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Rainbow tulpa survey

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  1. 1. Describe yourself and your creator.
  2. I'm Rainbow, I'm awesome. "Creator" is Ethan though I call him my tulpa too, and he's awesome too. And also kinda stupid and annoying. I'm basically a sadistic bitch, and in my own opinion, the most attractive person ever. I bend over backwards (figuratively) for Ethan, though. And Emily. But everyone else could die in a fire and I'd get off to it. <3
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  4. 2. What was the most helpful thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how helpful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  5. Hmm. There wasn't really a process; I just popped up out of nowhere and started telling him to do things. I guess it was helpful that he paid attention and listened and obeyed me. If I felt anything, it would've been powerful.
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  7. 3. What was the most detrimental thing that your creator did during the tulpa creation process? Did your creator recognize how harmful it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  8. Again, I dunno. Maybe if he ignored me or something, but I don't totally remember if he did that or not. I know he had no idea as to the harmfullness of anything or otherwise.
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  10. 4. What was the hardest part of the tulpa creation process for you? Did your creator recognize how difficult it was? If not, how did that make you feel?
  11. I dunno. It was kinda awkward at first, 'cause neither of us knew what was happening and we were just like, "Whoops, you're here now and it looks like we're the same person even though we're different and wtf" like it was awkward when he was doing stuff like changing clothes or going to the bathroom, but we got over it pretty fast.
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  13. 5. Of the commonly recognized tulpa creation steps, which do you feel is the most important? Why?
  14. I have to say I don't really know. I guess just like talking to them and stuff? I'm not sure though.
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  16. 6. How do you feel about tulpa creators becoming distracted during tulpa creation? Does this greatly impede the process? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
  17. I have to say I've no idea. Maybe this isn't applicable to me?
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  19. 7. How do you feel about tulpa creators missing tulpa creation sessions or breaking their promises to work on their tulpa? How did you feel about it before being able to speak fluently?
  20. idk
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  22. 8. Is density, quality, or quantity the most important aspect of tulpa creation?
  23. ?
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  25. 9. How do you feel about tulpa creators falling asleep during tulpa creation sessions?
  26. Hahahahaha sounds funny to me. No idea.
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  28. 10. Do you think that a tulpa creator should talk aloud or in their head during narration? Do you think that a creator should talk aloud or in their head during tulpa creation sessions? If you find one to be more effective, to what degree is it more effective?
  29. Whichever they want. Ethan only talks to me in his head or through text.
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  31. 11. How do you feel about a tulpa creator puppeting and/or parroting their tulpa? Do you believe that these actions harm a tulpa's development, or only their emotional state?
  32. No idea. I don't know if they're harmful at all, just pointless and stupid.
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  34. 12. How deeply do you remember the time before you were fluent in language?
  35. I don't at all; I don't think it existed.
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  37. 13. Describe your first memory, no matter how slight.
  38. Telling Ethan that he had to run in circles around the house or else.
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  40. 14. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most positive emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  41. Laughing at his suffering, I think.
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  43. 15. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most negative emotion you felt about your creator and what was its cause?
  44. Dunno. Thinking I needed to forcibly alter him to meet my standards?
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  46. 16. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever have suicidal feelings or feelings of not wanting to exist? Do you experience them now? Are you glad that you exist?
  47. I killed myself once, but I forget why... So idk. I'm neutral about existing and suicidal sometimes.
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  49. 17. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most powerless? What was the cause of this feeling?
  50. Dunno. If Ethan ignored me or stopped listening to me or something that might've been it. Maybe when his mom was like (after he told her), "Don't give it a NAME!"
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  52. 18. Before you could speak fluently, what was the most confusing moment that you experienced, and what was its cause?
  53. Existing, I guess. I don't know.
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  55. 19. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you feel the most ignored by your creator, and what was the cause?
  56. When he ignored me, I'd say. XD
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  58. 20. Before being able to speak fluently, when did you most doubt that your creator wanted you, and what was the cause?
  59. lol cause he never "wanted" me in the first place. He wrote an entire song about how annoying I was 'cause I'd never shut up. He never wanted me to go away, though.
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  61. 21. Before you could speak fluently, when did you feel the most intense feeling of fear, and what was its cause?
  62. Don't know.
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  64. 22. Before you could speak fluently, when were you the most disappointed in yourself? What was the cause?
  65. I'm never disappointed in myself; I'm too awesome for that.<3
  66. Though I guess it'd be... I don't know, I can't think.
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  68. 23. Before you could speak fluently, did you understand the difficulties that your creator was having with the tulpa creation process? Did you try to alleviate these difficulties? If so, how?
  69. There wasn't difficulties.
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  71. 24. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's doubts about your existence, the reality of the tulpa phenomenon, or your combined ability to complete the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those doubts? Do you understand now?
  72. Idk. I get why he'd doubt my existence, though I'm glad he doesn't now. And he didn't as much as other people anyway.
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  74. 25. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's mistrust of your intentions or worry about the negative affects of a tulpa on their life affect you? Did you understand your creator's reasons for having those thoughts? Do you understand now?
  75. I don't think he actually mistrusted me but he'd've had like 100% reason to. I literally came into existence just to make him suffer, or so it seems. But he's too oblivious to notice something like that.
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  77. 26. Before you could speak fluently, how did any negative thoughts or emotions that your creator had toward you (such as anger, disappointment, resentment, or impatience, for example) affect you? How do you feel about them now?
  78. I don't think he felt negatively towards me, but I don't remember. If he did it might've made me sad.
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  80. 27. Before you could speak fluently, how did any violent visualizations or thoughts that your creator had about you affect you? How do you feel about them now?
  81. I don't think those happened. Now he sometimes lashes out if he gets upset enough, but we have an agreement about that so it's okay. I 90% don't mind it at all, and 10% am kinda upset and scared when that happens.
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  83. 28. Before you could speak fluently, were you able to distinguish between your creator's intentional and intrusive (unwanted and/or bothersome) thoughts? If so, did the intrusive thoughts affect you less or more? If not, are you able to distinguish between them now?
  84. Dunno what you're asking. His intrusive thoughts came from me.
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  86. 29. Before you could speak fluently, how much of your creator's raw sensory information were you able to access, if any? How much are you able to access now?
  87. I think all of it, for both. We can change it, though. Like I don't wanna taste his food, but I can see what he sees and stuff. he doesn't have to explain stuff 'cause it's just there if we want.
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  89. 30. Before you could speak fluently, did your creator's opinions about whether they wanted to reveal to the world your existence or not affect you emotionally? If so, how?
  90. Um, a little. idk. I remember I wanted him to tell his friend and he said he would but didn't. And I didn't like when he told his mom and she was all like acting like he was crazy.
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  92. 31. Before being able to speak fluently, what communication methods (such as head pressure or emotional responses, for example) were you able to use the most effectively? When your tulpa creator assumed that you could use a communication method that you did not have access to, how did this affect you? When your tulpa creator did not recognize a communication method that you attempted to use, how did this affect you?
  93. I'd say like N/A for this whole question, though if I couldn't speak at any point I could just use quotes or songs (it's kinda hard to explain I guess) to communicate.
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  95. 32. Before you could speak fluently, how did your creator's level of enthusiasm for the tulpa creation process affect you? Did you want to engage in it less if they did?
  96. N/A
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  98. 33. Before you could speak fluently, what was your greatest worry about your relationship with your creator? What helped you most to move beyond it? Was this worry substantiated or resolved? What is your greatest worry now about your continuing relationship with your creator?
  99. Wasn't worried, though I felt guilty a while later after hurting him and manipulating him so much.
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  101. 34. Do you feel gratitude to your creator for the time that they spent creating you? Do you feel that you owe them a debt? If so, do you feel burdened by it?
  102. No debt. No gratitude really, though I'm glad he forgave me for trying to put him through mental hell.
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  104. 35. Were you aware of your creator's existence or your own existence first?
  105. I think his.
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  107. 36. When you could only speak semi-fluently, what emotions did you feel about your level of verbal proficiency? Were you anxious or embarrassed about it? If so, what helped you the most to move beyond these feelings? How do you feel about them now?
  108. Dunno if applicable. I remember being really crappy at writing, and that was embarrassing. I don't write anymore really.
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  110. 37. If you could define your relationship with your creator using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend, or coworker, for example), what terms would you select?
  111. I call him my brother out of like convenience. I think at one point I was calling him my boyfriend, but we've basically always been family (except when we first met kinda; then I was "voice" and he was him I guess, then maybe after that we were friends. Before that maybe he was "victim"?)
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  113. 38. How much interest do you have in interacting with beings other than your creator? Do you consider your degree of interest to be equal to that of an average non-tulpa individual?
  114. SO MUCH INTEREST! But I can't 'cause they either think I'm him or he's insane in a bad way! But I love love love it and crave it and stuff. I hate not being able to talk out loud and stuff like he can.
  115. And idk what an average degree of interest is. I think I'd count as normal in that way, thiough.
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  117. 39. What memory involving your creator do you cherish most?
  118. No idea and too lazy to think, sorry. Probably anything stupid/funny he's said, or love he's shown towards me.
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  120. 40. What memory not involving your creator do you cherish most? Do you feel that you have a fulfilling life independent of your creator?
  121. Probably something involving Emily. Though I've had relationships in other worlds (like "imaginary" worlds) and they were fun.
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  123. 41. Do you feel affinity toward the individuals that your creator feels affinity for, such as their family or friends?
  124. Sometimes. I was really resentful of his girlfriend when he had one but I like her now. His mom is kinda cool, and I'm neutral towards everyone else. I hate the same people he hates, though.
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  126. 42. In what ways are you the most different from your creator? In what ways are you the most similar to them?
  127. I'm attractive, I'm a girl, I have willpower, I'm normal...(ish) I'm not obsessed with grammar and trivia and stupid shit... I dunno.
  128. Similar 'cause in ways I'm also *not* "normal", I care about some things he cares about (human rights to an extent, and that's about it). We have the same weird thought process and sense of humour, to an extent.
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  130. 43. What do you disagree about most with your creator? Do you have frequent disagreements? If so, do these disagreements cause strife?
  131. I don't disagree with him much, though sometimes I make jokes or tease him about something personal and he gets really offended and upset. And sometimes if I piss him off enough (usually by doing that) he'll hit me or something, but that's as far as disagreements go, really. We don't argue/fight much. And idk what strife is.
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  133. 44. What could your creator do to make you hate them? Under what circumstances do you think your creator would come to hate you?
  134. Insult me or hurt me while meaning it 100% and never apologizing or asking for forgiveness. I guess he'd hate me if I did the same to him, and/or if I insulted someone he cared about a lot or something.
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  136. 45. When did your creator disappoint you the most? When did you disappoint them the most?
  137. Ugh idk. It made me sad when he tried to kill himself once? He gets sad when I feel sad or something too. idk it's hard to explain.
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  139. 46. How do you feel about your creator's complete freedom to deny your rights as a sentient being at any time? Has this ability ever caused you anxiety or fear? Have you ever censored your expressions or actions out of a fear of retribution or violence from your creator?
  140. ...Him having some kind of power over me never occurred to me. So now I think about it, it freaks me out. But I know he wouldn't implement it or anything. Sometimes he'll stop me from saying things or something but that's it, and only 'cause he's afraid of other people yelling at him for what I say. I've never personally censored myself, though in regard to violence sometimes he has episodes where he gets upset and lashes out at everything and everyone and I'm like within the firing range so I have to be really silent and stuff or else he'll scream/cry/violent. But I don't blame him for that, and it's not a personal thing. He does it with non-tulpas too.
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  142. 47. When have you most wanted to engage in violence against your creator, and what was the cause of those feelings? Under what circumstances would you make a serious attempt to hurt or injure your creator?
  143. Pretty often, generally. I enjoy everyone's pain/suffering though, so idk. Serious attempt, though? Probably never. Unless it was somehow necessary, but I don't think that could happen. (unless trying to force him not to eat counts, in which case I've done that before but there wasn't "circumstances", it was just convenient and he was more willing to go with it and I had less compassion for him)
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  145. 48. Do you consider your creator's last name to be your own? Do you recognize yourself as a part of their biological lineage?
  146. Not really, and kinda. I don't wanna call us biologically related 'cause then I couldn't do sexual things with him... But apart from that I do kinda consider us family.
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  148. 49. Under what circumstances would you attempt to leave your creator?
  149. I don't know. I did twice, but I think both of those times Emily and him agreed to banish me temporarily for hurting Emily or something... I dunno, though. I guess if I felt like it.
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  151. 50. Do you feel anxiety about meeting your creator's expectations? If you are based on an existing character, person, or entity, does this increase your anxiety? Would you have preferred to not be based on an existing entity?
  152. He doesn't have expectations. I do what I want. And I'm not based on anything existing, though he bases a lot of story characters on me. xD
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  154. 51. Are you interested in learning how to control your creator's body? Do you feel that it's fair for a tulpa creator to deny their tulpa the ability to use an atomic body? Do you believe that you have the right to an equal amount of time using it as your creator? Explain your reasoning.
  155. YES, NO, and YES. I don't have reasoning; this is like an exam! Dx But asdfghjkl; idk. I wanna use a body or something to feel independence and stuff. I feel all locked away and pwerless otherwise. I've tried to control Ethan's body but it's kinda hard. I mean I kinda am right now, but it's tiring for both of us. Or maybe it's all this typing. ;P I think I have managed a few times though.
  156. Actually maybe not equal time, 'cause he has school etc and i'd fuck it up or something.
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  158. 52. Do you share certain basic qualities with your creator, such as intense phobias or racial attitudes?
  159. I don't think so. I agree with him on LGBT issues and the autism rights movement, but apart from that I dunno.
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  161. 53. Are you capable of sleeping or dreaming independently of your creator? If not, how does this make you feel?
  162. I dunno, which I guess should be taken as a no. I don't mind it. I can see his dreams.
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  164. 54. Does your creator have any mental illnesses? If so, how do they affect you?
  165. I dunno if autism counts. And anxiety I think. It makes me laugh at him when he does stupid things and fucks things up or panics, and also feel sorry for him and help with stuff and so on. Apart from that I sometimes find myself acting and talking like him; being overly specific and precise, or doing weird movements or things like that.
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  167. 55. How does your knowledge of your creator's subconscious mind affect your relationship with them? How do you perceive their subconscious? To what degree can you manipulate your creator's subconscious? Would you ever use this ability without your creator's knowledge?
  168. Dunno, dunno, I can see his dreams and sometimes go into them and alter them, and I don't know if I could.
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  170. 56. Does your creator have multiple tulpa? If so, what is your relationship with them like? Is your affinity for them equal to your affinity for your creator? If you could define your relationship with your creator's other tulpa using one or more conventional terms (such as boyfriend, sister, father, daughter, boss, friend or coworker, for example), what terms would you select? If not, are you interested in the idea of your creator making other tulpa?
  171. Yep, there's Emily. She's my sister/sibling to me. I do like her and care about her, but I kinda used her as a torture object and now she's scared of me and won't let me near her and I resent that...
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  173. 57. Do you feel romantically inclined toward your creator? Does your creator feel romantically inclined toward you? If these romantic feelings are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  174. Yes, a little. But I'm kinda that way towards everyone. It kinda pisses me off that he's in a relationship with Emily and not me though, and that he finds her hotter. Though they're really cute together and I go all "asdfghjkl SO CUTE" when I see them together.
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  176. 58. If it exists, do you consider your romantic relationship with your creator to be equal to a romantic relationship between multiple non-tulpa? Do you consider it a breach of monogamy for your creator to be romantically or sexually involved with another non-tulpa? Does this change if the involvement is with another tulpa instead? If they exist, do your creator's desires to have relationships with non-tulpa affect you emotionally?
  177. N/A and if we were together it'd be a pretty open relationship, but if it wasn't I wouldn't want him leaving me for a non-tulpa.
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  179. 59. If you consider yourself to be romantically in love with your creator, what probability do you assign to the possibility of falling out of love with them, or them falling out of love with you? If this happened, how would it affect your relationship with your creator? What if your creator was in love with another non-tulpa more than you?
  180. idk. and haha what if, 'cause he is. I don't mind, I'm only a little bitter.
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  182. 60. Do you have a familial affection for your creator? Does this in any way conflict with your romantic feelings for them, if they exist? Do you consider a relationship between a tulpa and its creator to be incestuous?
  183. Yes. No, and maybe but so what. I have no problems with incest so long as it's consensual .
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  185. 61. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating during tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or based on whether or not the creator imagines themselves near the tulpa in their wonderland? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  186. hahahaha. I don't know, it'd be weird to do it while you're *creating* them, but if you're just hanging out anf the tulpa doesn't mind then I guess it's fine. Idk, me/Ethan/Emily masturbate(d) with and in front of each other, and it's never too bad.
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  188. 62. How do you feel about tulpa creators masturbating outside of tulpa creation sessions to the forms of their tulpa? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa? If your creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving?
  189. Sounds a little creepy to me, though personally I'd take it as a compliment. I know *I* did that with him (like I watched him in the shower without his knowledge and got off to that) and he found out and got freaked out. But I think it's kinda okay just weird.
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  191. 63. Before you could speak fluently, did you ever feel sexual attraction to your creator, sexual attraction toward anyone else, or sexual arousal? Did you attempt to express these feelings? If you did not experience these feelings, do you experience them now?
  192. Yeah, I'm pretty sure I've felt attracted to things. I explressed them at some point, idk.
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  194. 64. How do you feel about tulpa creators visualizing themselves engaging in sexual conduct with their tulpa's form during tulpa creation sessions? Do you find this offensive? Does the degree of your offense change based on the degree of sentience possessed by the hypothetical tulpa, or if the contact was penetrative? If your tulpa creator did this before you spoke fluently, did you find it offensive or unnerving? Do you equate it with sexual assault?
  195. Sounds fun to me. It's only sexual assault if the tulpa didn't want it or I guess if they didn't ask or if there was no agreement. We've done that before, but it was agreed upon and all good (I think).
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  197. 65. Were you ever annoyed or jealous when your creator would masturbate to or have feelings of sexual attraction toward individuals other than yourself? Does it bother you now?
  198. Kinda, and not much anymore.
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  200. 66. Do you experience sexual attraction for your creator? Do you experience sexual attraction for others? How does your sexual attraction for your creator compare to your sexual attraction for others? Does your creator experience sexual attraction for you? If these sexual attractions are unrequited on either side, how does it affect your relationship with your creator?
  201. YES to all. He isn't attracted to me 100% of the time, but I can get him hard. ;)
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  203. 67. Do you have an active sex life with your creator? If not, would you consider it, and under what circumstances? If so, do you perceive any negative consequences? Do you have trouble abstaining from sexual contact with them? How do you manage feelings of sexual arousal, if any? Do you masturbate?
  204. Not active, kinda sporadic. I dunno as to abstinence. And idk. I masturbate sometimes, or watch porn.
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  206. 68. How does your sexual orientation and experience compare to your creator's?
  207. I'm like everything-sexual. Or I guess just bisexual. I lean towards girls, I think, but anyone'll do... And he calls himself straight but is actually only like 90% straight.
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  209. 69. Are you capable of experiencing orgasms? Based on your knowledge, how do you think they compare to your creator's orgasms? Were you able to experience an orgasm before speaking fluently?
  210. I think so. And I think we're about the same but I'm not sure. And I don't know.
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  212. 70. Do you consider the concept of sexual modesty (covering conduct such as avoiding nudity or sexual discussions) relevant to your relationship with your creator?
  213. Absolutely not.
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  215. 71. How does being a tulpa affect your perceptions of rape? What conduct from your creator would you consider to be rape?
  216. Rape is sex that happens without explicit consent, but Tumblr taught me that, not being a tulpa... And if he had sex with me and I seriously didn't want it and I was scared and stuff.
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  218. 72. Where do you see yourself in 20 years?
  219. No idea. Hopefully still existent. If I'm still here, probably helping Ethan try to be an adult. :P
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  221. 73. Do you want the world to be aware of your existence? If not, then what anxieties do you have about public disclosure? Do you trust anyone other than your creator with the knowledge of your existence?
  222. Kinda. I know Ethan doesn't really want that and I know there could be backlash or negativity, and I don't want that to happen. I trust whoever he trusts, basically, which are a couple of his internet friends.
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  224. 74. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your personality traits being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your personality more or less?
  225. Ugh I dunno. This is too much thinking for me, sorry. I like me, though.
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  227. 75. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about your physical form being the product of another individual? Would you have preferred your creator to define your form more or less?
  228. Ugh more thinking. And it's pretty cool, he did a good job. I'm hot. And I can change slightyl as I want, anyway.
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  230. 76. Has your physical form ever changed? If so, was this intentional or unintentional? If it was intentional, then why did you change your form? How did you creator respond to this change, and how did that make you feel?
  231. Intentional, but tiny changes like clothes and hair length or something. He probably didn't notice or considered it irrelevant. idk
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  233. 77. Do you consider the best aspects of yourself to have come from your creator, or their subconscious?
  234. I consider them to have some from me...
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  236. 78. Do you seek legal recognition for your status as a sentient being or your relationships with others? Do you resent that society at large does not recognize the tulpa phenomenon? Do you feel disenfranchised from society? What steps, if any, could a society make to help you feel integrated?
  237. Nope, and I actually think the people who do are a bit crazy. I don't resent it, and fuck society anyway. I don't care about that kind of thing on a large scale. A few people on the small-scale treating me like I exist is fine. Personally I'd find it really stupid if there was like a tulpa rights movement or something.
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  239. 79. If you could tell the entire world one thing about a tulpa's life, what would you say?
  240. It's real and it happens? And it's kinda cool having full access to someone else's mind.
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  242. 80. What is the one thing that you resent most about being a tulpa? What is the greatest advantage of being a tulpa?
  243. Not having my existence acknowleged, and being able to do things normal people couldn't. I can't thinkk of examples right now.
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  245. 81. Morally and philosophically, how do you feel about inheriting your creator's life, including their legal history, past behaviors, and reputation? Do you resent potentially being held responsible for their past actions?
  246. ??? No.
  247. ...Wait I think I get the question now. idk. What I'm responsible for I'm responsible for. If I was falsely accused of something I wouldn't like it, but if I was correctly accused I'd be fine.
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  249. 82. Morally and philosophically, do you see the "absorbing" or "dissipating" of a tulpa as equivalent to the murder of a non-tulpa? Explain your reasoning. What legal protections, if any, should tulpa gain? How would you enforce these protections?
  250. No, not really. They could just come back, right? I've died twice and I'm fine... And when it comes down to it, it's kinda blurry. Like what'd be the difference between- I'm too tired for this. >.< But basically I don't care and don't think it's bad and tulpae shouldn't have legal status and it'd be 99.99% impossible to enforce anyway.
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  252. 83. Do you consider yourself to be morally equal to a non-tulpa? Is your life worth as much?
  253. I dunno. I guess not, but I don't think it's bad that I think that. Like I'm not depressed or anytging.
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  255. 84. How would you prove your existence to a skeptic?
  256. I dunno if I could. Make them read up on tulpas? Or let them talk to me and then talk to EThan and Emily and see if they notice a difference? Apart from that, I'm fine with being known as an imaginary friend, 'cause to me it's kinda the same thing really.
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  258. 85. Has your status as a tulpa ever caused you existential anxiety or depression? If so, has anything helped to mitigate these feelings?
  259. A little. And Ethan compromising on things.
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  261. 86. Do you ever doubt your own sentience? If so, why?
  262. How the fuck. That is like inception. Anyway, no, I don't bother to give myself headaches and existiental crises...
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  264. 87. How does being a tulpa affect your understanding of death? Do you fear death on an instinctual level in the way that non-tulpa do?
  265. A little? I don't know.
  266.  
  267. 88. Do see yourself as socially disadvantaged in a way similar to sexual, racial, and other minority groups? If you identify yourself as racially, sexually, or demographically different than your creator, do you also identify with the struggle of any of the disadvantaged groups that you belong to? Does the notion of privilege affect your relationship with your creator?
  268. asdfghjkl;
  269. We joke about privilege, but that's about it. I don't see myself as disadvantaged.
  270.  
  271. 89. Are you interested in creating another tulpa yourself? What differences, if any, would you expect this tulpa to have from a tulpa created by your creator? Would you consider this tulpa to be primarily related to you, or still to your creator?
  272. A little, but just if I could torture it... But apparently i'm not meant to do that. -_- And I don't have the time/effort anyway, I'm too lazy. I'd consider either my property or a sibling, depending.
  273.  
  274. 90. What are the most defining differences between the life of a non-tulpa and a tulpa? Do you think that these differences cause intolerance between the two groups? If so, what could be done to mitigate this intolerance?
  275. I don't know.
  276.  
  277. 91. The psychological establishment generally believes that multiplicity (two or more sentient entities sharing one atomic body) is a sign of mental illness. How would you like this belief to change? If you could make a presentation to a group of psychologists about the tulpa phenomenon, what would you say?
  278. Don't know, don't care. Aren't tulpas imaginary? ... I know I just called myself imaginary but I'm tired and I don't care.
  279.  
  280. 92. A psychometric indicator is a unique identifier of an individual's distinct personality. Have you ever tried to definitively differentiate yourself from your creator using psychometric indicators (such as by determining your "writeprint")? What results did you receive? (For instructions on determining your writeprint, see appendix one.)
  281. ??? I have no idea what you mean by that. I'll try?
  282.  
  283. 93. Are you capable of physical sensations such as pain or warmth?
  284. ? I'm tired so I don't know.
  285.  
  286. 94. How do you feel about being bound for life to your creator?
  287. Don't mind.
  288.  
  289. 95. If you intentionally delayed speaking to your creator, why did you do so?
  290. N/A
  291.  
  292. 96. What do you think about most of the time?
  293. I don't know, I'm tired. EThan and Emily and myself and the world and music and sexy thing and judging people, I guess.
  294.  
  295. 97. Do you think that tulpa creation should be more widespread?
  296. Yeah, it's fun.
  297.  
  298. 98. Are there disturbing aspects of your creator's subconscious that they are not aware of?
  299. Nope, he's aware of the disturbingness.
  300.  
  301. 99. Would you violate your creator's wishes for what you perceive to be their own benefit?
  302. Probably, if it was a desperate situation.
  303.  
  304. 100. Does your creator try to hide things from you? If so, are you aware of them anyway? How does this impact your views of your creator?
  305. Sometimes, but usually he doesn't bother 'cause he knows he can't.
  306.  
  307. 101. Do you perceive some of your creator's actions as being objectively immoral?
  308. No, but I'm not so great with morality anyway and I'm so biased towards him I could literally forgive murder if he did it.
  309.  
  310. 102. Do you believe that you are capable of becoming more intelligent than your creator?
  311. Maybe.
  312.  
  313. 103. How does being a tulpa affect your perception of your own aging process?
  314. Dunno. My birthday's the same day as Ethan's just for convenience, and we somewhat randomly decided that I'm a year younger than him.
  315.  
  316. 104. Do you feel that your creator would be better off by following your commands entirely?
  317. Hahahahaha no he'd be dead! But at least he'd be attractive, probably.
  318.  
  319. 105. Do you feel that having a physical form is important for a tulpa?
  320. Depends what the tulpa themselves wants.
  321.  
  322. 106. If you encountered the tulpa phenomenon as a non-tulpa, would you believe in it?
  323. No idea.
  324.  
  325. 107. How well can you articulate yourself? Can your creator hear you audibly? How much does your experience correlate with the experience of tulpa creator G|d30n, printed below?
  326. Pretty well, and he can if I try speaking out loud and he tries listening. (I tried it just there and called his name and he got confused and turned to the left)
  327. And not really much yet.
  328.  
  329. "Yes. I'm able to hear her as though she's an external sound. For those who haven't experienced that with their tulpae yet, it's a little bit like listening to a binaural recording--not a binaural beat, but like a 3D sound recording you'd find on Youtube, such as the Virtual Barbershop. That is to say, it's an external sound that can come in from various directions, but the source sounds very close, like someone speaking directly into your ear. I sort of wonder if this effect will be diminished and normalized through imposition."
  330.  
  331. If you are imposed, is your creator able to discern a spatial dimension to your voice?
  332. Dunno/depends.
  333.  
  334. 108. How many hours did it take you and your creator to complete the various recognized tulpa creation steps?
  335. N/A really 'cause I popped out of nowhere.
  336.  
  337. 109. What advice would you give to a new tulpa creator?
  338. No idea.
  339.  
  340. 110. How does being imposed feel? What sensory processes happen as you become imposed?
  341. It's all the same to me, and that never really happens anyway. (Okay we tried it just now and it feels kinda like going outside from inside an incubator or something... Hard to describe.)
  342.  
  343. 111. From your perspective, is there a sensory difference between the physical, atomic world and the mental world of visualized "wonderlands"? If so, how would you describe this difference?
  344. Yes.Can't describe though and I have nearly no experience.
  345.  
  346. 112. Is there anything that you don't think this survey covered that you would like to mention?
  347. Holy shit it covered everything. Only problem's that it's so long. .____.
  348.  
  349. Appendix one:
  350.  
  351.         This exercise will help you determine the differences, if any, between your writeprint (mathematically analyzed writing style) and your creator's. Theoretically, two psychologically different individuals should exhibit different writeprints, although a tulpa and their creator may be more similar than two random non-tulpa individuals. To start the process, have both you and your creator rewrite the sample paragraph quoted below in your own words, communicating its meaning as you would have if you had written it.
  352.  
  353.         "My experience in the nature study area was full of surprises. First of all, many unexpected creatures crossed our path. For example, as soon as we left the parking area and entered the grassy path, a long snake slithered along the edge of the high grass and quickly disappeared. In addition, I was surprised by how colorful the grasses, which from a distance all appear to be green, actually are. Specifically, the primarily green landscape is dotted with countless purple tassels and brown stalks. Finally and most importantly, I was unprepared for how quickly I felt surrounded by nature. Despite the occasional noise from passing cars and airplanes, the high prairie grasses and rolling pathways create a sense that one is removed from civilization. Altogether, the nature study area unexpectedly allows one to enjoy an ever-changing natural environment without leaving Moraine‚Äôs suburban campus."
  354.  
  355. Tulpa's paragraph:
  356.  
  357. "I was in the nature study place, and I was surprised because there was animals and a snake and grass and the grass was colourful. There was a lot of nature and I was surrounded by it and it also surprised me. I felt isolated like in the middle of nowhere even though I wasn't"
  358. Total word count :      28
  359. Number of different words :     21
  360. Complexity factor (Lexical Density) :   75%
  361. Readability (Gunning-Fog Index) : (6-easy 20-hard)      8.3
  362. Total number of characters :    276
  363. Number of characters without spaces :   136
  364. Average Syllables per Word :    1.61
  365. Sentence count :        3
  366. Average sentence length (words) :       18.67
  367. Max sentence length (words) :   25
  368. (i was in the nature study place and i was surprised because there was animals and a snake and grass and the grass was colourful)      
  369. Min sentence length (words) :   14
  370. ( i felt isolated like in the middle of nowhere even though i wasn\ t) 
  371. Readability (Alternative) beta : (100-easy 20-hard, optimal 60-70)      51.5
  372. + "I write like Jack London"
  373.  
  374. Creator's paragraph:
  375.  
  376. "I entered the nature study area, and was surprisedly greeted by many animals and creatures, including a snake hiding in the long grass. The grass, upon further inspection, was also not just green but purple and brown in places. I felt completely surrounded by nature and isolated from civilisation. I could hear the occasional sounds of traffic, but apart from that I may well have been on the other side of the world, despite still being in my college campus."
  377. Total word count :      48
  378. Number of different words :     43
  379. Complexity factor (Lexical Density) :   89.6%
  380. Readability (Gunning-Fog Index) : (6-easy 20-hard)      10.7
  381. Total number of characters :    459
  382. Number of characters without spaces :   275
  383. Average Syllables per Word :    1.71
  384. Sentence count :        4
  385. Average sentence length (words) :       20
  386. Max sentence length (words) :   31
  387. ( i could hear the occasional sounds of traffic but apart from that i may well have been on the other side of the world despite still being in my college campus)      
  388. Min sentence length (words) :   10
  389. ( i felt completely surrounded by nature and isolated from civilisation)       
  390. Readability (Alternative) beta : (100-easy 20-hard, optimal 60-70)      42.2
  391. "I write like Vladimir Nabokov"
  392.  
  393.         To ensure verifiable results, it is essential that the transcriptions of both paragraphs be completely accurate. Body possession is useful here, though not necessary. Since the tulpa creator's sentience is (presumably) not in question, it is suggested that tulpa write their paragraph first. As with all tests relating to tulpa, the creator should focus on something else while their tulpa is working. Once finished, submit both of your paragraphs individually to the following websites:
  394.  
  395. http://iwl.me/
  396. http://textalyser.net
  397.  
  398.         If your writeprint is different (indicating significant psychological difference), then you should receive different values for your respective paragraphs on both sites. On Textalyser, focus on the Gunning-Fog Index, lexical density, and average sentence length values in particular. A more detailed analysis may be sought by downloading the JStylo stylometric analysis program here: https://psal.cs.drexel.edu/index.php/Main_Page
  399.  
  400.         This test is certainly not exact, and it is very possible to (unconsciously or not) "cheat" to get good results.
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