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HiddenName Today at 11:55 AM
Fweemu
Hope you arr having a good day so farr

FweemyToday at 11:58 AM
im scared

HiddenName Today at 11:59 AM
Why so

FweemyToday at 12:01 PM
i didnt sleept for long enough

HiddenName Today at 12:01 PM
And you have work?

FweemyToday at 12:01 PM
and had pretty a lot of weed
already had work

HiddenName Today at 12:01 PM
Huh oh

FweemyToday at 12:01 PM
12hours
and
had really deep thoughts
about uhh

HiddenName Today at 12:03 PM
About

FweemyToday at 12:03 PM
realizing how everything is actually done or how much work is behind it, thinking and intelligence, cooperative jobs, communication and paperwork, how much money, basically how much life is worth

HiddenName Today at 12:04 PM
Damn you really went deep

FweemyToday at 12:04 PM
and made me thinking about suicidal thoughts

HiddenName Today at 12:05 PM
Ah that's
That's a no no Fweemu

FweemyToday at 12:05 PM
im crying hwe

HiddenName Today at 12:06 PM
Well dunt think about bad things :c
I'd be sad if you started hurting yourself

FweemyToday at 12:07 PM
no i dont think there would be any
just snap

HiddenName Today at 12:07 PM
Bad! D:
Stoooop ><
Fweemu.. Tell me you do not plan to

FweemyToday at 12:11 PM
im trying not to think about it

HiddenName Today at 12:12 PM
Good!
Here!
Grabs da Fweem and holds tightly
No bad thoughts!

FweemyToday at 12:12 PM
but that option has a big % in there y know
i never had such deep mood swing or what ever the this is

HiddenName Today at 12:13 PM
Boops
You gotta think deeply but
About positive stuff

FweemyToday at 12:13 PM
at some points i thought im about to pass out

HiddenName Today at 12:14 PM
Maybe you should sleep a bit?
Since you didn't have much sleep

FweemyToday at 12:14 PM
and vomit too

HiddenName Today at 12:14 PM
Yikes

FweemyToday at 12:15 PM
im sorry Mixy
im not good enough for you

HiddenName Today at 12:15 PM
It's okay Fweemu, I am not upset at you or anything
I am just worried about you
I would be incredibly sad if something bad happened to you
I just don't even want to think about it
Squeezes

FweemyToday at 12:17 PM
i dont think im anyhow good for anyone

HiddenName Today at 12:17 PM
If you think that way, you will actually end up not being
You have to think about improving if you think you are bad

FweemyToday at 12:17 PM
just for low grade paying job, 12hours of slave work

HiddenName Today at 12:18 PM
But I can tell you from what I know
You are not as bad as you may think

FweemyToday at 12:18 PM
thats the only thing im good for
im just working, sleeping
and eating

HiddenName Today at 12:18 PM
If that was only it, how would I have ended up dating you

FweemyToday at 12:19 PM
a mistake

HiddenName Today at 12:19 PM
Pfff

FweemyToday at 12:19 PM
i dragged you down

HiddenName Today at 12:19 PM
A mistake that lasted pretty long? I don't believe that
We all make mistakes Fweemu
Even I wasn't that perfect
And look, if you were that bad, i do not think i would still be talking to you

FweemyToday at 12:24 PM
you are one of the last pieces of dust

HiddenName Today at 12:25 PM
What do you mean

FweemyToday at 12:25 PM
last few
who talks of me
or has not blocked me yet
even people i never talked to blocked me

HiddenName Today at 12:26 PM
Well I still enjoy talking to you
Even if it worries me n stuff
I still care about you
I know you might not believe this
But I do
Now
Want more cuddles?

FweemyToday at 12:31 PM
you know this is not gonna help much

HiddenName Today at 12:32 PM
It's better than nothing

FweemyToday at 12:35 PM
mmhm..
snuggles
i know doctors said i have adhd
but i seen things pointing it out lately
how people reacted
even actually said how i go off-road from the conversation
but i gotta have something else
then just adhd
i had some rough drops onto my head in the before

HiddenName Today at 12:38 PM
Mmh..
Did you look it up?
I know you always look up everything

FweemyToday at 12:39 PM
no..
from doctor side, nothing
i go for simple visit once per few years
oh god
i did it again
thats not what you meant
but yeah.. i dont

HiddenName Today at 12:40 PM
That is alright, it is still part of the same subject

FweemyToday at 12:41 PM
i dont know, im just thinking too much about everything
to the point where even simple things are really hard for me
for example remember something simple
like numbers
i need to do an example for that tho
i tend to off road of the things at random times
and start talking about something else
or as i said, mood swings
no motivation and just simply being dumb into that,
= me
okay this is bad
im off tracking im mid sentence

HiddenName Today at 12:44 PM
Fweemu relax
You are stressing too much
It's making you do simple mistakes
Mmh..
Seems like the only moment I remember you not being stressed was when I used to talk to you a lot

FweemyToday at 12:47 PM
ugh.. thats another thing i got up my mind
wanted to say something
what would sound bad towards you
i realize i tend or at least in the past, i used to try make things look like someone else is responsible for them
wanted to say
i had a lot of friends, no stress about anything, playing games all day
ugh and again having stressful though
cant thing about how deep i should go about this

HiddenName Today at 12:51 PM
So your loneliness is pretty much getting you

FweemyToday at 12:51 PM
i guess
when my only response almost was
just crying reading it

HiddenName Today at 12:53 PM
Mmhn..
I could at least try to type to you everyday
If that can help
Would you like that?

FweemyToday at 12:55 PM
im scared to talk to people
i start to sweat just being in a crowded bus

HiddenName Today at 12:55 PM
But it's me
Are you scared of me?

FweemyToday at 12:55 PM
no im just
its that thing again
just wanted to say that
since i have noone to talk to

HiddenName Today at 12:56 PM
Mmrh
Well, I can at least try to type to you everyday

FweemyToday at 12:57 PM
"its that thing again" by that i meant the ADHD or what ever else i have i dont know
im off tracking a lot i realize it
and yes
this reminds me another thing
im cold
i have no feels

HiddenName Today at 12:58 PM
Pfff

FweemyToday at 12:58 PM
like

HiddenName Today at 12:58 PM
I know probably more than anyone that you have feels

FweemyToday at 12:58 PM
you are trying to help
yet i look like im pushing it away
or even asking you to stop or be mean
or
i dont know how to give affection

HiddenName Today at 12:59 PM
Doesn't stop me from talking to you

FweemyToday at 12:59 PM
im dead
two people of our family died
i didnt even feel anything

HiddenName Today at 1:00 PM
Mmrh..

FweemyToday at 1:00 PM
i dont talk to anyone

HiddenName Today at 1:00 PM
Seems like something really broke in you when we broke up

FweemyToday at 1:00 PM
im just living here in one room for years

HiddenName Today at 1:02 PM
Do you never feel happy to see me?

FweemyToday at 1:02 PM
i do
but i also tend to get really angry or what ever when im not in the mood
and i tend to do bad things
and be just mean, push you away

HiddenName Today at 1:04 PM
Would you like me to type to you everyday?

FweemyToday at 1:04 PM
fucking
you already know the answer
im having trouble breathing here while crying while my nose is full

HiddenName Today at 1:05 PM
Shhhh
Calm down

FweemyToday at 1:05 PM
thinking about way more deep shit

HiddenName Today at 1:05 PM
Fweemu

FweemyToday at 1:05 PM
and you ask such stupid question

HiddenName Today at 1:05 PM
Just
Breathe slowly

FweemyToday at 1:06 PM
you are the only one who knows the most about me
im scared to talk
to trust
because it was used against me many times
scared to talk
because most of the people i love leaves me

HiddenName Today at 1:08 PM
I am still here

FweemyToday at 1:09 PM
there are few people i did tell a bit more about myself
all of them stopped talking to me or blocked me
and funny thing is i dont even remember everyone

HiddenName Today at 1:09 PM
Well i do not plan to do that

FweemyToday at 1:10 PM
i forget lot of things
that adds up to the thing how i said about remembering simple things

HiddenName Today at 1:11 PM
Hey
I won't leave
Okay?
So relax Fweemu

FweemyToday at 1:12 PM
you did in the past for years
i didnt know what to do back then
i got demoted too

HiddenName Today at 1:12 PM
Yeah but now i am here

FweemyToday at 1:12 PM
two things i loved
left me

HiddenName Today at 1:13 PM
I am right here
And we will make things right
Squeezes
FweemFweem?

FweemyToday at 1:20 PM
mmhm

HiddenName Today at 1:20 PM
How do you feel right now

FweemyToday at 1:20 PM
i got back from the trip
im good now
just my face feels like dry glue from the tears

HiddenName Today at 1:21 PM
Go wash your face
That will do you some good