July 2nd, 2025 - Where I'm At

It's been 3 months now since I originally committed to the idea of starting runs again. It's funny, but I don't think by any stretch of the imagination I've been successful in finding the time to "grind". The interest is more certainly rekindled though, which is a success in itself. And, slowly, but surely, I have tested every fleeting thought, discarded strat, and whim that captured my attention during the last 3 months. Equally slowly, that has allowed me to mostly piece together my strat intentions. It feels like hoarding food in a bomb shelter "just in case". "Just in case" I find the time. "Just in case" I pledge that time to Spyro. "Just in case" that discovered time contains enough longevity to see a concrete result. "Just in case".

While still being content with the idea of not PBing again, I've firmly focused on the goal of getting a 49. It feels so similar to the end of my Spyro 3 Any% grind except there's nothing that feels imperative about improving. It makes me nostalgic. Reminiscing about those days is odd to me because my intuition refuses to view them as that long ago. In reality, I've only done runs of Spyro 3 Any% for 3 weeks out of the last 6 1/2 years. Thinking about it like that is transporting. I've always viewed Spyro 3 Any% as my main category and 100 Egg has been adjacent to that core interest, but I have played 100 Egg so much more recently and so much more frequently that my Spyro 3 Any% memories feel like artifacts of my life that surrounded and was intertwined with those memories.

This reads more like a journal entry rather than something informative and I suppose it is. Spyro to me has always been about expression as much as it has been about achievement. Everything we do is a choice that signals in some way who we are.