stay shiny, forteL - Today at 8:54 PM
oh no you actually replied
Noctis - Today at 8:54 PM
now you can't make indirects about it
sorry
stay shiny, forteL - Today at 8:55 PM
i was reasonably angry and i apologize for such
but seriously i did not like the result of me trying.
Noctis - Today at 8:55 PM
i wasnt messaging you because i was busy
so
+ mad
but you knew that already
stay shiny, forteL - Today at 8:55 PM
i don't think that's it, i'm more referring to trying to help you
it was really shitty to end it the way it did, especially since i genuinely do care and i'm trying my best to not irraitonally be an ass because let it be known i do actually give a fuck. why else would i have stayed my position to say that you matter despite your self loathing
but either way, i've consulted and generally i think it's seen that it was unhealthy to constantly support with somewhat of a shitty result. i don't think that's your fault, i don't think you intended to even minorly make me feel bad at all really
Noctis - Today at 8:57 PM
nope, i just wanted you to know how i felt
i knew this wasn't going to work
stay shiny, forteL - Today at 8:58 PM
but for the way i was treated then, i'm really not ok with it. i don't think you need to make a big deal of this
Noctis - Today at 8:58 PM
sorry
i'm a really shitty person and you know this
stay shiny, forteL - Today at 8:58 PM
it's not about 'knowing', it's about taking a goddamn chance, and i did, and i'm happy that i did because it did remind me WHY i find you genuinely interesting and fine to support as a perosn.
Noctis - Today at 8:58 PM
i'd prefer not to talk about this anymore
stay shiny, forteL - Today at 8:59 PM
but i can't really handle the results it does to myself so yes, sorry, i'm just gonna have to end it here. not for my sake anymore but for yours because you being left in wonder is enough torture, and I know that very well. i'm sorry for being angry earlier but im sure you understand that feeling.
do talk later, because i don't dislike you. i'm sure you know that.