- Wednesday December 08 2010, 23:53 -
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): u there?
dazedandawake@gmail.com: yeah...
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): oh thank god
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): skype just keeps loading and loading
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): it wont open
dazedandawake@gmail.com: dude, i dont want you to feel like this is your fault.
dazedandawake@gmail.com: its not.
dazedandawake@gmail.com: you didn't do anything but try to have a laugh.
dazedandawake@gmail.com: :-/
dazedandawake@gmail.com: my object here isn't to make you feel bad
dazedandawake@gmail.com: i dunno
dazedandawake@gmail.com: just like, nobody else ever wants to talk to me
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): stop right there
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): DUDE
dazedandawake@gmail.com: and i can't really help but spill my guts
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): you know im not to going to DO ANYTHING TO URT U NOW
dazedandawake@gmail.com: cause you're here
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): hurt*
dazedandawake@gmail.com: and fuck
dazedandawake@gmail.com: now im crying
dazedandawake@gmail.com: ugh
dazedandawake@gmail.com: im sorry for bitching
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): calm down
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): do u want to see me on cam
dazedandawake@gmail.com: ill leave you alone forever now, if you want
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): no stay
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): look
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i am not going to send anyone anything
dazedandawake@gmail.com: What difference does it make?
dazedandawake@gmail.com: My life's always been shit.
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i will go to jail for ever if it means taking a life
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i have a thing about this
dazedandawake@gmail.com: I've always just been the fuck in the corner
dazedandawake@gmail.com: who never gets the joke
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i willl turn into you later if u do
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): it will be on news
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): it i will be a murdurer
dazedandawake@gmail.com: no
dazedandawake@gmail.com: you didn't kill me
dazedandawake@gmail.com: you didn't do anything wrong.
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): cops will know and find me
dazedandawake@gmail.com: no
dazedandawake@gmail.com: they wont
dazedandawake@gmail.com: i haven't told anyone anything about you
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): one of ur friends know and they will do anythinng to find me
- 23:58 -
dazedandawake@gmail.com: my friend logan reported your shitass email to sunwave
dazedandawake@gmail.com: thats about it
dazedandawake@gmail.com: I'm sorry
dazedandawake@gmail.com: i'm not trying to hurt you
dazedandawake@gmail.com: don't feel bad
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): well thats not anything but it will be somethng
dazedandawake@gmail.com: you don't even know me, you never beat me up
dazedandawake@gmail.com: or told me i was a stupid faggot
dazedandawake@gmail.com: or told me to go die
dazedandawake@gmail.com: in fact
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): look im dont i wont tell anyone anything you know that
dazedandawake@gmail.com: relative to everyone else
dazedandawake@gmail.com: you're one of my better friends.
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i will get all the support i can to not kill urself
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): u have more friends then me
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i have no fucking facebook
dazedandawake@gmail.com: they aren't real friends.
dazedandawake@gmail.com: when i talk to them
dazedandawake@gmail.com: its like im not even saying anything
- Thursday December 09 2010, 00:00 -
dazedandawake@gmail.com: its like im using words that aren't mine
dazedandawake@gmail.com: hah
dazedandawake@gmail.com: one morning
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i move 3 times every year
dazedandawake@gmail.com: i decided i was gonna kill myself
dazedandawake@gmail.com: but i couldn't find the right knife
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): eli
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): dont
dazedandawake@gmail.com: so i just went to school
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): promis me
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): please
dazedandawake@gmail.com: and nobody noticed anything
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): look
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i did ths b4
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i got trapped
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): like u b4
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): on tinychat
dazedandawake@gmail.com: :-/
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): it was scarry as shit i felt like u
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): but not with a note
dazedandawake@gmail.com: dude
dazedandawake@gmail.com: i wrote that note weeks ago
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): sooo
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): look
dazedandawake@gmail.com: this has almost nothing to do with the tinychat
dazedandawake@gmail.com: this has just been like
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): that email reprted proxxy or not
dazedandawake@gmail.com: the last feather on a boys back.
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): they will suspect something
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): and know
dazedandawake@gmail.com: you didn't do anything
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): this is why u killed urself
dazedandawake@gmail.com: no
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): or at least pushed it far nuff
dazedandawake@gmail.com: go ahead and read the note man
dazedandawake@gmail.com: i don't even mention you
dazedandawake@gmail.com: because i wrote it weeks ago
dazedandawake@gmail.com: because for the past few weeks
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): thats nice and all
dazedandawake@gmail.com: i just want to die.
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): but PEAOPLE WILL KNOW WHY U KILLDED URSELF
dazedandawake@gmail.com: I guess.
dazedandawake@gmail.com: they won't care.
dazedandawake@gmail.com: nobody cares.
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): buz of me god damn even if i was invisble
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i still would give you all the support you needed
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i do not want you to kill urself
dazedandawake@gmail.com: *hugs*
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): not at all
dazedandawake@gmail.com: You're a really nice person.
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): look
dazedandawake@gmail.com: Thanks for talking to me.
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): YOU KNOW BY NOW IM NOT GOING TO SEND ANYONE ANYTHING NOW
dazedandawake@gmail.com: go ahead and send it.
dazedandawake@gmail.com: i dont care anymore.
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): and now im going to tell all the people not to open that message
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i wasnt going to man
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i wasnt going to send anyone anything
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jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i keep my promises
dazedandawake@gmail.com: thats really nice of you
dazedandawake@gmail.com: <3
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): please dont
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): tell me u wont
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i dont want you to please!
dazedandawake@gmail.com: :-/
dazedandawake@gmail.com: why?
dazedandawake@gmail.com: what do i matter?
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i can read people
dazedandawake@gmail.com: what difference would it make if i just vanished
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): you have a fucking band
dazedandawake@gmail.com: you said it yourself
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): friends
dazedandawake@gmail.com: i'm just some emo faggot.
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): gay sex everywhere
dazedandawake@gmail.com: i've never even held a boys hand.
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i live no where
dazedandawake@gmail.com: let alone kissed one.
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): me to hurr durr
dazedandawake@gmail.com: im just a fucking faggot, man.
dazedandawake@gmail.com: fucking pathetic faggot who's gonna take the cowards way out.
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): you have mre then me yet ur going to kill urself
dazedandawake@gmail.com: cause thats what iam
dazedandawake@gmail.com: and thats what ive always been
dazedandawake@gmail.com: just a pathetic piece of shit.
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): no ur not shut up ur better then me
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i sound like some up tight no it all when u got friends
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i dont...
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): you go to school
dazedandawake@gmail.com: :-/
dazedandawake@gmail.com: why don't you go to school?
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i have been out of any school 4 2 years
dazedandawake@gmail.com: you're obviously smart. proxxies and shit
dazedandawake@gmail.com: D:
dazedandawake@gmail.com: thats horrid
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): thats computer smart
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dazedandawake@gmail.com: bill gates
dazedandawake@gmail.com: you've got a future.
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): good for me
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): he went to school i cant giet a fucking job
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): wh dont i kill myself?
dazedandawake@gmail.com: :-/
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): ill tell u why
dazedandawake@gmail.com: why aren't you in school?
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): oh
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): well, i got out of school after summer never wwnt back
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): was going to get home schooled
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): never did
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): what am i going to say when i want to get back in
dazedandawake@gmail.com: :-/
dazedandawake@gmail.com: just tell them
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): u can see how bad i am at spelling
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): you are spoiled is what u are
- 00:10 -
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): youi look at all the bad things
dazedandawake@gmail.com: you're right.
dazedandawake@gmail.com: I am spoiled.
dazedandawake@gmail.com: No good.
dazedandawake@gmail.com: Rotten.
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i have no friends i can prove that to u for sure
dazedandawake@gmail.com: I don't even know why I'm still talking to you. The world fucks me over
dazedandawake@gmail.com: you're proof of that
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): im online every single day
dazedandawake@gmail.com: the universe fucking hates my guts
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): no....
dazedandawake@gmail.com: shits on me and kicks me
dazedandawake@gmail.com: fucking christ
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): why soulldnt i kill myelf?
dazedandawake@gmail.com: i almost kill myself yesterday
dazedandawake@gmail.com: and now this today
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i have no dad
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): u prolly do
dazedandawake@gmail.com: neither do i
dazedandawake@gmail.com: he left before i was born
dazedandawake@gmail.com: he left
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): oh well worth a shot
dazedandawake@gmail.com: just like everyone else.
dazedandawake@gmail.com: man
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): internet
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): letes go into that
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): u came from 4chan
dazedandawake@gmail.com: I hang around /x/
dazedandawake@gmail.com: Sometimes i go to /b/
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): expexing no shitstorm what so ever
dazedandawake@gmail.com: Yeah.
dazedandawake@gmail.com: I'm an idiot.
dazedandawake@gmail.com: I know.
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): u know how many ppl recorded yo
dazedandawake@gmail.com: Tons.
dazedandawake@gmail.com: You're right.
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): and me when i did you shit
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): tinychat
dazedandawake@gmail.com: Yeah
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i showd my dick
dazedandawake@gmail.com: You know what's pathetic?
dazedandawake@gmail.com: when you started messaging me
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): and did the same stuff
dazedandawake@gmail.com: I thought you liked me.
dazedandawake@gmail.com: I thought I was gonna have like, a friend.
dazedandawake@gmail.com: For once.
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i did!!!
dazedandawake@gmail.com: Who I could like, talk to and shit.
dazedandawake@gmail.com: I was all hopeful
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): like you or not
dazedandawake@gmail.com: and happy
dazedandawake@gmail.com: for once
dazedandawake@gmail.com: and then this happens
dazedandawake@gmail.com: and like
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i will break people
dazedandawake@gmail.com: :-/
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): thats mew
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i suck
dazedandawake@gmail.com: you'll do it again then.
dazedandawake@gmail.com: if i don't kill myself tomorrow
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): not to you....
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): WHAT!??!?!
dazedandawake@gmail.com: you'll send the pics out to all my friends next week
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): IM NOT GOING TO DO ANYTHING!!!
dazedandawake@gmail.com: and what do i get for enduring another week?
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): I SAWARE
dazedandawake@gmail.com: Man, it's not even you at this point.
Everytime, I tell myself that it gets better.
dazedandawake@gmail.com: Everytime I get to the edge, I make myself hold on a little bit longer.
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): look....
dazedandawake@gmail.com: For some faint little fucking hope
dazedandawake@gmail.com: that shit will change
dazedandawake@gmail.com: and i'll be happy for once
dazedandawake@gmail.com: but it never happens.
dazedandawake@gmail.com: not for me.
dazedandawake@gmail.com: it'll never happen.
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): whatever lolilalala frpeigfergnwjerjgre u have it better than me way better everything thats has happed to u
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): has happend to me x10
dazedandawake@gmail.com: Yeah.
- 00:15 -
dazedandawake@gmail.com: But you're strong.
dazedandawake@gmail.com: You're still alive.
dazedandawake@gmail.com: Fuck, now I'm crying again.
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i have no mother fucking friends
dazedandawake@gmail.com: I probably deserve it. You're right.
dazedandawake@gmail.com: All the bad shit that happens to me
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): and im not dead god damn
dazedandawake@gmail.com: I deserve it
dazedandawake@gmail.com: because i'm pathetic
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i had a fread who a came out gay too
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): lost him
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): now im 0
dazedandawake@gmail.com: I'll be your friend
dazedandawake@gmail.com: : /
dazedandawake@gmail.com: if you'll be mine.
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): of corse we can internet date and shit
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): just be less emo
dazedandawake@gmail.com: fuck this
dazedandawake@gmail.com: you're just stringing me along
dazedandawake@gmail.com: aren't you
dazedandawake@gmail.com: you're just fucking acting, so you can get more fucking pics of me
dazedandawake@gmail.com: internet date
dazedandawake@gmail.com: fucking hell
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): stinging what does that mean
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): lol wat
dazedandawake@gmail.com: it means you're just gonna fucking send the pics anyway
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): now i know thats fake
dazedandawake@gmail.com: and it doesn't ever matter anymore
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): u think im going to take pic of u
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): WRONG
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): no
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): im not
dazedandawake@gmail.com: :-/
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): internet date do u know what that is
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): ????
dazedandawake@gmail.com: no
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): if ur online
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): we talk about shit
dazedandawake@gmail.com: :-/
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): only cyberly
dazedandawake@gmail.com: you really want to be my friend?
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): not that now that ur going to kill ur self its that i wanted a little fun and i got it but now i am going to fuck up alife
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): and other
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): mom
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): friends
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): do you want to do that
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): to her?
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): ur mom
dazedandawake@gmail.com: she knows its not her fault.
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): shes going to cry her ass off
dazedandawake@gmail.com: dude
dazedandawake@gmail.com: earlier
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): and die of a broken heart
dazedandawake@gmail.com: you were telling me fucking up lives
dazedandawake@gmail.com: is your hobby
dazedandawake@gmail.com: i told you about how fucking shitty
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): not killing
dazedandawake@gmail.com: i was doing
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dazedandawake@gmail.com: and asked you to stop
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): you sound happy
dazedandawake@gmail.com: and you didn't
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i dont go for emos
dazedandawake@gmail.com: i fucking told you, how much i had going on
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i did stop
dazedandawake@gmail.com: no
dazedandawake@gmail.com: you fucking blackmailed me
dazedandawake@gmail.com: for more pics
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): when i messanged u the first time
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i stoped right there
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i know
dazedandawake@gmail.com: : /
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i didnt know u were emo
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i was teasing you
dazedandawake@gmail.com: : /
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i didnt send ANY
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): wait...
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): i think i can cancel meassess
dazedandawake@gmail.com: i wont do anything tonight :-/
dazedandawake@gmail.com: i promise
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): stay there i can canel then
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): them
dazedandawake@gmail.com: : /
- 00:25 -
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): well that should do it
jesseisgay@shitass.com (E-mail Address Not Verified): you there
dazedandawake@gmail.com: yeah...