(9:06:05 PM) Tox: I'd rather not get into details, but suffice to say there's a completely valid reason I knee-jerk noped back there.  Scantron and I talked it out, and he gets it.  Just so you know.
(9:06:23 PM) Mr_Wilt: Uh what
(9:06:32 PM) Tox: ?
(9:06:41 PM) Tox: Back when I was, as it was put, flipping shits
(9:07:51 PM) Mr_Wilt: Oh.
(9:07:52 PM) Mr_Wilt: Yeah.
(9:08:07 PM) Mr_Wilt: I kind of want you to explain to me why you seem to have such a problem with homosexual anythings regarding your characters.
(9:08:13 PM) Mr_Wilt: I am also curious.
(9:08:20 PM) Mr_Wilt: You don't have to tell me if you don't want to, but
(9:08:24 PM) Mr_Wilt: I'd like to know
(9:09:21 PM) Tox: ...Alright.  *IF* you promise me that this goes no further than this window.  This is my srsface.
(9:10:08 PM) Mr_Wilt: Sequins is also curious, so you may want to consider telling her, but I promise that I won't tell anybody.
(9:10:20 PM) Tox: aw christ
(9:10:25 PM) Mr_Wilt: Just to prove I won't, I'm already holding an incredibly scandalous secret from a member of FR.
(9:10:29 PM) Mr_Wilt: NO WE WERE TALKING ABOUT IT BEFORE
(9:10:30 PM) Tox: why is everybody prying
(9:10:30 PM) Mr_Wilt: DON'T WORRY
(9:10:31 PM) Mr_Wilt: <:U
(9:10:34 PM) Mr_Wilt: I'm sorry.
(9:10:37 PM) Mr_Wilt: I won't tell her.
(9:10:40 PM) Mr_Wilt: Don't worry.
(9:11:10 PM) ***Tox huff
(9:11:24 PM) Tox: fine, as long as I'm feeling so christfucking *open* today
(9:11:33 PM) Mr_Wilt: :<
(9:11:37 PM) Mr_Wilt: Sorry.
(9:11:45 PM) Tox: I tried a homosexual relationship.  It didn't work.  It ended on negative terms.
(9:11:54 PM) Mr_Wilt: Like, IRL?
(9:11:57 PM) Tox: Yeah.
(9:12:06 PM) Mr_Wilt: Ah.
(9:12:08 PM) Mr_Wilt: I see.
(9:12:18 PM) Mr_Wilt: I'd ask more but that'd be rude.
(9:12:20 PM) Mr_Wilt: But I understand.
(9:12:40 PM) Tox: Again, as long as I'm being an open book today, ask and ye shall receive.
(9:13:15 PM) Mr_Wilt: Why/how did it end on negative terms?
(9:13:32 PM) Mr_Wilt: Did you think you were gay and just find out "Oh well nope I'm definitely not gay", try to break it to the guy, went south from there?
(9:13:46 PM) Tox: My body refused to let me..........how do you say.  'Consummate' the relationship?  :/
(9:14:26 PM) Tox: I thought I was bi.  A mutual friend put us in contact.
(9:14:26 PM) Mr_Wilt: To what extent?
(9:14:45 PM) Tox: Jesus fuck, how much clearer do I need to make that?
(9:15:09 PM) Mr_Wilt: Alright, sorry.
(9:15:21 PM) Tox: ...Sorry, sorry
(9:15:25 PM) Tox: I shouldn't have snapped like that
(9:16:00 PM) Tox: it's just that people jump down my throat and then I need to open myself and dig up something that I thought I had well buried in my past :<
(9:16:13 PM) Mr_Wilt: I wasn't ever going to ask.
(9:16:18 PM) Mr_Wilt: You brought it up, in my defense.
(9:16:18 PM) Mr_Wilt: :/
(9:16:27 PM) Tox: No, I'm not saying you're in the wrong
(9:16:40 PM) Tox: but I felt I needed to explain myself to defend against charges of homophobia
(9:16:55 PM) Mr_Wilt: Well, at least you cleared me up
(9:17:01 PM) Mr_Wilt: Because I did suspect homophobia
(9:17:01 PM) Mr_Wilt: But!
(9:17:03 PM) Mr_Wilt: But!
(9:17:17 PM) Mr_Wilt: I did suspect an underlying cause, so I knew you weren't blindly going about being a homophobe.
(9:17:18 PM) Mr_Wilt: If that helps.
(9:17:31 PM) Tox: What led you to suspect there was a cause?
(9:17:42 PM) Tox: And have I satisfied you as to my lack of homophobia?
(9:17:52 PM) Mr_Wilt: Yes you have.
(9:18:01 PM) Mr_Wilt: But because you were so /vehemently/ against it, for one.
(9:18:18 PM) Mr_Wilt: Another reason would be how openly sexual you are, so it wouldn't make sense for you for there not to be a cause.
(9:18:53 PM) Tox: Both fair points.
(9:19:43 PM) Tox: Although how does vehemence suggest an underlying cause?  <curious>
(9:21:14 PM) Mr_Wilt: Sorry, I was putting laundry in the dryer.
(9:21:15 PM) Mr_Wilt: Anyways
(9:21:32 PM) Tox: s'cool, RL happens
(9:22:11 PM) Mr_Wilt: From my experience, homophobia usually isn't that direct, unless in groups of questionable moral (i.e. strong religious groups like Westboro)
(9:22:24 PM) Mr_Wilt: As people nowadays tend to be ashamed of their homophobia.
(9:22:36 PM) Mr_Wilt: Another reason as to why I suspected an underlying cause, if I may add in
(9:22:39 PM) Mr_Wilt: And this ties into the vehemency
(9:22:40 PM) Tox: Add away.
(9:22:51 PM) Mr_Wilt: Is that you only had a problem when it was directed at you.
(9:23:00 PM) Mr_Wilt: You didn't have a problem with homosexuality in general.
(9:23:06 PM) Tox: No, and I stated as much
(9:24:25 PM) ***Mr_Wilt feels all smart now.
(9:25:00 PM) Tox: ....I'm feeling /really/ vulnerable suddenly.
(9:25:58 PM) Tox: I've explained myself to Scantron and now to you, and that's two more people who know this about me.  I just.... :/
(9:26:42 PM) Mr_Wilt: I don't judge you for it.
(9:27:04 PM) Tox: I didn't expect that you would.
(9:27:58 PM) Tox: but I've spawned two more sources that I can't control
(9:28:40 PM) Mr_Wilt: Hey, fuck you.
(9:28:51 PM) Mr_Wilt: I haven't told anybody of ___________'s big secret.
(9:28:55 PM) Tox: No.  I know that.
(9:28:57 PM) Mr_Wilt: And it's a /big/ secret.
(9:29:14 PM) Tox: I know that /intellectually/ is the key.
(9:30:21 PM) Tox: It's just that this is something that the people who know about it I can still only count on one hand, and I'm kicking myself for putting myself in a position where I would have to use it to clear myself of suspicion.
(9:30:45 PM) Tox: because I don't want to come off as a homophobe
(9:32:26 PM) Mr_Wilt: I offer you my hugs.
(9:32:46 PM) ***Tox hugs
(9:32:56 PM) ***Mr_Wilt hugs.