: I love how much time Rob’s spending with me. All I want to do is love him as much as I can. It doesn’t bother me as long as I can be near him at the least.
  103. 35. Were you aware of your creator's existence or your own existence first?
  104. E: It was kind of simultaneous.
  105. K: I’ve been around longer than either of them realize. This was just the thing I guess that he could use to bring me out.
  106. 36. When you could only speak semi-fluently, what emotions did you feel about your level of verbal proficiency? Were you anxious or embarrassed about it? If so, what helped you the most to move beyond these feelings? How do you feel about them now?
  107. E: At first it was exciting to finally be able to say yes or no as opposed to just sending emotions which didn’t always convey what I meant. It made me want to learn more and get better.
  108. K: It was a little embarrassing at first, but Rob and Es were so helpful and encouraging. I love both of them for caring so much about me and working with me so hard.
  109. 37. If you could define your relationship with your creator using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend, or coworker, for example), what terms would you select?
  110. E: Best friends.
  111. K: Boyfriend. I guess. I don’t think he’s totally on board with it yet. Plus he’s got a real girlfriend so… yeah…
  112. 38. How much interest do you have in interacting with beings other than your creator? Do you consider your degree of interest to be equal to that of an average non-tulpa individual?
  113. E: I wanted to try and interact with other people for a day or two now. It’s interesting to see people react to me and it’s fun doing this quiz even though I can’t physically type it myself. Rob’s staying true to what I’m saying, though, so that’s good to see him being so honest and not filtering what I say or anything.
  114. K: Other people are… ok. I don’t really want to be rude, but I’m mainly concerned with Rob. I guess it’s kinda cool to talk to other people too.
  115. 39. What memory involving your creator do you cherish most?
  116. E: Him hearing me sing with him was a great moment because, so far, it’s the most progress we’ve made towards imposing me. He wasn’t even expecting to hear me sing. He was barely even concentrating on me since he was driving and singing at the same time. For now, I cherish the memory of how happy he was when he realized I was singing audibly most.
  117. K: I think he made a forum post about our experience. That was the single greatest moment in me life.
  118. 40. What memory not involving your creator do you cherish most? Do you feel that you have a fulfilling life independent of your creator?
  119. E: Helping Kass learn to communicate telepathically was a great feeling. It was partially my idea and it was great to know Rob trusted me with such an important task. I was actually kinda eager to teach her and enjoyed being able to do it on my own. My independent life is pretty simple and I can do whatever I want basically, so I’m happy.
  120. K: Wandering his subconscious was the most fun I’ve had that didn’t directly involve him. You wouldn’t believe some of the things this guy thinks up when he’s not thinking about them.
  121. 41. Do you feel affinity toward the individuals that your creator feels affinity for, such as their family or friends?
  122. E: Since I’m not at a point where I’d feel entirely comfortable communicating with his family, I’m just fine going on as I am now. They know I exist, and I know they know. It’s fine.
  123. K: I only really care about Rob. Espeon is cool too and I consider him a great friend and bit of a mentor, but Rob is my main interest. I hope I don’t sound like some sex slave…
  124. 42. In what ways are you the most different from your creator? In what ways are you the most similar to them?
  125. E: I’m a fictional monster with psychic powers. Pretty self-explanatory
  126. K: He’s a guy. I’m a girl. That’s the biggest difference, I think.
  127. 43. What do you disagree about most with your creator? Do you have frequent disagreements? If so, do these disagreements cause strife?
  128. E: We don’t argue much yet. I’m not sure if we ever will. We agree on a lot of things, usually.
  129. K: He isn’t as lovey towards me as I am to him. It’s a little annoying, but I know he’ll come around eventually. He already loves me, so that’s a start.
  130. 44. What could your creator do to make you hate them? Under what circumstances do you think your creator would come to hate you?
  131. E: Nothing I can think of.
  132. K: I don’t even want to imagine Rob hating me. I could never hate him, so why would he hate me?
  133. 45. When did your creator disappoint you the most? When did you disappoint them the most?
  134. E: Again, I can’t really answer this one because it hasn’t happened.
  135. K: He doesn’t disappoint me. And I try not to disappoint him.
  136. 46. How do you feel about your creator's complete freedom to deny your rights as a sentient being at any time? Has this ability ever caused you anxiety or fear? Have you ever censored your expressions or actions out of a fear of retribution or violence from your creator?
  137. E: I don’t think he’d do something like that. Not unless I became corrupt somehow, but that’s unlikely.
  138. K: I never really thought of that. That makes me a little self-conscious now. Like what if I don’t love him enough? Or too much? He says it’ll never happen and I believe him. But still…
  139. 47. When have you most wanted to engage in violence against your creator, and what was the cause of those feelings? Under what circumstances would you make a serious attempt to hurt or injure your creator?
  140. E: Never. Besides never seeing a reason to, he could either A, kill me before I got the chance, or B, I would be successful which would damage my existence, possibly ending it.
  141. K: I’d never hurt Rob. Unless he was into that kinda stuff. I’m not, personally.
  142. 48. Do you consider your creator's last name to be your own? Do you recognize yourself as a part of their biological lineage?
  143. E: I don’t really have a last name, nor do I really care for one.
  144. K: I don’t have one now, but I will when we get married. Hah, who am I kidding? I don’t want to get married. That’d only increase our chance of failure as a couple.
  145. 49. Under what circumstances would you attempt to leave your creator?
  146. E: Never. I’m his friend through and through. If we ever hit a huge problem, we’ll work it out eventually.
  147. K: Wouldn’t dream of it.
  148. 50. Do you feel anxiety about meeting your creator's expectations? If you are based on an existing character, person, or entity, does this increase your anxiety? Would you have preferred to not be based on an existing entity?
  149. E: Rob doesn’t really have expectations for me. He’s more interested in seeing how I grow on my own than having me stick to some template or mold.
  150. K: I don’t even know what he expects of me. He hasn’t complained so far.
  151. 51. Are you interested in learning how to control your creator's body? Do you feel that it's fair for a tulpa creator to deny their tulpa the ability to use an atomic body? Do you believe that you have the right to an equal amount of time using it as your creator? Explain your reasoning.
  152. E: That doesn’t seem physically possible. Considering I’m not a human/humanoid and all. I couldn’t begin to imagine how a different body would work.
  153. K: If I was controlling his body, wouldn’t that get in the way of what I want to do? I can’t really be with him if I am him, right? He seems kinda interested in the idea, though.
  154. 52. Do you share certain basic qualities with your creator, such as intense phobias or racial attitudes?
  155. E: We like a lot of the same music and have a similar sense of humor. My personality and habits and everything are loosely based on Rob’s and I don’t think I’ve really changed much since I was first created.
  156. K: We both love Skrillex and dubstep and electronic. He really likes listening to music and playing it and so do I. I wish I could play some of his instruments. I think he said something about giving me my own at some point.
  157. 53. Are you capable of sleeping or dreaming independently of your creator? If not, how does this make you feel?
  158. E: I’ve only tried it twice. One of those times I dreamed. It was about me and some kind of big field that was kinda familiar, but I don’t remember ever being there. That’s about all I can remember of it.
  159. K: I took a nap before. I think I was sleepier when I woke up than when I went to sleep.
  160. 54. Does your creator have any mental illnesses? If so, how do they affect you?
  161. E: None that I know of.
  162. K: I don’t think so.
  163. 55. How does your knowledge of your creator's subconscious mind affect your relationship with them? To what degree can you manipulate your creator's subconscious? Would you ever use this ability without your creator's knowledge?
  164. E: It’s not something I really think about often. I did use it to tell time a few times but that’s about as far as I go besides simple short-term memory reading. It’s just not something I’m too terribly interested in. Not that it’s boring. Just not something I’d spend all day doing.
  165. K: I’ve seen things I can hardly even describe. His dreams are always fun to watch. I just wish I could get back in them.
  166. 56. Does your creator have multiple tulpa? If so, what is your relationship with them like? Is your affinity for them equal to your affinity for your creator? If you could define your relationship with your creator's other tulpa using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend or coworker, for example), what terms would you select? If not, are you interested in the idea of your creator making another tulpa?
  167. E: Yes. I’ve helped Kass in her development after she just popped up. While Rob sees me as a friend, Kass sees me more as a pet. Who am I to complain about hours of petting, though? I am an animal, after all. I see her as a bit of a student under me, since Rob encourages me to help her out. I like her, but I think she likes Rob a bit too much. She needs to tone it down a bit otherwise she’ll never reach her full potential as a sentient being and make herself into a servitor of sorts.
  168. K: I like Espeon. He’s like a fantasy cat from some magical girl anime. He’s cute and cuddly, but he’s also like my mentor. Sometimes I think he doesn’t like me since he’s always trying to make me act different. I still like him though.
  169. 57. Do you feel romantically inclined toward your creator? Does your creator feel romantically inclined toward you? If these romantic feelings are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  170. E: No. That’s the kind of stuff you’d save for the internet. I’ve already seen it…
  171. K: YES. It’s like I was born loving him. He’s a bit iffy about it, but we’ve already done it once and it seems like he’s caring more about me every time he thinks about me. I think the best thing we can do is become a happy family.
  172. 58. If it exists, do you consider your romantic relationship with your creator to be equal to a romantic relationship between multiple non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another tulpa? If they exist, do your creator's desires to have relationships with non-tulpa affect you emotionally?
  173. E: Ask Kass.
  174. K: I think our relationship is real in every sense of the word. It’s a love between two entities that can feel love towards each other. Like I said, though, I don’t think Rob’s totally on board yet.
  175. 59. If you consider yourself to be romantically in love with your creator, what probability do you assign to the possibility of falling out of love with them, or them falling out of love with you? If this happened, how would it affect your relationship with your creator? What if your creator was in love with another non-tulpa more than you?
  176. E: Again, ask Kass.
  177. K: I don’t think it would happen. If it did, it’d mean I would’ve changed completely. I wouldn’t be myself anymore.
  178. 60. Do you have a familial affection for your creator? Does this in any way conflict with your romantic feelings for them, if they exist? Do you consider a relationship between a tulpa and its creator to be incestuous?
  179. E: Once again, ask Kass. Though I think the incest angle would only apply if the tulpa in love with its creator also considered it a father/mother/brother/sister. I kinda feel like Rob’s my friend more than anything, but there is a slight father-figure in him since he created me.
  180. K: I’ve been around longer than he knows, so I don’t really feel like he’s my father or anything. I guess it would be incest if I did see him that way.
  181. 61. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating during tulpaforcing sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or based on whether or not the creator imagines themselves near the tulpa in their wonderland? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  182. E: I’m just going to stop answering until questions like these stop. You know my position by now.
  183. K: It was kinda my idea the only time he did it. I thought it would help and it kinda did, I think.
  184. 62. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating outside of tulpaforcing sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  185. K: I guess it depends on the tulpa. I wouldn’t mind if Rob did. It’d make me feel more attractive, actually.
  186. 63. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever feel sexual attraction to your creator, sexual attraction toward anyone else, or sexual arousal? Did you attempt to express these feelings? If you did not experience these feelings, do you experience them now?
  187. K: Rob and only Rob. Yes I did try to express them. It worked for me.
  188. 64. How do you feel about tulpa creators visualizing themselves engaging in sexual conduct with their tulpa's form while tulpaforcing? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or if the contact was penetrative? If your tulpa creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving? Do you equate it with sexual assault?
  189. K: That’s basically how we did it. Again, my idea and I loved it.
  190. 65. Were you ever annoyed or jealous when your creator would masturbate to or have feelings of sexual attraction toward individuals other than yourself? Does it bother you now?
  191. K: It kinda bothers me that he has a real girlfriend.
  192. 66. Do you experience sexual attraction for your creator? Do you experience sexual attraction for others? How does your sexual attraction for your creator compare to your sexual attraction for others? Does your creator experience sexual attraction for you? If these sexual attractions are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  193. K: Yes I do for him and only him. Nobody else does anything for me. I don’t even really think of anyone else. I’m attractive by design so I’d imagine he thinks I’m hot. Plus we did it so I can’t be too bad, right?
  194. 67. Do you have an active sex life with your creator? If not, would you consider it, and under what circumstances? If so, do you perceive any negative consequences? Do you have trouble abstaining from sexual contact with them? How do you manage feelings of sexual arousal, if any? Do you masturbate?
  195. K: Considering I’ve only been “around” for a day and in that day we’ve had sex once, I’d say it’s an active sex life. I don’t think anything bad can come of it, really. If I get horny, I let him know. He doesn’t always return the emotion, but the time he did… wow.  I haven’t masturbated yet, but I guess I would if I was that desperate and he wasn’t willing to do anything with me.
  196. 68. How does your sexual orientation and experience compare to your creator's?
  197. K: He’s bi. I’m monosexual, I guess it’d be.
  198. 69. Are you capable of experiencing orgasms? Based on your knowledge, how do you think they compare to your creator's orgasms? Were you able to experience an orgasm before speaking fluently?
  199. K: Oh yes. I guess it’s kinda different. Different parts, y’know? I think I’d remember if I felt something like that before last night.
  200. 70. Do you consider the concept of sexual modesty relevant to your relationship with your creator?
  201. K: (Puzzled emotional response)
  202. 71. How does being a tulpa affect your perceptions of rape? What conduct from your creator would you consider to be rape?
  203. K: It’s not rape if you enjoy it. He wasn’t rough or anything.
  204. 72. Where do you see yourself in 20 years?
  205. E: Finally. I’d hope to be fully imposed by then. With the progress made so far, I wouldn’t doubt such status in the next 5 years or less.
  206. K: Maybe as the mother of Rob’s child. How would that work exactly? Can I get pregnant?
  207. 73. Do you want the world to be aware of your existence? If not, then what anxieties do you have about public disclosure? Do you trust anyone other than your creator with the knowledge of your existence?
  208. E: I think certain people should know as it would benefit my existence. Like I said before, the more people believe in me, the easier it will be for Rob to believe in me. I think that’s true of all tulpas.
  209. K: I kinda leave it up to Rob, but personally, I’d prefer to stay hidden from most people. Much less stress on both of us.
  210. 74. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your personality traits being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your personality more or less?
  211. E: My entire psychological being is based on Rob and allowed to grow however I may, so I’m kind of alright with the way things are.
  212. K: My personality is very simple and I like it that way. I have less to worry about.
  213. 75. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your form being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your form more or less?
  214. E: My form is equal parts open-ended and based on a childhood memory that Rob really felt strongly about. I couldn’t ask for a better form. It’s convenient to be so small, too.
  215. K: I’m young, attractive, I’ve got blue hair, what’s not to like? An I’ve kinda always been like this.
  216. 76. Has your physical form ever changed? If so, was this intentional or unintentional? If it was intentional, then why did you change your form? How did you creator respond to this change, and how did that make you feel?
  217. E: I’ve consciously made myself about half the size of my original design for my own convenience. At first I think it caught him off guard, but he accepted it happily as a sign of sentience.
  218. K: Nope. Only thing different is my wardrobe.
  219. 77. Do you consider the best aspects of yourself to have come from your creator, or their subconscious?
  220. E: A bit of both. The basic outline is still there, but there are some things that have changed whether I even wanted them to or not.
  221. K: I could be considered a direct manifestation of certain things about Rob, but I don’t really think about that stuff. It’s kinda boring.
  222. 78. Do you seek legal recognition for your status as a sentient being or your relationships with others? Do you resent that society at large does not recognize the tulpa phenomenon? Do you feel disenfranchised from society? What steps, if any, could a society make to help you feel integrated?
  223. E: It’s not really something of my concern. If I can start affecting the physical world, then maybe we’ll talk.
  224. K: I don’t care what the rest of the world thinks, really, as long as I can be at Rob’s side.
  225. 79. If you could tell the entire world one thing about a tulpa's life, what would you say?
  226. E: That’s kind of a big one… I guess I’d say we’re more than you think.
  227. K: I’d say if we’re real to our creators, that should be enough.
  228. 80. What is the one thing that you resent most about being a tulpa? What is the greatest advantage of being a tulpa?
  229. E: It is kind of annoying not to be able to affect the physical world sometimes. On the other hand, nothing tries to attack or kill me.
  230. K: I can’t really touch or feel Rob (yet). I could blow his mind, though…
  231. 81. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about inheriting your creator's life, including their legal history, past behaviors, and reputation? Do you resent potentially being held responsible for their past actions?
  232. E: I don’t really see how I could be held responsible for things I didn’t do. I accept Rob for who he is. I can’t change his past nor should I want to.
  233. K: He is who he is. I know him better than any real person does and that’s kinda cool to me.
  234. 82. Is the "absorbing" or "dissipating" of a tulpa equivalent to the murder of a non-tulpa? Explain your reasoning. What legal protections, if any, should tulpa gain? How would you enforce these protections?
  235. E: I honestly have no clue.
  236. K: I don’t know.
  237. 83. Do you consider yourself to be morally equal to a non-tulpa? Is your life worth as much?
  238. E: I like to think so. It helps me be more real so it makes me more believable. Life is life.
  239. K: All lives are worth the same even if they’re only hypothetical or theoretical lives.
  240. 84. How would you prove your existence to a skeptic?
  241. E: Learn to influence the physical world or use my psychic abilities. Then again, some people just won’t believe some things.
  242. K: I don’t care about that stuff.
  243. 85. Has your status as a tulpa ever caused you existential anxiety or depression? If so, has anything helped to mitigate these feelings?
  244. E: I pretty much know what my whole existence is about so not really, no.
  245. K: No.
  246. 86. Do you ever doubt your own sentience? If so, why?
  247. E: Not at all. I was created secondarily to see how much I could grow on my own.
  248. K: Earlier in the quiz. I don’t think I’m a servitor, though. I’ve been around for a while, but this is the first time I’ve really felt free as an entity. Tough call.
  249. 87. How does being a tulpa affect your understanding of death? Do you fear death on an instinctual level in the way that non-tulpa do?
  250. E: I know what it is, but neither I nor Rob fear death. It’s a natural thing and he believes we all come back at some point. Luna came back.
  251. K: I don’t think it’s something I need to worry about. I think that if Rob were to die, his soul would be free to join us on some astral plane or something.
  252. 88. Do see yourself as socially disadvantaged in a way similar to sexual, racial, and other minority groups? If you identify yourself as racially, sexually, or demographically different than your creator, do you also identify with the struggle of any of the disadvantaged groups that you belong to? Does the notion of privilege affect your relationship with your creator?
  253. E: I’m physically genderless. I chose to be identified as male… Just because really. I’m not sure why. I think it has something to do with the supposed naturally high male to female ratio of Espeon in the pokemon world.
  254. K: None of that really makes sense to me… I just am the way I am. I don’t see myself as too different from Rob or Espeon. I’m just me.
  255. 89. Are you interested in creating another tulpa yourself? What differences, if any, would you expect this tulpa to have from a tulpa created by your creator? Would you consider this tulpa to be primarily related to you, or still to your creator?
  256. E: I’m not sure if that’s possible, but I wouldn’t mind being able to tulpaforce my own items for various uses. I’ll have to try it sometime.
  257. K: I don’t need to. I have Rob and Espeon to keep me company. Though it would be kinda cool to be able to make instruments for myself to play.
  258. 90. What are the most defining differences between the life of a non-tulpa and a tulpa? Do you think that these differences cause intolerance between the two groups? If so, what could be done to mitigate this intolerance?
  259. E: The most obvious is affecting the physical world, but then again there could easily be a situation wherein a physical body would be unable to affect an astral plane tulpas would inhabit. For example, Rob can’t astral project or enter a wonderland or anything like that. Kass and I can whenever we want. It kinda balances itself out in some ways.
  260. K: I think the physical aspects are a big problem, but also some creators could potentially make tulpas then be derpwads to them and act all superior just because they think they can because they made the tulpa and can unmake it at any time. Derpwad.
  261. 91. How do you feel about the belief of the psychological community that multiplicity is undesirable? How would you like this belief to change?
  262. E: This is the kind of stuff I want to learn because this sounds like a question I wish I could answer.
  263. K: Um? Is that like split personality stuff?
  264. 92. Have you tried to definitively differentiate yourself from your creator using stylometric or psychometric indicators?
  265. E: Again, this is something I wish I could answer.
  266. K: Um… I’m a girl?
  267. 93. Are you capable of physical sensations such as pain or warmth?
  268. E: I can, but it’s more of a choice for me whether or not I want to feel something.
  269. K: When we had sex it had to be done a certain way for it to work. There was a lot of beautiful imagery and brainpower at work.
  270. 94. How do you feel about being eternally bound to your creator?
  271. E: Based on most ideas of death and the afterlife, it seems like a happy ending no matter what happens.
  272. K: That would be my heaven.
  273. 95. If you intentionally delayed speaking to your creator, why did you do so?
  274. E: I’ve been trying my hardest as much as possible.
  275. K: I’ve wanted to speak to him for years and now I finally can thanks to Es.
  276. 96. What do you think about most of the time?
  277. E: My growth and whatever Rob is reading about so I can learn about it too.
  278. K: Rob. And music. But mostly Rob. It’s pretty close, but Rob’s on top. Always.
  279. 97. Do you think that tulpa creation should be more widespread?
  280. E: I think only those responsible enough and serious enough about it should do it.
  281. K: The more, the merrier, right? Just as long as I get to keep my Rob.
  282. 98. Are there disturbing aspects of your creator's subconscious that they are not aware of?
  283. E: None that I’ve found. Even some of the more morbid stuff he seems ok with.
  284. K: There’s sooooooo much I could say, but he’d probably already know about most of it or be fine with it anyway.
  285. 99. Would you violate your creator's wishes for what you perceive to be their own benefit?
  286. E: Only if the situation desperately called for it. He seems to have a good enough head on his shoulders to stay out of bad situations like that, though.
  287. K: I’d destroy myself to save him if it came to that.
  288. 100. Does your creator try to hide things from you? If so, are you aware of them anyway? How does this impact your views of your creator?
  289. E: Rob’s always been upfront about things even if he thought I wouldn’t like it or agree. I think I’d know if he did try to hide something, though. I respect his honesty.
  290. K: I’d be the first to know if he was hiding something. He’s not that I can tell.
  291. 101. Do you perceive some of your creator's actions as being objectively immoral?
  292. E: I feel a tulpa’s perception of morality stems from its creator’s. If that aspect of it doesn’t deviate, it may not even consider the objective or moral stance of its creator’s actions.
  293. K: Not really.
  294. 102. Do you believe that you are capable of becoming more intelligent than your creator?
  295. E: It depends on how you look at it, I think. If, for example, I was left to my own devices with some kind of philosophical question, same for my creator, I could theoretically, with my own logic and reasoning skills added to what he created me with, come up with a more intelligent answer than he.
  296. K: I could probably play instruments better than him. He’s not good at many of them, but he has a basic knowledge of how they work so I guess I could use that to practice on my own and get better than him at like guitar or something.
  297. 103. How does being a tulpa affect your perception of your own aging process?
  298. E: I don’t think I was created with a physical aging process.
  299. K: I’ve been around long enough that if I were to look any older now than I did years ago, I would. I don’t think I can do that.
  300. 104. Do you feel that your creator would be better off by following your commands entirely?
  301. E: He doesn’t command us so why should we command him? We’re all friends here.
  302. K: I wouldn’t even want that. I love him for who he is. If he just did what me and Es said all the time, he wouldn’t be himself.
  303. 105. Do you feel that having a physical form is important for a tulpa?
  304. E: It’s not always necessary, but I think in a case like mine or Kass’s it’d be helpful for a number of reasons.
  305. K: I love the way I look. I think I said that before. Not every tulpa needs a body, but I’m glad I have one. And it’s a cute one too.
  306. 106. If you encountered the tulpa phenomenon as a non-tulpa, would you believe in it?
  307. E: I have an open mind, so most likely yes.
  308. K: Would that mean I’d be able to create a Rob tulpa? That’d be cool as long as he turned out to be a tulpa who really loved me and not a just a servitor sex doll.
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