Vrilo: Hey
Anxx: ello
Vrilo: I'll explain
Vrilo: So, I'll start with the Gill incident since everything starts there I think. Well me and Spade were always close, after you were coming on less we continued being very very close. I started to develop feelings for him which I told him about and took full responsibility for. It was a bit difficult for us both at the time because he did admit that he felt a lot for me too but he told me that he actually had a relationship in rl which he never disclosed before because he thought I would stop flirting with him if I knew. I was absolutely torn apart but I respected him and his relationship 100%. After that, I tried to move on so that I wouldnt be in Spades way. I started seeing a guy named Tim and Spade started seeing Gill. Although both me and spade were still jealous over each other, I was scared spade would replace me with gill and spade was scared I'd replace him with Tim.
Anxx: but you guys were parted so why were yall still jealous
Vrilo: So I would get very jealous when I would see gill around. I never had any hate towards him at all, I've hardly ever talked to him actually. I was projecting my jealousy and I'll fully admit that it was wrong of me. So at the same time Spade was also very uncomfortable because Tim would come in the room and spade was jealous as well. We both decided to agree to keep tim and gill out and keep the room as a zone that was free of our romantic pursuits so that we could continue to be friends. It was ripping us apart
Anxx: okay
Vrilo: Because we both still cared for each other. I had feelings for spade which I couldnt switch off. Spade admitted he was having a hard time too because he did find me attractive
Vrilo: As time moved on, Tim helped me get over that infatuation with spade and I was able to calm my jealousy and see things in a better light. I didn't feel any negative things towards gill, I still don't. I wish he would come and talk to me so that I could apologize to him and explain everything
Anxx: i understand this all came about by hurt feelings but i think you took things out of proportions
Anxx: gill doesnt see you as a bad guy he just said he feels yur feelings were hurt and you didnt handle them well
Vrilo: Yes, me and spade both reacted very strongly about the situation. We both felt hurt and scared to lose each other. In retrospect I would have done things a lot differently.
Vrilo: That was pretty much the end of that situation though. Now, the thing with Zu
Anxx: ok
Vrilo: The day before I met Zu in the chat spade was having a conversation with these two girls that were being very rude to him in the chat. They were all talking about Zu, but I had no idea who Zu was at that time. Maybe I was reading the chat too fast but I understood that one of those girls was Zu on another account and spade was pretty angry with them.
Vrilo: So the next day I meet the actual Zu and right away my reaction was like "ohh this is the rude girl from the chat yesterday??"
Vrilo: Like I had no clue, and I was way off. Spade had never told me anything about this prior
Vrilo: If I had known this guy was important to spade I would have started off the conversation a lot differently
Vrilo: I was in a state of confusion, I wasn't ever hostile feeling or angry though. I was just trying to figure things out
Vrilo: Zu is a guy that's pretty confrontation. He's blunt and he says things in a way that sort of come off as insensitive. I'm assuming that's just his personailty although it hit me pretty strongly when he started calling me ignorant just because I was confused about the situation.
Vrilo: I had never seen this guy before, I had no idea he was friends with everyone there. I thought he was some random guy trying to call me out. Yes, I should have slowed down and listened more because things escalated fast. I let my anger get the better of me
Anxx: i understand
Vrilo: To be honest Spade and I have just been fighting on and off since. I want to make things right, I just don't know how right now. I came in the room today with no intent to cause any drama at all. I was positive to everyone, I was holding good conversations
Vrilo: I was only hurt that Spade ignored me the whole time and never said hi to me
Vrilo: Although I suppose I can understand considering spade seems stressed over everything
Vrilo: And lastly, Liv I am sorry you got pulled into this and you had to spend your time sorting out all our drama. It should have never gotten this far and I deeply apologize.
Anxx: its fine it just made me mad when you refused to talk to me
Vrilo: I understand. I'm sorry I left, it was a rash action because I was stressed out
Anxx: you made me want to punch you
Vrilo: I really apologize. Thank you for hearing me out, you're very kind
Vrilo: And I hope everything is going well in your rl. I'm so proud of you for graduating
Vrilo: Both me and Spade missed you everyday
Anxx: you guys can talk to me
Anxx: i go through periods where i just get bored of imvu
Vrilo: That's understandable
Vrilo: I really appreciated that you made me mod in your room. I really want to assure you, because it's going to weigh on me if I don't say it, that I never abused the mod power. I'm not the type of guy that likes to boot anyone. I'm like that with my own rooms and I always treated your room that way as well.
Vrilo: Almost 100% of the time I just sit there, I chat a bit, I zone out, I enjoy being around friends, and I just have a good time.
Anxx: well see this is the only form of punishment  have
Vrilo: I understand
Vrilo: Is it both me and spade?