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  1. [2:40 PM] Habit: Hey, it's Habit from the queer hypno server. I understand that there's been a problem between you and DirectorBlack, and I wanted to talk to you about it
  2. [2:40 PM] Habit: First, to let you know that I'm going to need to look at a log of the conversation, and second, to hear your take on what happened
  3. [3:31 PM] Blue ~: I havent chatted to director black in almost a year, what happened?
  4. [3:32 PM] Blue ~: I'm not sure what convo they're talking about, because it literally has been that long since I've spoken to them.
  5. [3:38 PM] Habit: I didn't know it was that long ago, but I'm just being told about it now, so you'll have to forgive me
  6. [3:38 PM] Blue ~: Oh it's quite alright, just confused is all
  7. [3:40 PM] Habit: Director says that the two of you worked together in sessions, and that you treated her and her shortcomings as a hypnotist in a way that made her extremely uncomfortable, while also accusing her of lying about the efforts she was making to improve.
  8. [3:41 PM] Blue ~: Alright, I'll explain some more when I'm back at my computer. Pretty shocked she would do this though
  9. [3:42 PM] Habit: I'd appreciate it a lot, thankyou. Do you mind if I look at a log of the conversation?
  10. [3:43 PM] Blue ~: No problem, I don't mind and I will paste it for you when I'm back
  11. [4:19 PM] Blue ~: Alright, back at my computer. Checked the logs and it seems that was in July 2019, lemme first send my side of the story and then paste the logs along with a screenshot of the date for verification
  12. [4:22 PM] Habit: Thanks, I really appreciate it.
  13. [4:23 PM] Blue ~: Yea, I appreciate you being chill and impartial
  14. [4:52 PM] Blue ~: I'd subbed and played with DB for a while, and while things started out pretty chill and enjoyable as time went on a lot of things changed.
  15. 1. We were friends as well as play partners, so when we had issues we'd chat it up, or they'd tell me if they wanted someone to talk to. As I usually do, I supported and worked to help them with the stuff they brought up. After a while though, I realized that I was hearing a lot of the same stories again and again, and they were never acting on any of the advice I was giving, or making any action on their own part to change either or get help despite my advice. It felt like they just didn't care for my feedback, and after a while it felt like I was just being used for ego boosting.
  16. 2. While we started off playing a good deal together and hanging out, they rapidly started trying to play regularly with more and more subs, to the point that there was seemingly no way they could juggle all of those relationships and give them any amount of the attention and care they deserved. For me, it went from us being close friends to feeling like I was just a vending machine for him to play with whenever he felt like playing with me rather than one of the others. Chatting and talking about life stuff outside of play became less and less frequent, and it seemed they cared less and less for my feedback and only saw value in me as a subject.
  17. 3. I repeatedly expressed desires to do different types of hypno play, such as dronification or brainwashing or obedience conditioning, but doing stuff like that almost never happened, and frequently in replacement of that would be me doing stuff to help them get off / of a sexual nature. I was just happy to have play at the time, but I tired of not being able to explore what I really cared about. And with the massive time periods between sessions or any sort of play (over a month at the time of the last messages), we'd spend most of the time just reinforcing suggestions since they'd faded in that time.
  18. [4:52 PM] Blue ~: 4. Forgot to mention this but I would plan on them cancelling any times we set up, because ~80% or more of them would get cancelled or postponed by them with nearly no warning, always promising they won't let it happen again. It happened nearly every time, and never stopped or got better, and it just felt like they didn't care for my time, as I would feel with anyone who repeatedly displayed that behavior.
  19. 5. When we did do sessions, I would provide feedback, but this too never felt like it got taken into account, e.g. I would say hey can we do this it might work a lot better and never see it happen, or I'd say hey this isn't really working can we try something else and never try anything else.
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  21. All this really made me feel like they didn't care about me or my side of the D/s, and just wanted to use me for their own purposes. They never forced me to do anything or directly violated consent, but I just felt like all I was to them was a vending machine. The more I thought about it, the more I realized I didn't want to trust them with my mind in the way we had before, and moved on. When they brought up the possibility of IRL playing, I told them about all this and left them with some harsh criticisms of the behaviors they'd displayed, so that they'd know why I was stopping playing with them and my honest thoughts on why they kept coming back to the same things over and over again. I didn't think they'd listen, but I figured I ought as well type it out so they'd know why I was moving on. I also was angry and feeling used, so I'll be honest that definitely served as a motivator too. It does feel kinda ridiculous that they're bringing up a message from 8 months ago in seemingly some attempt to get back at me.
  22. [4:54 PM] Blue ~: Screenshot of timestamp: https://gyazo.com/5514d9c4033dc37e523564a413de1b4e
  23. Logs: https://pastebin.com/UKAt8eGu
  24. [4:58 PM] Habit: Thanks for filling me in
  25. [4:59 PM] Blue ~: For sure
  26. [4:59 PM] Habit: I don't have a whole lot to say about this, but I do want to clarify one thing
  27. [4:59 PM] Blue ~: Sure thing
  28. [5:00 PM] Blue ~: Ask away
  29. [5:01 PM] Habit: Director's bringing this up just to address his discomfort, as far as I can tell. He hasn't asked for (or even implied really) that he wants anything in particular to happen
  30. [5:01 PM] Habit: I get a lot of people who come to me with stuff that's just concerns they have, rather than wanting a specific change or action, and I feel like this is one of those times
  31. [5:01 PM] Blue ~: Oh okay, well that's better than the alternative
  32. [5:02 PM] Habit: So, I wouldn't say this is an attempt to get back at you. You should let me know if anything else happens that makes you feel otherwise, though
  33. [5:02 PM] Blue ~: Thanks for clearing that up :)
  34. [5:02 PM] Habit: No worries
  35. [5:04 PM] Habit: If I have any problem with this situation, it'd just be a matter of tone, and under the circumstances I think it's understandable, and unlikely to come up again. I don't think there's anything in particular that needs to happen here
  36. [5:04 PM] Habit: Sorry to put you through that, but again I really do appreciate you helping me out with this one
  37. [5:05 PM] Blue ~: That's really relieving to hear, thank you! I really couldn't appreciate your handling of it any more, thank you - it was my pleasure :)
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