Hurt that has cut me to my very soul

I deal with it

secrets kept cause  if let out they aren't believed

I deal with that

There is my past that's not so good

I deal with that

but the thought of losing the one i love

I just cant deal with that

I am happy for the first time in a long time

yet people try to ruin it

I finally smile again

I have someone I can talk to for hours and smile the whole time

someone I can tell the secrets too

someone to help me get past it all

but there are still the ones that look to hurt me

not always on purpose but it still hurts

all the little things done and said

the hurt that is so unbearable

the tears flow yet they are not seen

pain is easy to see in my eyes

yet still no one sees what it all does to me

i trust and i get hurt

i still try to trust but it always turns out the same

no ideas left

no clue how to fix what has been done

HOW DO YOU GET PAST A LIFE OF PAIN AND HURT WHEN IT NEVER ENDS HOW DO YOU EVEN SURVIVE?????????