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- kat - Today at 8:10 PM
- it feels so terrible to not me important in someone's life anymore
- to the point where they want to just kick you out
- even though she said she would never do that
- but right now im just an acquaintance to her
- i used to matter so much
- but all my emotions just fell apart
- and i dont matter to anyone anymore
- even the person that i value so much
- guess i'm crying again
- Umbra Shilly - Today at 8:14 PM
- I don't know what to do...
- kat - Today at 8:14 PM
- there's not realy anything you can do, she probably wont change her mind
- and i already know how she feels about me now
- she hates me, she doesn't care to deal with me anymore because i've become a burden that she doesn't want to handle anymore
- and i knew it from the start, i knew this would happen eventually
- and it's my fault, my fault for letting my friend find out, my fault for getting too close, my fault that things have to be this way and it's my fault that she's hurting
- if i never came into her life, she wouldn't be hurting
- all i do is hurt people, and it goes to show
- i told you, nothing good comes out of being with me
- everywhere i go, i just mess everything up
- i dont want just the occasional company and well being
- i want to have a shoulder to cry on
- i want to be held and loved
- i want to be respected for who i am
- and i dont want to be hurt
- i want to actually feel like i matter
- Umbra Shilly - Today at 8:19 PM
- You can matter
- But
- Show a little restraint
- kat - Today at 8:19 PM
- umbra
- that's not what i need to hear
- restraint doesnt even matter in this
- you're missing the point
- Umbra Shilly - Today at 8:19 PM
- Frostdrift - Today at 8:16 PM
- she sent me 134 messages since last night when we stopped talking, fluctuating from "im leaving gp" to "do you still love me?" to "i accept you" to "persona 5 animation sucks" to random anime pictures
- kat - Today at 8:19 PM
- dont you think im trying, umbra
- Umbra Shilly - Today at 8:19 PM
- You are... I'm sure you are... and I really wish I could help
- But I just don't know what to tell you that I haven't already said...
- kat - Today at 8:20 PM
- im just going to give up on trying to vent to you
- its not working
- and youre just going to put yourself in her shoes only and not mine
- Umbra Shilly - Today at 8:20 PM
- That's not...'
- kat - Today at 8:20 PM
- yes, it is
- this entire time, you've been considering her feelings more than mine
- you haven't even bothered to put yourself in my shoes
- you haven't even bothered to understand the pain i'm feeling
- meanwhile you devote your time to understanding hers, and i am not saying this out of jealousy; if you want to care so much, at least try and understand how it feels on my end
- if both of you are just going to humor me like this, then dont even bother
- the more i talk to you the more i believe that you don't give a shit about how i feel
- to the point where you wont even properly acknowledge it
- and now right now i just seem like a nuisance to the both of you
- so im going
- Umbra Shilly - Today at 8:22 PM
- Alissa I'm trying here DX
- kat - Today at 8:22 PM
- im clearly being a fucking nuisance
- and you clearly seem more relaxed when you're not dealing with me
- so im pushing you out of my life, because apparently i keep hindering both of you guys' patience(edited)
- Umbra Shilly - Today at 8:23 PM
- I just don't know what to do anymore I feel like we've been going in circles constantly..."
- kat - Today at 8:23 PM
- im a lost cause at this rate(edited)
- Umbra Shilly - Today at 8:23 PM
- Fuck don't say that
- kat - Today at 8:23 PM
- you know it's true
- Umbra Shilly - Today at 8:23 PM
- Anyone can get back up again
- kat - Today at 8:23 PM
- you even said we're going in circles
- because im just being a bother at this point
- both of you are fed up with me and have been for the past two weeks
- Umbra Shilly - Today at 8:24 PM
- fucking hell stop acting like me..."
- kat - Today at 8:24 PM
- im not even acting like you
- im saying what's true
- you and snow are both annoyed with me, and you just want me to get out of your lives
- if you want that so badly, then just say so
- and if you're not going to say it, then im going to do it myself
- Umbra Shilly - Today at 8:24 PM
- But I don't want you out of my life
- Can't you frickin' see that?
- kat - Today at 8:24 PM
- but you know you would be less stressed out if i wasn't here
- and the same goes for her
- just stop talking to me please
- im just going to keep hurting you
- Umbra Shilly - Today at 8:24 PM
- Maybe? Maybe not
- But you're a friend
- So my decision is to stay here and listen
- kat - Today at 8:25 PM
- im not letting you do that
- you have better people to listen to(edited)
- Umbra Shilly - Today at 8:25 PM
- Nobody is better than anyone
- kat - Today at 8:25 PM
- i dont care at this rate
- i dont want to feel like a bother to you or snow anymore
- it just hurts to think about it
- so please, leave me out of your life
- Umbra Shilly - Today at 8:26 PM
- tall order(edited)
- but no
- kat - Today at 8:26 PM
- well im going to exit myself
- im tired of feeling like a failure and a letdown
- Umbra Shilly - Today at 8:26 PM
- if you can't listen then I'm sorry I wasn't good enough to help you
- kat - Today at 8:26 PM
- don't say that either
- ;-;
- Umbra Shilly - Today at 8:27 PM
- I hope there's someone in your life that can provide what you want and need
- kat - Today at 8:27 PM
- i just dont wanna be alone
- Umbra Shilly - Today at 8:27 PM
- Clearly I can't, and I've failed you
- Then don't push people out..."
- kat - Today at 8:27 PM
- what's going on now is exactly what happened in my other community
- but i have to push people out or they'll just get fed up with me
- Umbra Shilly - Today at 8:27 PM
- STOP LIVING IN THE FUCKING PAST
- kat - Today at 8:27 PM
- please don't yell at me
- you guys want so much from me
- but i don't think you've ever considered how much pressure you're both putting on me
- all this yelling, these demands, spiteful comments, everything(edited)
- i can't take it anymore
- im just going to go for now i think
- Umbra Shilly - Today at 8:28 PM
- Hn..
- okay...
- kat - Today at 8:29 PM
- please consider that i have my limits too
- im getting asked for so much on both ends
- i cant just fucking keep up wtih everything
- go think about that, will you
- im going to go offline for the night, ill see you another time
- Umbra Shilly - Today at 8:29 PM
- I'm sorry..."
- kat - Today at 8:29 PM
- dont be
- after all, im not the main concern here
- and dont switch to offline just because im switched to offline
- your friends wouldnt like that
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